Felt it

struggle with bad vibes 🔥

[larizafeltit]

How could I tell you to fall in love with me?How could I be prettier so you do?I could explain an empty stomachBut not my heart that starved.

How could I tell you it hurts ?How could I tell you I can feel and cannot numb this pain?How could I tell you to look into my eyes?How could I not beg and still get love?

[perfectquote]

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown

[larizafeltit]

If The World Ends

If the world is going to end let me meet love for once. I want to be chased in a field of roses where thorns dont bear pain. hold my cold palms or maybe sweaty How ever you find them.

let me see no other human But birds singing a love song Wind blowing and you fixed my hair. I'll help you with the twigs stuck in yours.

When the sunset tell me the dusk wont take us apart. let me gather some hay A little place for us to lay. I will sing for you in the night while the birds are asleep.

To the morning I await. Let me never wakeup If I wont wakeup next to you.

[twohousesoftheholy]

FLAWED

She was flawed Beauty approaching a goddess Intelligence approaching genius Poetic like the greatest muse More facets than a diamond She refused To realize it Yet I was adamant I wanted all of it

[larizafeltit]

I knew love was beautiful I knew much better what was being unloved While hearts raced with excitement Mine was a panic attack

I've seen delusions dancing beside a window with sunshine Chants of affection in my ears whispering "You're beautiful and there's nothing more I want"

I've seen reality I've been ignored while those eyes chased another It was bitter for me to know The idea of being loved To be romanticized is now devoured

See those eyes filled with no sparkle but full of tears Heart heavy I cannot weigh Numerous options But I cannot end my life that way.

[larizafeltit]

Unpredictable weather Raging storm with rain all over I met you knew you were my sunshine

My face needed a glow And you made me laugh so bad Unsaid request A bouquet in my hand

These eyes that admired mine Never knew about them before You made me known To the things I thought I never deserved.

[larizafeltit]

I am falling out of love

Cuz once I've been to a better place

I've been admired and cared

Where I knew it just happened in fairy tales.

I'm falling out of love

Cuz I have been wrapped in warmest arms

I've been romanticized on staircases

I laughed in unknown places

I am out of love

My heart dont feed on words

Here's a buffet of lies

I am out of love

End this bondage, please let me free.

[goldenangelll]

it makes me terrible, i know. i destroy the things i touch just to prove that they can break.

- l.r

[larizafeltit]

how could something feel so right yet so wrong.

[beautyandsstuff]

Please help me heal from the wounds that I never claimed to be mine.

[larizafeltit]

Every time I'm hurt and over thinking

I doubt myself if it is real .

You guys have thought me to doubt my emotions and said it was just a post menstrual syndrome.

[larizafeltit]

I am..

Wait let me open the dictionary and figure it out what it is called to be a person who ends up loving every person who comes her way, overthinking, fear of being cheated, fear of betrayal, fear of losing. Thinking the worst. And end up seeing everything that she thought coming into reality.

I am..

the one who can start a new world with all love and can write my own journey to my death.

[larizafeltit]

I can still close my eyes

See myself leaning on the wall while you held my chin

The night you've kissed me like I've never been

Your hands touching the untouched.

While we danced in the mid of that night

The song you played still echoes

It all went on that moment only if I could pause it forever.

Wish I could ask you to make me feel that way once again

Cuz all now I feel is pain

Wish I could tell you just for once make me feel better

I'd go on my knees just to beg you

please! Be excited about me just the way you were that day

Or tell me if I can change any of my ways

So you be all here and not away.

[larizafeltit]

“And I hope we meet real soon like when we struck each other we’d be like gosh someone like that someone like me we’ll have poetry in our soul rhyme alike maybe not the same sensitive and humorous who’d understand pain”

— LARIZA

[larizafeltit]

I knew how it could all go right

But I chose not to

Knowing all the possible mess

It was a deal

Not a true heart

In the erra of first copies

I sense motives

Teach me how to hide

Aggression under a smile

To pretend to love

Even when I dislike

I knew it would all go wrong

Yet I chose you

To feel love and care

Turning into a nightmare

Tell me I'm not good enough

To take my own decisions

That my mind is handicapped

And healing is not in my control.

[larizafeltit]

My angles betrayed

Now I dress for a monster

Said that family story stays within

So I had no option to swallow it deep

While all the tales haunted while I breathe

Hours days and years were numbers

heart swelled with hurts unhealed

Taking refuge in cheap brandy and stolen Hennessy

It was 8th grade

Angels were all I had

Maybe I wasn't all they had

Remember my first shelter in alcohol filled water bottle

Classroom smelled like bar

Strong enough to act sober

Escaping every fall

reached home but the pain ain't over

I moved to another place

Prior! it was 1st grade

To the heaven I imagined

To meeting up my unexpectation

Yet I said "this is my sanctuary "

Soked in alcohol in the name of first love

College was just an excuse for booze

Three years of love or was it three years of being drunk.

[larizafeltit]

I was off Tumblr assuming I'm off depression but it never was, all I did was stopped writing about it and it consumed me more every second.

Poet was not my call and I just loved depression was something a lay person thought and I tried to convince myself the same.

Love is real and making others happy had been my priority but it felt different when none felt the same to me.

Wasn't a fool but their silence around me made me a clown.