polarity
I've been struggling with my perception, as an unhappy, single heterosexual woman, of men. I feel anxious, unsafe, cautious and unfulfilled with men whom I talk to and meet with. And it makes me doubt myself. Am I doing something wrong? Am I lacking in certain areas? Have I been too enthusiastic, because god forbid I show signs of liking someone.
I refuse to become bitter and "stay positive" (as all the people around me keep telling me that my mindset is the most important and I should keep a positive mindset). So I know and choose to keep faith in my believe that there are good men out there. Men who are consistent, considerate, caring and interested. Which are the first words that come up when I think of men who have been the complete opposite lately. This has made me speak out a hatred towards men even. Which I do not proudy announce. But I have come to the conclusion that I do not feel, and have not felt, safe around men.
