In the 21st century it’s really hard to live without anxiety, don’t you think? I mean, all of us have someone to look up to. Most often those are the people who just call them ‘’influencers‘’. What is an influencer anyway, huh? Who on Earth even made that word up?
You wanna know who they really are? Those are just people who had enough strengths to face their insecurities, overcome them and become who they were born to be. Not all of us can do that, can we? Yeah, there are a lot of motivational quotes like ‘’Be yourself‘’, ‘’Believe in yourself ‘’, ‘’You are all you need‘’ etc. but do we really sink into them? Do we really believe in those words and do anything about them?
I mean, that’s really a great topic to discuss as there are whole lotta movies with the message that we should accept who we are, love ourselves as we are and believe in our decisions and strengths. Yeah, it’s cool to hear, it’s really great to fully understand the meanings of those words, to sink into them, but do we really do that? Even if we do for a split second, do we stick to their meanings?
I guess the only thing we do is creating that version of ourselves on social media without really becoming it. We show everyone how we love and cherish ourselves, how good of a life we have and how happy we are. But are we really? Do you think you’re as happy as your Instagram shows you? If you are, I’m genuinely very very glad. But, unfortunately, I don’t think that’s the case with most of the people.
I can talk only from my point of view, I know that. But that’s enough for me to say that social media is what creates anxiety nowadays. Even though I know believing in yourself is the right way of living, I just can’t do that. And the most horrible part is I can’t really name any particular reason for that.
God, I have too many insecurities. I just can’t leave my comfort zone when it comes to the topics about me, I just can’t take a step towards new better me, I just can’t start loving me. I know that kills me inside, but I just can’t. I keep on opening new social media accounts and trying to be extra-honest there, but no one likes it. I’m just genuinely not interesting for anyone. And that kills every little motivation I get from those movies/books with ‘’believe in yourself‘’ message. That tears me into tiny little pieces: people don’t like me, I’m not interesting for anyone, I have nothing to share, I’m no one in this society... Is it only me? Tell me it isn’t, please?...
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I’m kinda trying to work all these things out in my head, trying to understand what’s the main message of this story. I guess it’s being honest, especially with yourself. Face yourself and love yourself even if no one else does. I know I’m saying the same things I was criticizing higher, but that’s really the only way to happiness. That’s the only way we can start really loving ourselves... :)