disinterest practiced, but incomplete

Anna/32/CET big fan of the canadian government funded hockey yaoi VESNUSZKI.TXT /// VESNUSZKI.JPG /// THE POLAROID AGENDA

[nevver]

After Amityville, David Catalano

[jareckiworld]

Modupeola Fadugba — Four Friends, One Reflection (acrylic, ink, and metal leaf, on canvas, 2023)

[vesnuszki]

oh they HAD TO include that extra second with the hand down his pants, which is the exact position ill be watching that show in

[russianblush]

HUDSON WILLIAMS as HENRY PARK YAGA (TEASER TRAILER) 2026

[naturalpr3y]

the drag hunt official playlist is so good you guys are listening to the drag hunt official playlist right

[silverssorrysoul]

drag hunt my beloved drag hunt playlist my beloved

[russianblush]

ilya: *consent king* shane: please just shut up and fuck me

[vesnuszki]

so I’ve been chewing on an idea for a couple of days now brought onto me by @hr-rep. Picture a scenario where in the Shane and Ilya’s first time penetrative „Don’t worry it will fit” it turns out that it doesn’t fit… but it also turns out that Shane is very much into the fact that it doesn’t.

I kinda see this going two ways and both end up influencing the trajectory of their relation.

So there’s Ilya working Shane open on his hand and it’s going very slow. Ilya’s trying his best to do it right, and he knows he’s big and if Shane stays so tight it is not going to work. He tries to get him to relax, brushes his hand at the back of Shane’s neck, voice low and steady talking him through it. Then when he pushes in, it just doesn’t give, and it’s Ilya’s instinct to retreat and call it a day, get each other off like they’re used to. Except!!! Shane’s vision kinda goes white at the intrusion and it hurts but he wants more and his mind focuses only on this one thing. He whines and moans and Ilya’s already pulled back saying we don’t have to, we can try next time. And Shane is desperate to chase that feeling, wants to feel it again, for hours. He says, quietly please please it feels so good.

And they’re both so stressed because they’ve been waiting for this and Ilya wants this to be good for Shane and his brain is kind of stuck in a loop of hurtshane-makeshanefeelgood where he wasn’t anticipating a scenario in which those things are not mutually exclusive.

If Ilya pulled away and said he can’t do it or that they shouldn’t do it like that his first time, imagine what that would do to poor Shane’s brain. Not only is he gay, which if the fact ever saw the light of day his entire career would be in ruin. And now it turns out that he’s also some freak of nature who gets off on his sexual partners hurting him. And he had trusted Ilya with so much of himself that no one else gets to see already, and in the end Ilya, too, rejected him. He’d make Ilya leave shortly after that, and he’d spend the night glaring at the ceiling and beating himself up, vowing to himself to never put himself in a situation like that again. And Ilya tries to reach out to him, asking if he’s okay, if he wants to hook up again, maybe if he just wants to talk but Shane is so so deep in that well that he ends up blocking Ilya’s number.

But then if Ilya went through with it, goaded by Shane’s come on come on it’s just like slamming me into the boards I’m gonna like it it’s part of the game and Shane is so tight and so hot and the sounds he is making are on the verge of agony and ecstasy but Shane’s pushing back into him and a thought settles in Ilya’s head this is how he wants it, give him anything he asks for and his thrusts are getting rougher and Shane is getting louder until Ilya tightens his grip on his ass and slams forward, nailing Shane’s prostate with full force and then Shane is coming, a litany of fuckfuckfuck and moans and after a beat of silence a quiet whispered thank you. And they don’t really talk about it (not until years later anyway), but some unspoken agreement is made, some sort of thread is formed that pulls them back towards each other like magnets, pathetically and helplessly and there’s no one else for them after that.

Anyway, what do you think would happen?

[shanehollandered]

hookup era hollanov snippet

Rozanov’s grin grows. “Or maybe,” he drawls when Shane stays silent, unable to give an answer. “You are my consolation prize?”

Shane’s stomach feels funny and the skin of his scalp prickles. His face is unbearably hot but he refuses to duck his head, even when Rozanov’s eyes track over his cheeks, taking it all in with obvious delight.

“You fucking wish,” Shane says with a roll of his eyes. “Besides, a consolation prize is worth shit. Don’t tell me you’d actually want one.”

And oh—that’s probably what the girl Rozanov planned to meet up with was. Well. She definitely would have been a consolation prize.

Rozanov grins at him, wide and happy. He leans in then, mouth so close to Shane’s ear that Shane feels his lips against it. “No. I want the jackpot.”

It makes Shane squirm and shudder, makes him sway into Rozanov even as he leans back again to catch Shane’s gaze, as if he was a moth drawn to a flame: helpless but to fly too close to something that would inevitably burn him.

Except…Rozanov doesn’t burn him. He sets Shane ablaze, yes, but he doesn’t burn him. Maybe that’s the problem.

“For losing?” Shane manages to say somewhat steadily, even with his heart beating on his tongue. “That’s fucking rich, dude.”

Rozanov’s still grinning but it turns devious. “So you think you are jackpot?”

Shane sucks in a breath. “That’s not—you said—” He clamps his mouth shut, flustered. “I’m not here to—be anything. I just—”

“Just what?” Rozanov asks, eyes alight with teasing joy, and Shane wants to kiss him so badly it almost distracts him from answering.

“There’s nobody else who knows how this win feels but you,” Shane blurts. It’s true. And it’s a shitty thing to say, considering Rozanov lost both the game and his chance at the Cup this year, and Shane is the reason for it, and Shane isn’t sorry for that, he’s proud and happy, and he knows—he knows—Rozanov would think less of him if Shane actually felt bad about his victory, but it’s not like Shane wants to rub it in, not really, not at all. It’s—

It’s that while the loss undeniably stings Rozanov, maybe he’s proud of Shane for winning, too.

The thought fully forms before Shane has the wherewithal to stop it from happening. And once it’s there, it spreads a weird, hopeful feeling through his entire body that’s hard to ignore and even harder to tamp down, laying bare something he doesn’t want to look too closely at.

[antiquedeuce]

Will you be the fig to my pomegranate?

[crossnecklace]

don’t get me started on virginilya now….. can you imagine him inventing domming shane from his own beautiful mind

[crossnecklace]

so i’m thinking… rookie/captain au where we turn ilya’s arrogance dial down just a little and turn up his family’s conservative background a teeny bit. he was rebellious in school and has maybe kissed some girls and messed around a little but really was too sheltered as a teenager to go beyond that. then a girl he really liked toyed with his feelings for a really long time and he thought he’d lose it to her but he never did and sasha never happened bc abusive catholic family and boom we have virginilya. and it starts with little things. just ilya telling asking captain shane to get him water and tie his laces and it’s just some stupid game he’s playing to make himself feel powerful but shane just. does it. every time. he rolls his pretty eyes and he calls ilya an asshole but he does it.

and ilya’s getting increasingly horny about it but is terrified to make a move because if it goes wrong he loses everything. shane on the other hand, has a fair amount of experience but just doesn’t really go out of his way for sex bc the risk doesn’t feel worth it, and he has the FATTEST crush on ilya but he’s scared that ilya isn’t even gay and will laugh in his face and out him to everyone. plus he’s a 19 year old rookie and what is shane some kind of pervert?

so we have them dancing around each other, glances that last too long and pointless circling conversations that leave them both reeling like was that? was he? no, that’s impossible. endless games of simon says and go fetch that start to feel less and less like games. until one day they’re alone in the showers and shane is naked and wet and looking at him and ilya feels himself getting hard and red in the face until he sees shane is hard too and he’s been wanting it so bad for so long he just blurts it out. touch yourself.

and shane does :P

[sapphyshipseverything]

скорпион (scorpion) | 1/1 | 15k

(hollanov, BDSM, sadism, ilya character study, mean Dom Ilya Rozanov)

It’s in the scorpion’s nature to sting.  And it’s in the frog’s, to be stung. 

Or, an exploration of Ilya's sadism

[pixe7edextras]

sculpture based art studies but make them #hollanov

[miamaimania]

✨ Shattered Elegance: Balmain S/S 2019 ✨

[hollanoveau]

it’s late 2016. shane hollander is dating rose landry. ilya rozanov is breaking every traffic law known to man in his hideous sports car and tearfully scream-singing DONTCHA WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME….. DONTCHA WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS A FREAK LIKE ME…..

these two things, of course, have nothing to do with each other

[cuppydogshane]

Ilya: No. We will go back to our seats, watch the rest of this boring show, and then go to boring party after. And then, when you have been waiting aaaalll night, you'll come back to my hotel room, and I will maybe, Maybe, do more than just suck your dick.

Shane:

[seinfeldr]

[heartsl0b]

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