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Why do my finger nails keep growing i didn't ask them to

I'd love to

cherish you every waking hour, protect you from everything that hurts you, soothe you when you are yet again shaken, support you when everything seems daunting, cuddle with you, cook with you, watch your favourite shows with you, fall asleep next to you, go through uncertain stages of dating with you, spend most average of days with you, and I'd love to see grand sights with you, study with you in the same room, kiss you good night, show you how warming love can be. I'd love to tell you "I love you and I have hid this feeling from both you and myself until I couldn't ignore it any longer", I'd love to hear you reply "so do I".

But I don't think you'd allow me to. But I don't think I can stand to lose you And so I can't. And I can't cherish you every waking hour, and I can't hide my feelings from you much longer, and I can't always protect you from everything that hurts you, and I can't use this as motivition to improve much longer, and I can't always soothe you when you are yet again shaken, and I can't see you smile not knowing that I lie to you much longer, and I can't support you when everything seems daunting, and I can't cuddle with you, and I don't know how this will end, I only know that I can barely see the letters any more. I just hope that someone can show you how warming love can be. I hope it will be me, I can't stand the thought of never feeling your love, I can not imagine life without you in it. But I should've realised sooner that I was playing with fire, all those nights talking to you, all those years of friendship, every embrace we shared, every time you allowed me to support you, I can't betray that trust by falling in love. I shouldn't, I mustn't, I know you can't answer kind, but that was fine, I wasn't falling in love, I was merely growing closer to a friend. And then I realized, I'd love to hug you more often, laugh with you more often, cuddle and read with you more often, feel you lying on top of me more often,

And suddenly, I wanted to tell everyone about this new feeling, these new sensations and for the first weeks it was fun, and every second with you is a gift from the heavens, but every time I leave you I feel like crying, like I just lost another chance, like I caught a splinter that I can't get out, like I just burned myself with glowing steel, like I got caught being helpless. I can only try to do better and tell you. But I can never tell you now, it never seems right, I don't want to burden you with my love, I know how daunting it seems to you, how much you are scared of it, how scarred your family left you. I think I'd love you to love me, but I'd be happy if you can forgive me my emotions for you.

#fallen friend #maria if you are reading this #this is about you and I hope I havent doomed our friendship just yet #i-wanted-to-write-a-poem-idk-what-this-is

Fucking hell my appendix decided to randomly and with barely an hours worth of warning fail and burst and while getting it removed was done rather quickly, getting an organ removed hurts a lot. It isn't the pain I felt yesterday, writhing on my bad and uncontrollably chattering my teeth while my arms and legs started to tingle like they all had fallen asleep on me (this barely took twenty minutes, after that I could walk again, if barely so, however, it was twenty minutes which were far more painful than absently minded touching red hot steel while welding without gloves). The pain I feel today as duller and less sharp, at least while lying down. It really annoys me though, because sitting is the most painful, and walking to the toilet is just below that.

@theUS-Americans don't worry, my German health insurance has got me covered

#appendix #hospital #medical

It brings me great joy to text my “modern, cool and hip” cousins in the cringiest early 2000′s short hand possible. They just ignore it but I know it annoys them

I am just so overtly happy to live in a tinyish town in Germany with real bakeries who get their grain locally and produce bread with out preservatives because damn after eating toast for two days this it is heavenly to feel the grain to have bread that has character both in taste in texture, which smells of just something more than plain fucking toast. I love good bread.

#good-bread #toast-hate #bread #bakeries #bakery

I live close to a kindergarten and it just melt my heart seeing the tiny little ones with their backpacks barely large enough for one lunchbox and one (1) fancy rock from the playground.

My current mental state: humming the tetris melody

This is probably my flashiest pen and came with a handwritten letter by the company chairman. First impressions: It’s opulent, and to a level that is simply laughable. Wrapped in what I presume to be wrapping tissue, it came in a leatherette box, which contained a massive chunk of wood called an imperial blue presentation box, wrapped in velvet. Now that is a presentation which makes you hold your breath, and the pen inside is no less jaw dropping. The material comes with a depth and chatoyance that just has you marveling at the inticracy of it all.

It writes beautifully to, supremely comfortable, threads out of the way, so there’s more to this than just superficial looks. The 18K fine nib is rather well tuned, a good balance of smoothness with just the barest hint of feedback, good flow but not overbearing and well balanced to give you some shading yet enough to distraxt you. After you’ve stopped marveling at it’s stunning looks, it really gets out of the way and you learn its personality is even more charming, so to speak. I would say I’m probably more in love with this pen than most of the girls I’ve liked so far but I am friends with some of them and I don’t want to insult them. #fountainpens #onoto https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ6iSL8s0qv/?utm_medium=tumblr

#fountainpens #onoto

So I switched to Gateron Silent Ink Switches because Khail Box Pinks were getting to loud after spending 8 hours at the mill.

Isn't she nearly to pretty?

Also what my sister stated about some girl I've been texting with. Good thing then that my libido lies where my sleeping rythm used to suffer and cry.

#chocolate

welcomedhappiness

Farewell online privacy

What happened?

Trump happened.

just get a VPN?

You can’t just tell people to ‘get a VPN (Virtual Private Network)’. Buying a VPN is like buying a house. It’s very very important. Having no VPN or having a ‘wrong’ one can seriously damage your life. Especially for Americans because their privacy laws are garbage. I am going to try explain why you should get a VPN but bare with me, I am from Germany and my English is far from perfect.

Let’s start with a simple test. Click this link here: https://whatismyipaddress.com/ It will tell your IP adres, your ISP (internet service provider), and your location. The location might not be very accurate, but then again, it’s just a simple website. Imagine what the government can do!

So basically, everyone can find out where you live. But there is more danger. Your ISP. Your ISP logs your every move online and they are required to keep it in case the government wants access to it (or if a 3rd party wants to buy your data (yikes). They have everything. What websites you visit. How long you stay on a website. What you download. Your search terms. European laws are more subtle on this but if you are from the US you are #@*#&, especially because Trump doesn’t support the open internet. It’s scary but maybe in the future you can’t get a job because the recruiter knows your searched on ‘how to deal with depression’ or anythings else that’s supposed to be private because it’s your f*cking right. Or you get a $100k fine because you pirated a movie 15 years ago. You need a VPN. You’re dumb for not using one. but what does a VPN do?

A VPN encrypts all your data so if it were be intercepted no one can ‘crack the code’ and damage your privacy.

Usually being online goes like this (simplified): Your computer —-> ISP (—–> keeps data —–> sells it)

But with a VPN it goes like: Your computer —–> VPN (encrypts data)—–> ISP (ISP can’t see shit)

Furthermore, a VPN hides your IP address and location by giving you another IP address located in Spain for example (you can often choose from a list and change as many times as you want).

Now that you know why you should get a VPN and what is does it is important to educate yourself because people often choose the wrong VPN. VPN providers are also businesses and have to obey the law. If you choose a VPN provider located in the US then you are throwing your money away because the laws in the US shits on your privacy. If the US gov wants the provider to give all their logs they have to obey. The ISP still can’t see what you are doing online and sell your data but the US gov can interfere with your VPN provider so NEVER CHOOSE A PROVIDER LOCATED IN THE US.

I just wanted to make that very clear so my followers don’t buy false security.

There is still more danger! Who says your VPN provider isn’t selling your data? You need to check their logging policy. Do they keep logs? If yes, what for? For how long do they keep them? Tip: Choose a provider who doesn’t keep logs

More about law The US is part of the Five Eyes program (the worst):

The Five Eyes, often abbreviated as FVEY, is an intelligence alliance comprising Australia, Canada, New Zealand, the United Kingdom and the United States. These countries are bound by the multilateral UKUSA Agreement, a treaty for joint cooperation in signals intelligence (source)

There is also a Nine Eyes (bit better) and Fourteen Eyes Program (better). You don’t want a VPN provider who is located in one the Five Eyes countries. If you had to choose go for a provider located in a country that’s part of the Fourteen Eyes Program or even better, go for a country that isn’t part of any program!

I know this is a shitty explanation and please pardon my english but now it’s time to do your own research. Take your privacy seriously. Maybe WWIII breaks out and you get killed for liking the ‘wrong’ FB-page.

Go to this website: https://thatoneprivacysite.net/simple-vpn-comparison-chart/

Make sure that your future VPN provider both has green boxes for Privacy Jurisdiction and Privacy Logging.

I recommend ovpn.se and trust.zone. ovpn is located in Sweden so they are part of the 14 Eyes Program and they keep minimal logs. Their business ethics, however, are alright.

Trustzone is located in the Seychelles. No country can interfere and their privacy jurisdiction is the best you can get. The US want your data but needs to get it from Trustzone? The Seychelles will simply give them the finger and wave them goodbye. However, this makes this provider very appealing for people who torrent and criminals because they keep no logs (and that is how it shoud be) Also, there are almost no marketing efforts so this provider is one the cheapest)

Also, often providers such as ExpressVPN are being called ‘The Best’ on websites about VPNs but know that this is just marketing which also makes those provider more expensive (and they too shit on your privacy)

This must be the worst article you have ever read but please, please take your privacy very seriously.

EDIT: I got many people asking me which provider I use. For those who want to know, I use Trust Zone. They offer a free 3-day trial with no strings attached. But still do your own research!

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I am also with Trustzone but I think you forgot to explain one of it’s most important features. It protects you when you are using someone else’s Wi-Fi. If you are at Starbucks and you use their Wi-Fi your privacy is at risk. Anyone with ill intentions could steal your information. Especially if you are using an unsecured Wi-Fi hotspot. With a VPN your data gets encrypted so no one can steal it.

rabbittiddy

Wait, what’s going, on? Did trump destroy internet privacy with a bill or something? Where’s the news? Oh wait, why am I getting visions of Alex Jones and selling water purifiers?

thecrystalfems

He hasn’t yet but he says he wants to. And if he is serious about it it would be really easy to do. Since all our data is already recorded, as the person above explained.

coltrer

Trump wants more surveillance of Muslim Americans. This in a country where internet privacy is already close to non-existent.

Trust.Zone has a free trial. Use it.

btw this post only has 11k notes? That’s quite disappointing for something this important.

Don’t reblog this post to save a life. Reblog this to protect an entire family!

imthedoctor12

@earth-ruins @writing-prompt-s Should I get trustzone for my mobile device?

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If you use public Wi-Fi, then yes. Which VPN you use is up to you, amigo. Take @earth-ruins advice. Do your own research first.

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@elvesfromthedeep just brought the current situation in the US to my attention (March 30, 2017).

Sources

Anger as US internet privacy law scrapped

Congress just voted to let internet providers sell your browsing history

To all my friends in the US, please read this entire post. Making everyone aware of VPNs is going to be my mission. Your privacy matters. Please reblog this post.

greeneyespurpleheart

Don’t tell me you just wanted to scroll past this. Stop looking at pictures of cats for a moment, okay? Don’t you realize how important this is? This is dangerous! ‘America, the best FREE country in the world’ my ass.

With this new law your ISP can sell your Internet history which could include passwords, usernames, religion, credit card numbers, race and much more to the highest bidder. So here is what I want you to do. You are going to read the whole thing and before you think ’this is so important. Let me reblog this real quick and go back to admiring cats again-’ NO! Don’t reblog this. Take action first. Then reblog. Sign up for a free trial! Trust.Zone offers one (here). Yes. It might be difficult to set up a VPN for some people. But is that going to stop you from protecting yourself and your family? 30 minutes. 30 minutes is all that it takes. 5 if you know how to install software. The problem with some of you is that you see ‘difficult’ as something negative. I want you to see difficult differently. I need you to push through this stuff. You are going to protect yourself. There is nothing negative about that. VPNs are fun and costsaving too! A VPN bypasses geographical restrictions so you can access websites you normally can’t or you could start Netflix’s one month free trial over and over again- forever. And it’s legal! (unless you use it to buy weapons etc.,) Don’t tell yourself that you are too tired and that you will do this tomorrow. Because that isn’t going to happen and you know it. You have to do this right now. You only have to click on it. Don’t let this/shit/life just happen to you. Take yourself seriously. Get a VPN.

Privacy is not a privilege, it’s a fundamental human right

tthatonefangirl-deactivated2019

Ok sorry that it’s so freaking long and also sorry for the language, but this is extremely important. Please reblog!

li-ionsandtigersandbears

Reblogging again bc this is important

clementinn

We have a VPN you should get one too

theesirenofthevoid

Please read.

bae-in-maine

Can you get them for your phones?

kika-lei

^ you can. & when you have a subscription you can use it on your phone and computer. no need for separate subs or purchases.

it is absolutely so important for safety. but one of my fave things to do with my vpn is access non-US netflix. I mean other places have all the new good place eps, all the ‘classic’ bggo eps…

i-cant-remember-who-i-am-deacti

IMPORTANT

massivegothdreamerpanda-deactiv

I’m thinking of doing this because the Indian government just got rid of internet privacy

Now that I use Tinder again “to make myself feel superior to some of these people”, I have several questions:

What the fuck is a foodie, who doesn’t enjoy a good fucking meal

Who doesn’t enjoy traveling

What is it with astrology and bland people

Why does one fifth of all girls here have „Zu Vino sag ich nie no“ oder „Zu Vino sag ich Wein“ as their bio

(Translation to English: "I never say no to vino" and "I call vino wine")

#tinder #people-more-generic-than-your-average-npc

I really enjoy this

#ice #outside #outernet #cold #smollstream

I must say, as someone who was born in 2002 and has no active memory of Keshas fame, I really enjoy some of her songs. And yes, my emotional stability is currently in free fall, thanks for asking.

So now, about half a year after I finished school, I had an emotional breakdown because I lost a few friendships, some to distance most to the utterly depressing fact that except very few positive surprises most friendships are build around convenience... I miss my former crush. Not in a romantic way, its just that she happened to be a good friend before I fell in love and accidentally killed that of. I miss my tight relationship with two of my closest friends who I now didn't even dare tell about this. I am utterly disappointed by two friends moving without even telling me beforehand. I yearn for some of the dumb physics jokes of some of my friends.

But there is always hope. Friendships that run deeper than you realise, which can't be torn just by not seeing each other daily or wich were always very impractical. Friendships which utterly surprise you because you never expected these people to be that close to you. I will treasure while it lasts and I hope our friendships last as long as we spend time on this wretched earth.

#friends #feeling really like shit today and had to get this out there somewhere

Now, I don’t know, to how many of you this applies

But if you are living in the U.S.A. and especially Washington... I feel sorry for you.

I swear to god, this is fucking unsettling

#one-shits-gonna-hit-the-cooling-fan-of-some-ai and-we-will-be-fucked

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