Lana

this sideblog is dedicated to the shitty 1m x 3m smoking area I glorify in my head

[craigslits]

[somedaywewillshinetogether]

[sleezesista]

[levixwatson]

[bloodofelves]

GHOST IN THE SHELL 1995 | dir. Mamoru Oshii

[impuls1ve]

i listened to my body and it's asking for substances

[kafaminguzelligi]

[prinnay]

y o u a r e n o t a l o n e .

[voodooya]

[dahmerskitchen]

[sam-is-moths]

Oh, 4am, we've got to stop meeting like this

[zegalba]

cemetery flowers after the ice storm photography: Peter Fricke

[confinedlight]

Palazzo Gate, Rome, Italy

[akindplace]

Lyrics for the song 26 by Paramore, “reality will break your heart/ survival will not be the hardest part/ it’s keeping your hopes alive/ when the rest of you has died/ so let it break to heart/ and hold onto hope if you got it/ don’t let it go for nobody/ hold onto hope if you got it/ don’t let it go for nobody/ they say that dreaming is free/ I wouldn’t care what it cost me”

[the-jesus-pill]

You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[dead-core]

there are always new and exciting abandonment issues yet to be discovered