Alex Kuzmenko @lejay-the-impossible - Tumblr Blog

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I'm Alex, a professional artist with a very unprofessional blog mostly containing fanart and rants on my hyperfixations, welcome! 🔥

Fanart of titles you'll probably find here:

Mob Psycho 100

Bartimaeus Trilogy

Mo Dao Zu Shi

Fullmetal Alchemist 03

Hunter x Hunter 1999 < current

Sk8

Danganronpa

Commissions: OPEN

Bartimaeus merch: (mostly) AVAILABLE

Feel free to drop into my DMS for questions/convo! Let's hang!

deepfrieddeltarunememes

loved the very specific fuckery with "gendered" terms this chapter

reminder that gendered terms should be fucked with as often as possible and aren't cages you need to lock yourself or anyone else in

#i appreciate this SO MUCH #deltarune #deltarune spoilers

takofukkatsumi

Reblog this and tell me what was your biggest crying over a piece of fiction. You can be vague if you don't want to spoil.

sleepypanda01

The epilogue of Banana Fish manga (Garden of Light) and HxH episode 147.

#you are so real for both pf those #hxh #banana fish

sleepypanda01

As much the idea of Noko being there scares me, I can't help but think of fanfic scenarios, like Killua getting jealous another kid their age is hanging out with his bestie which leads to KilluGon talk a bit more about their feelings.

Or Noko being the friend Gon needed after the war who provided another perspective that helped him reflect on his actions and feelings which could lead to him and Killua having a heart to heart conversation,

Also the idea of Alluka making a friend who is a girl and doing girly things together is extremely cute to me.

#me who is NOT cought up on the manga #NOKO WHO #anyway I don't think togashi has wrotten all the YEARNING just to cancel it out with another girl #i remember not knowing who alluka was and kept seeing art with her and killua together and being like #HEY WHAT'S THIS GIRL DOING NWCT TO MA BOY HUH #like u said she might be important for gons development abd better understanding of other people #cuz the way his empathy works is a little.. uh.. fucked #anyway just words of a person who doesn't know shit #killugon is alive and thats whats important!#hunter x hunter #killugon #killua zoldyck #gon freecss

sabertoothwalrus

I’m so proud of senshi for making it so far in the tumblr sexyman poll. I think it’s so beautiful that tumblr has reached a point where a short fat hairy bearded man is the pinnacle of sexuality for a large swath of this userbase. it’s like when you see before & after pictures of a rainforest recovering from deforestation. nature is healing and we can fight god

sabertoothwalrus

I hope he wins so someone will have to explain to ryoko kui what a tumblr sexyman is

ailithnight

sabertoothwalrus

I have to say I forgot the onceler’s thing was cutting down trees when I made my metaphor.

sabertoothwalrus

the forest is also a metaphor for his bush

#thank god I decided to reblog it after the additions #tumblr sexyman #tumblr sexymen 2026

simpkin

no way Mr. Stroud knew back in 2002 that he was giving Simpkin the funniest possible name

#the way its two in one...#bartimaeus #bartseq #jonathan stroud

Another summer another merch production. I've done this on Instagram but I wanna know what Tumblr folks think as well cuz last time I've gotten most of my orders from here!

What fandoms would you like to see me make merch of?

HxH

Mob Psycho 100

Deltarune

MDZS

Bartimaeus

Danganronpa

Voting ended onJul 16

#yeah thats right MORE MERCH #I'm curious in every one of them #but I wander which ones should take priority #merch #merchandise #bartimaeus

escuerzoresucitado

Pedestrian traffic lights

sjorsdottir

Ooooh, we have a bunch of really fancy pedestrian traffic lights in Germany! I need to share:

Starting off with the difference between formerly Eastern German traffic lights (upper images) and formerly Western German traffic lights (lower images):

The city of Erfurt had some additions, like an umbrella or a heart:

Same sex love in Marburg (upper image) and Frankfurt (lower image):

Traffic light lady in Bremen:

Karl Marx light in Trier:

Face of Friedrich Engels in Wuppertal:

Elvis in Friedberg (Hessen):

A sparrow (for the Golden Sparrow film awards) in Gera:

Winemaker in Bad Dürkenheim:

Mainzelmännchen (mascot of the public broadcasting service ZDF) in Mainz:

Otto Waalkes (German Comedian) in Emden:

Town musicians of Bremen in Bremen:

A miner in Pirmasens, Rheinland-Pfalz:

Bishop in Fulda:

Source: Saarbrücker Zeitung

Enjoy!

translatingpoststogerman

And we call these "Ampelmännchen" ("traffic lights little man").

soediz

has the new animated short hit tumblr yet. i cant tell. guys please

FEETCLOSUEP. HANDS CLOSEUP. IM REALLT.i cant . i just cant do this i cant.

ENGLISH SUB OF THIS THANG !!!!

#somebody has been sucking these animators off while they were drawing reigen thats the obly explanation for THIS #mob psycho 100 #reigen arataka

fumblebatch

oh god this is a long one

Overall Gon has been consistently not very confrontational about Killua’s feelings, which is something I’m not sure is good or bad. He’s never pushed Killua to talk about anything, and for Killua that’s good, because he’s a private person, but that also means that there’s underlying major miscommunication and conflict that never gets properly resolved. As far as we know, Gon had no idea about any of Killua’s character arc regarding Illumi — not the trauma Illumi was causing Killua, not the needle, not Killua’s fear of losing Gon, nothing. Killua just doesn’t talk about that stuff. I actually even noticed that since the beginning of the series Gon always lets Killua run the conversation when it comes to personal topics, and never pushes for more. That IS a good thing, he’s careful not to overstep, but that also comes off as uncaring when there’s a very clear issue such as during the Nobunaga confrontation during Yorknew where Killua was Freaking Out and Gon never tries to get to the bottom of what was going on that was causing Killua to attempt to kill himself to get Gon out (all Gon said was that he’s “not allowed to do that,” and that Gon is “supposed to be the one pulling moves like that while Killua is supposed to be the one to keep him under control,” paraphrasing of course. so clearly Gon registered Killua wasn’t acting like he normally would + that can of worms with making Killua play cleanup but that’s a whole other ordeal).

I really do think Gon prior to Chimera Ant was trying to give Killua the space he seemed to need, but that unfortunately is fundamentally incompatible in the long run with someone like Killua who bottles everything (good and bad) up. During Chimera Ant though, I'm not so sure that was the reason for Gon's emotional distance. I feel like, most likely, Gon just didn't want any distractions at the time. There was enough already going on in his head, and so he chose to pretend like he didn't see what was going on. It's not that he didn't care about what Killua was going through, but given the nature of how their relationship works, he probably figured it'd sort itself out anyway. Except, Gon got more distant and less emotionally available, which resulted in closing off the option for Killua to talk to him. That was an important part of their dynamic, Gon never pried, but he was still there to confide in if Killua needed. So as the issues started piling up, there was no way to deal with them. Killua has almost always taken the backseat for the sake of Gon, so he just sucked it up. During the invasion, he was prioritizing the mission over his feelings and worries, which we saw made him hold himself back several times from speaking to Gon/asking Gon questions. The only time he spoke up against Gon during that arc was when Gon had a risk of jeopardizing the mission, and even then he was holding things back.

In that scene, Killua’s way of coping actually bothered Gon, even though he was definitely aware of how Killua operated. Gon is a person prone to emotion and impulse, while Killua tries to keep his emotions hidden. That whole “you have it easy. you’re completely calm, since it has nothing to do with you” thing is Gon playing Killua’s coping strategies against him knowing damn well it’s not that Killua doesn’t care, trying to make Killua to break just like him because Gon had no outlet for his anger. I don’t really blame him for acting that way, It's normal to feel frustrated when someone isn't outwardly as emotional about something as you are, but it was definitely a comment made with the intent to hurt.

The thing with Gon and Killua’s relationship is that at the beginning it works so well, but over time molds into something irreparably damaged, because the cracks just keep adding without filling them. It may seem like their relationship only started crumbling because of Chimera Ant, but problems have always been present, such as Killua bending to Gon's will and putting him on a pedestal. Gon does show he cares greatly about Killua throughout the series, but he was perfectly content to keep that uneven dynamic (which we know he was aware of, through him telling Meleoron during CA that "killua won't like it" but he can "insist on having it his way and killua will give in"). Gon obviously doesn't want Killua to do anything like die for his sake, that's explicitly clear from their argument about the Nobunaga situation, but he is willingly to let/push Killua to do things that are physically (i.e. destroying his hands in dodgeball, which Gon had known Killua was doing before it was revealed to the rest of the room, or asking Killua to go longer with his hands injured so that he could heal Genthru and his two stooges) or mentally (too many examples lol) uncomfortable.

Neither one of them are necessarily the problem here, I know it’s common to blame Gon for everything but for the most part he was just acting self-centered as kids often are. He was quite selfish, but that doesn’t mean he’s evil or that he didn’t value Killua. It’s just that barely anyone ever put their foot down to try and explain how that was a problem (outside of like, Tsezguerra in GI telling Gon he was being selfish and putting Killua in danger by trying to pick a fight with Genthru while Killua was injured — which, I should add, made Gon feel really guilty after it was explained to him). This was the first time either of them had a friend like this, so they were both learning and trying to adapt to each other’s rhythms. With the codependency they had going on though, they ended up creating a pretty nasty mixture of issues.