REFLECTIONS. Mourning the end of 2017. This time last year in 2016 I was in a job I hated, the only solace I had was being able to listen to HP Lovecraft on audiobooks while I worked. Had MASSIVE suicidal depression. My relationships with people was turbulent, to say the least. Then 2017 came. I was laid off from that job and I felt no sadness, scared yes, but once that was gone I was excited to start something new. The universe changed everything at the right time and I applied for esthetics school a week before the cut off date, so I could go right away. I graduated in August with a job offer right away and have been loving my job ever since. I got my Cthulhu tattoo to thank HP for keeping me out of my head and into his world for an escape. I also got my white stag and moon tattoo, my spirit animal, who always visits me in dreams for comfort and counsel. My Horned God mixed with the Moon Goddess work together in my dreams to save me from the wrong paths I was choosing to guide me on the right path, and I smile every time I see that tattoo. Old relationships faded and left to give room for new relationships to grow. I finally connected with the love of my life. We met in 2016 but my head, and I'm sure his head too, were in different places and I'm glad nothing happened. We both made a choice to give each other a chance at the perfect time in our lives. Now I'm sharing a bed with him and my dog every night and he's still passed out in bed next to me while I write this. With that new relationship new friendships and experiences came along with it, which allowed me to travel more this year than I ever have in my life! 2017 was by far the best, and craziest, year of my life and I can feel myself growing more into who I truly am meant to be. I'm sad to see it go. I may have gotten darker, but I'm feeling love more than ever. Let's hope 2018 brings just as much happiness, or more!! But I've realized that it's up to whether we listen to what the universe is trying to tell us or not. Thoughts on that in the next post to come. . . . #newyear #newyearreflection #reflect #thoughts #goodbye2017

















