My fellow tumblrians, I have stumbled upon a perpetuum mobile of creativity and I cannot get off. Let me explain:
Late in the month of April of the year 2026 of our emotionally intelligent carpenter, I sat down to play a 4 year-old video game, a sequel, after having just finished the first game. The first game was fantastic - I was happy to continue the story.
Playing this second game destroyed me, in stages, in iterations, thorougly and mercilessly.
I felt an urge to rectify some of this upset, so I wrote a small fluff-piece of barely 2.5k words, a wholesome, innocent insert fleshing out a relationship that I wish had gotten developed even more.
Over the next week or so, the little fluff piece grew into a full smut fic, because of course it did.
The smut fic, written with a 3rd person focalizer, made me want to write the other party's perspective.
I applied for an AO3 account, wondering why I had never done so before in 20 years of internetting. My 2 weeks waiting time were scheduled to end on May 5th. I started writing the sister piece for the smut fic.
Writing from said other character's perspective necessitated making decisions about his past, to make allusions to it here and there, as the game had done - it made me want to "find out" more. Two early and very nice comments on the smut fic(s) encouraged me. So I started writing a backstory.
It has been roughly 70 days since I finished A Plague Tale: Requiem.
My backstory for Arnaud Malpart, redeemable daddy, stands at about 30k words and counting; I have spent hours researching minute details noone will ever care about (so far, so writer's experience); drawn multiple illustrations, most of characters that do not feature in the game; I spent all afternoon and some of the night today composing a piece of soundtrack music that spawned in my head while workshopping a scene. It references Arnaud's/"The Wall"'s musical theme subtly and is very kitshy.
I love this. I'm firing on all chaotically creative jack-of-all-trades cylinders just because I got too sad about a well-written game and I am still not burnt out. My original quest has failed - it is now MORE painful to play the game because of what I KNOW all happened before now - but I'll take the trade-off.