Miss Lemonade

[kosmogrl]

[lemonadepixie]

oh where is the lie tho? lol

[kosmogrl]

I will make a beautiful life for myself no matter how long it takes. I will I will I will

[landsccape]

[sophie-baek]

OFF CAMPUS 1.06 "The Breakaway"

[lemonadepixie]

HOW TO BE ALLIE?

First, have a hot body.

[lemonadepixie]

Boys will always be boys huh ?

I don't know if what is the thought process of some boys that already have someone or a girlfriend/wife but still and continuously add and follow random girls in social media especially IG like why? just because they post a lot of sexualized photos and videos. I get it if the girl is a celebrity/cosplayer but if she's uglier and honestly not that sexy but just posting explicit stuffs? Boy I think you got a problem. I think that's an embarrassment towards your girl like come on. It's better to watch a lot of p=Rn instead of following commoners that you could possibly send a private message anytime.

P.S mostly the girls are asians and one of them look like trans, don't get me wrong I have nothing against them it just that I'm not sure if they're aware of it and still add and follow them lol that is sick bro claiming that you're straight. LOL

[lemonadepixie]

is it anxiety?

lately i've been feeling frustrated about nothing actually, it's like i'm irritated and feels so lonely. I can't even talk to my friends about it because I know that they're dealing with their own problems too. When you're aware that someone's not that worth it to be thinking of but still, they always popped out of your mind every damn minute. I should focus on my career like the shitty guys I've talked to in the past LOL

[lemonadepixie]

Eww, like why dude??!

I understand that men have their needs and can't stop looking to other women but please just have some standards. Following someone that's not that attractive but have some boobs and whatsoever lewd posts is just gross 'rolling eyes' LOL. What a major turn off.

[lemonadepixie]

Baby steps, baby

When you're aware that it's not that worth it to waste your time by thinking about them, but this dumb mind of mine still do it for fcking sake. Boredom is really creeping on me, no joke.

[lemonadepixie]

Ghosted

And it ended just like that. I thought bit by bit we were getting somewhere after we talked till past midnight, you even told me that we'll talk later on but hours had passed, and days but still there was no text from you. I was worried because there was a super typhoon that coming to your country, but little did I know you just didn't want to talk to me at all. Liking ig reels that's been posted recently but a single chat from you? Nothing. Stupid me being worried for nothing, being worried for a jerk like you. I was type of person that's against blocking someone but at that time I knew I needed to block you for being a jerk. Thanks for wasting my fcking time dumbass.

[lemonadepixie]

The Little Things

Who would forget the birthday of the person you're really interested in "well atleast for the moment". Every guy would just laugh if you ask them about it because they know the answer. There's a lot of excuses and bullshits. It's really frustrating when you want to say all the words that you're thinking but ended up not saying it because most of them are kinda mean but I could say valid for that situation. It's the little things that I care about, I fcking swear that I was not expecting a gift or something but just the thought that he remembered and thinking if he should be the first or the last person who'll greet the girl that he like.

Ended up crying in the bathroom but not because of him, but because of the thought that is it really that hard to find a decent man in this generation?

[lemonadepixie]

You should just accept it, you need to learn how to live alone. No any siblings to talk to, and stop bothering your friends they're probably annoyed whenever you talk about nonsense to them. You don't have someone romantically to have a deep conversation with. Damn. I shouldn't be like this especially this month but... :)

atleast I have a digital diary lol

[lemonadepixie]

Manifesting good energy

Sometimes or most of the time, I feel bad for my friends whenever I tell them things that frustrates me, me being pessimistic all the fucking time. I feel that I send them negative energy and I don't want that and the universe or should I say my fyp or algorithm knows what am I thinking because the coincidence of having random videos about it popping out my feed LOL

[lemonadepixie]

I hate the feeling of being left behind. Since when I was a child, when my cousins would come and visit me here in the province and eventually leave after their vacation or when my tita was still working in Manila and she'll leave me early in the morning. I always feel sad about it. I'd rather be the one who'll be leaving or everyone's like that and not only me?

[lemonadepixie]

What's with this patterns and bullshits that is been happening? is it me? Am I the problem? Or these guys that doesn't have the balls anymore to keep up with women nowadays. What a messed-up generation.

[lemonadepixie]

Another dream, that you came back like nothing happened. I was even teasing you about how old is your present gf. I even remembered your ig story watching cup of joe's concert like why??? sometimes i really hate my imaginative mind.

#Mr.Watermelon

[paper-wounds]

[lemonadepixie]

Today Mr. Watermelon hard launched her girl on his story, but I'm glad that I was not that hurt not surprised too lol. Got some lovemoney 😝 and food from the patients, I managed to chase and ride home the 🚌 even though I clocked out late from work, got a seat after standing for a short time and sat beside the window. These little GOOD things makes me think that it's God's way of telling me that I shouldn't worry about the things that doesn't really matter, I should just focus on myself and to the people that cares for me. That's all that matters <3