so I’ve been chewing on an idea for a couple of days now brought onto me by @hr-rep. Picture a scenario where in the Shane and Ilya’s first time penetrative „Don’t worry it will fit” it turns out that it doesn’t fit… but it also turns out that Shane is very much into the fact that it doesn’t.
I kinda see this going two ways and both end up influencing the trajectory of their relation.
So there’s Ilya working Shane open on his hand and it’s going very slow. Ilya’s trying his best to do it right, and he knows he’s big and if Shane stays so tight it is not going to work. He tries to get him to relax, brushes his hand at the back of Shane’s neck, voice low and steady talking him through it. Then when he pushes in, it just doesn’t give, and it’s Ilya’s instinct to retreat and call it a day, get each other off like they’re used to. Except!!! Shane’s vision kinda goes white at the intrusion and it hurts but he wants more and his mind focuses only on this one thing. He whines and moans and Ilya’s already pulled back saying we don’t have to, we can try next time. And Shane is desperate to chase that feeling, wants to feel it again, for hours. He says, quietly please please it feels so good.
And they’re both so stressed because they’ve been waiting for this and Ilya wants this to be good for Shane and his brain is kind of stuck in a loop of hurtshane-makeshanefeelgood where he wasn’t anticipating a scenario in which those things are not mutually exclusive.
If Ilya pulled away and said he can’t do it or that they shouldn’t do it like that his first time, imagine what that would do to poor Shane’s brain. Not only is he gay, which if the fact ever saw the light of day his entire career would be in ruin. And now it turns out that he’s also some freak of nature who gets off on his sexual partners hurting him. And he had trusted Ilya with so much of himself that no one else gets to see already, and in the end Ilya, too, rejected him. He’d make Ilya leave shortly after that, and he’d spend the night glaring at the ceiling and beating himself up, vowing to himself to never put himself in a situation like that again. And Ilya tries to reach out to him, asking if he’s okay, if he wants to hook up again, maybe if he just wants to talk but Shane is so so deep in that well that he ends up blocking Ilya’s number.
But then if Ilya went through with it, goaded by Shane’s come on come on it’s just like slamming me into the boards I’m gonna like it it’s part of the game and Shane is so tight and so hot and the sounds he is making are on the verge of agony and ecstasy but Shane’s pushing back into him and a thought settles in Ilya’s head this is how he wants it, give him anything he asks for and his thrusts are getting rougher and Shane is getting louder until Ilya tightens his grip on his ass and slams forward, nailing Shane’s prostate with full force and then Shane is coming, a litany of fuckfuckfuck and moans and after a beat of silence a quiet whispered thank you. And they don’t really talk about it (not until years later anyway), but some unspoken agreement is made, some sort of thread is formed that pulls them back towards each other like magnets, pathetically and helplessly and there’s no one else for them after that.
Anyway, what do you think would happen?
