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what’s the worst thing that could happen?

the counselor was right. at worst, jiwon would pick up, tell sam to delete his number and then officially block him. or, maybe he wouldn’t pick up at all. at best, jiwon would pick up and hear him out. sam wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t.

“jiwon, hi,” he practiced as the phone rang. “no, that’s too casual. hey, man. no, that’s even more casual. uh, hey, man, how’ve you been doing? how are debut preparations going, h-”

the phone stopped ringing. jiwon actually picked up. sam cleared his throat, smiling awkwardly even though jiwon couldn’t see him. “uh, i don’t know how much of that you heard but …” he had to settle on a greeting now, didn’t he? “what’s up, man?” sam hesitated for a moment, and it showed as he extended his invitation to jiwon. “i have time off this evening. i know you must be really busy with, like, debut shit,” no thanks to sam. “but, um, if you have an hour or whatever later, do you wanna come over? we could talk and … i could make you a meal. as bribery, i guess, um, if you want it. eggs, yeah?”

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“ um, preparations are going — ”

he stops. “ — was i not supposed to hear any of that ? ” there's a faint tinge of amusement in jiwon’s voice. truth be told, he had been wondering why sam had been rattling off questions without even waiting for his greeting. the mental image of the younger man rehearsing while waiting for him to pick up the phone is endearing. it’s hard to stop thinking of sam as a little brother ever since the first time he met him as a trainee, lost in the middle of a subway station in seoul. “ i only heard the last greeting and your questions, i guess. ” he’s not sure if that clarifies anything, having no idea of what or how much sam had said before he picked up.

it’s been a month since what happened in hwagae, and it no longer burns like an open wound to think about how sam misused his trust. after weeks in thought, weeks where he’s talked to friends he trusts and his family members, he’s come to the conclusion that it was more likely a misunderstanding than anything else. still, he’s hesitant to let sam off so easily, not without getting a better gauge of his sincerity, “ and what would we be talking about ? ” he asks, voice light and unaccusing.

#𝒄onversations / sam .

𝒇𝒕. sue

“oh what? really? who is it? do i know them?” his reply was unexpected to say the very least. of course she was happy that one of her closest friends apparently had someone he liked in a romantic way, but she knew not knowing who said person was would drive her near crazy. “i don’t know, i’m not really one who goes on dates frequently. you know i’m bad at relationships.” bad was an understatement. “i mean a simple question would suffice, i guess. like– ‘hey sooji, i really like you, you’re so pretty and nice. can i take you out sometime?’” the brunette cooed, chuckling right after.

“moonie liked it so i don’t think it’s that bad. you tell me though. maybe he was just being nice to preserve my feelings.” it wouldn’t have been the first time if that was the case– barely any of her friends would be willing to tell her something that would hurt her in any way. it was a blessing and a curse at the same time. “what do you think~?” sue sang as she presented the drawing she had made. “if you’re nice enough i’ll do one of you too.”

there’s a certain shyness — and startledness — to his features when sue begins to bombard him with questions, and it bleeds forth in the shape of a small smile. “ i’ll tell you who, soon, ” he says, patting her hands with a promise. and then, because sue looks cute when she’s dying to know something, he adds, “ but you know her. ”

he takes a few moments to take in her artwork, his eyebrows knitting together in a way that gives away none of his internal thoughts, before decisively saying, “ this is really good. ” he carefully takes the drawing from her hands to get a closer look. “ i guess we know what you’d be doing if you weren’t pursuing a career as an idol. ”

#𝒄onversations / sue .

miel’s intro since his tags aren’t working yet !

#vldintro #/ please try to react on the original post though so i can have everything in one place xx

𝒇𝒕. saeun

“What?” Saeun laughed and looked at him. Ruri was just too nice sometimes, perhaps too trusting, and went around trying to help others, and wen others helped her, she felt like she had to repay them somehow. Saeun knew that because she lived with her for years, because she had done the same with her. “I’ll tell her, but you won’t listen to me. You see, she’ll just try to repay you until she does, so many you should tell her that she has or accept whatever that she’s trying to give you.” That was really the only way to deal with that.

“Stop!” A nervous little laugh escaped her as she tried to hide her embarrassment, pretending to be really interested in looking around the aisle. “Slower, I think. I would have probably ended up in SNC, which isn’t such a bad thought. Or maybe I would have made such a fool of myself in front of him that sending me back to the dungeons would have been the only way to go, I don’t know.” She liked being part of Summit, she loved Iota, even if sometimes she wondered a bit. “I wish he had debuted, an album or two. Life has been unfair.”

“ i’m just — such a bad actor. and, just, bad at reactions at general. ” it’s his weakest point in variety, and what had led his acting instructor at atlas to kindly recommend that he redirect his time elsewhere two years ago. “ so even when i do — accept her gifts, i don’t think i really sell the fact that i’m grateful about it ? and she can pick up on it. ” not that he doesn’t appreciate the gestures, but ... what is he supposed to do with all the pokémon plushies ?

“ yeah, ” he returns, picking up both of their bagged purchases and handing a plastic bag to saeun. he doesn’t mention how close he used to think he was to following in choi kiwoong’s footsteps, maybe not to the point of running his own company, but in becoming an instructor who trained other young idols or a producer who created music for others to sing. even with how the ceo would occasionally stop by to see 4am’s practices, jiwon doesn’t think that he truly knows what he’s like, not in the same way that summit media artists seem to talk about kim dongchul. “ i wonder .. if he has any regrets about it. ”

#𝒄onversations / saeun .

𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒅 for @vldyujin / garosu-gil, seoul / early june, evening

the door to the restaurant swings open, and jiwon exits, meeting eyes with yujin who was waiting on the sidewalk. “ so, it seems like --- the wait is around fifty minutes ? ” he takes the few steps down to meet her on the street. “ if you’re hungry, maybe we could find somewhere else to eat; otherwise, i can put my name down and we can wander and look at some shops while we wait. ”

he waits patiently as yujin makes her decision, more than happy to go with whatever she chooses. it was unavoidable, seeing how anticipated the restaurant’s opening was, and though it’s been a month since the location’s opening, it seems as though the business has found its footing. the small location’s limited seating is both a blessing and a curse, seeing how it would have afforded them a little more privacy, but how it also led them to this situation. he wonders if the owners have plans to extend the seating, or if they’ll keep it as is for the sake of “ ambience ”.

#𝒄onversations / yujin .#tw mention of food

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4AM - ‘Congratulations’ M/V

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𝒇𝒕. dahye

She knew that many people around seemed like find their CEO attractive, but Dahye wasn’t one of them. She had a lot of respect for him, she would always be grateful for everything he had done for her, but that was pretty much it. Laughter bubbled up from her throat, a little bit too amused at the idea of people really going as far just to see him, when everyone knew that Choi Kiwoong didn’t really audition people himself, but it was funny to think that people outside the company thought so. “He would have been better than Kim Dongchul, you know that.” Facts only, really.

“And you will.” Jiwon was an important person in her life, a very close friend, she didn’t like the idea of them not talking after his debut. She knew it wouldn’t be the same, that perhaps they wouldn’t be able to be seen together in the way they did now, but she didn’t mind them meeting in her apartment or going to his dorms if that was needed. She listened to him, careful choosing to kept quiet as he spoke. It was something she could relate to, for many reasons she didn’t want to think about it. She had let go of many things and people in her life, relationships had changed and beautiful things had been lost so she could be where she was now. It wasn’t healthy, sometimes it wasn’t even worth it, it just was. “You will never lose me, you know that. I will follow you anywhere so you spend time with me.” It was mostly a joke, but she would for sure text and call him so they could at least stay in contact. She reached for his hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. “Don’t make promises then, just take one day at a time.”

She gave him one last squeeze before letting go. “I’m here for you. If you need someone to talk, I’m your person. You’re my person.” Things between them hadn’t ended up badly, which had given then the chance to remain friends, and she still felt like she could trust him with anything and everything just like when they were dating. “We all go through moments when we rethink everything we have done, and you with your debut so close, it’s just expected.” His words made her smile, although she knew that wasn’t true, she still appreciate it. “The same as always. I’m working on a comeback, which is exciting because it’s been a while since the last one, and I’m hoping it goes well. I also… Well, I wrote a song and we’re releasing it, I still don’t know when, but I’m very happy about it.”

“ i don’t know ... my aunt is a pretty big kim dongchul fan. a few years back, she called me out of nowhere asking if i was in summit media, and i think i broke her heart when i told her that i was in atlas. ” he laughs. “ and then i asked a friend in summit media to get his autograph on my behalf as a birthday gift for her, and i think it made her day ... i think the friend is still convinced that i wanted the autograph for myself, though. ”

jiwon pauses for a moment. “ and i’m only keeping you around because you wouldn’t let me see anju otherwise, ” he says, as if he’s admitting a dark secret. but despite his airy words, his face cracks open with an expression that’s slow like honey, sugar-sweet, and he gives her hand a squeeze to convey his gratitude. after a paused beat like this, he straightens in his chair and draws his hand back when he sees the server finally approach to take their order. after he sees that she’s out of earshot, he continues, “ i’ll try to text you enough that you wish you never said that. ”

he knows that he only feels so pensive right now because there’s so much that is to come on the other side, that once that door finally vaults open and it’ll knock over all the objects in the room with its sudden wind. it’s the eye of the storm, that half-beat before the start of a measure, and soon he won’t even have the time to think, though he might wish for it. his eyes light up. “ you wrote a song ? what about ? ”

#𝒄onversations / dahye .

@official4am ⬤ did you guys enjoy the teaser ? 🐣 #seeyoutomorrow #🦎

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idk where else to put this but if your muse has their own personal ig and is the type who would tease jiwon Just For Laughs (even if they're not close), dm me b/c i'm making an ig post and have some comments in mind * rubs palms * posting in abt a minute lmao

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𝒇𝒕. ben

“Yeah, if I got adopted, I’d go by my birth name, since Ryu Ben sounds like a sandwich in english,” he chuckled. He then wiggled his eyebrows at the question. “Oh, Sue, huh?” he teased, picking up the chopsticks on the table. “Alright, for the sake of your love life, I’ll risk my tastebuds to try your cooking.” He clicked the sticks together with a laugh at his own joke, already feeling his stomach growl from the thought of having something a bit more substantial.

He rolled his eyes in agreement. “Yeah, it’s a little silly, but the assignment is to either rewrite lyrics or to make our own choreography of a spring concept song from the company. They’re trying to get us looking at potential careers outside of being an idol. You can guess which one I decided to do.” Both of them know songwriting wasn’t Ben’s forte, mainly because he was always so paranoid about losing the meaning in translation when he wrote in Korean.

“ does it ? " jiwon asks with a laugh. “ can’t say i’ve tried it before; is it any good ? " he balances the tupperware he packed his lunch in on one knee as he pulls out his phone too look it up. after a few moments, he pulls up the wikipedia article on it and then glances over at ben too see how far he is in eating the first riceball. “ this one on is a different flavor. can you try this one too ? ” he asks, pretending to be preoccupied with thumbing through the online article’s contents and not scheming to get ben to eat more of his lunch like he actually is.

“ a spring concept ? i hate when they make the theme seasonal because then it feels like i have to go out of my way to figure out something that atlas hasn’t already seen from me in the last six years. ” he takes the last plastic-wrapped samgak-gimbap for himself, and takes a bite. “ but if you ever want to get into songwriting, you should hit me up. what song did you end up choosing ? ”

#𝒄onversations / ben .

emotional-algebra

“I see the sun, and if I don’t see the sun, I know it’s there. And there’s a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there.”

Fyodor Dostoyevsky

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#𝒔tudy .

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#𝒗isuals .

𝒇𝒕. sue

sue had to laugh at his comment. “well, is there anyone you’re interested in? it might just work. that line would certainly work on me if the person saying it would be attractive enough. and you are handsome, so you should just give it a shot next time. just remember to thank me in a formal letter if it works and you finally get laid.”

“it would.” she nodded at his words as she slowly finished her last slice of pizza, patiently listening to the rest of his words. “i thought you would know that i am painfully boring by now. i don’t have any hobbies besides my work. i mean i do like to paint from time to time but that gets boring really fast too. plus, you have to be in the creative mood to properly enjoy it to the full extent. i drew moonie a portrait for his birthday this year though, would you like to see it?”

“ hm, we can say that. ” one edge of his mouth lifts up. there is something telling in the easy-blink way he says this, in the way that his gaze drifts off momentarily before falling back on her. “ not really interested in a one night stand with her though. but i am flattered that you care so much. how would you want someone to ask you out ? like out on a date, out. ”

he reaches over and closes the lid of the pizza box as he waits for her response. he doesn’t think sue knows about his crush on her; sue is a lot of things, but cruel isn’t one of them. but though he know that sue isn’t aware of him in the way that he is of her, sometimes he wishes — “ is it bad ? if it’s bad, i don’t want to see it. my glasses prescription went down a half-step and my eye doctor says i needed to protect my vision, ” he says, eyes round and innocent.

#𝒄onversations / sue .#mention of food

𝒇𝒕. saeun

“It’s a good idea. I know people think this is just for kids, but you never know when extra vitamins are needed.” They were about to debut and perhaps they wouldn’t even have enough time to eat and rest, so taking those gummies could be a good thing. She nodded at his words. It was sweet when she heard happy stories about her friends’ childhoods, how fondly they talked about it. Saeun didn’t have any of those, and eating these gummies? It would have been a luxury her mother couldn’t afford. She did it now because it was her responsibility to make sure her girls were healthy, and sometimes she did because she could. “They’re delicious. Ruri tends to eat all of them on the same day, and I tell her that she shouldn’t, so I mostly give her one every day, or when we see each other.”

Oh. At the mention of Choi Kiwoong, Saeun tried her best to pretend she wasn’t that interested, when in reality everyone knew that she really liked him. It was a silly crush, nothing to be taken seriously, but she couldn’t help it. “That sounds like an interesting experience. I accept that it would have been the same for me, or I would have lost it, but that’s a bit embarrassing, isn’t it?” She blushed a little, walking out of the aisle just to do something. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen him really that close. it’s sad. Maybe I should have been sent to Atlas instead.” Green curry sounded delicious, actually, and she hadn’t made in a while. But she didn’t have anyone to eat with now that everyone was so busy. “I’m sure it will be a lot of fun, I just hope we can behave long enough to film all of it without any extra time.”

with the reassurance from saeun, he nods and places the vitamin bottle with his hair products on the counter, leaving a bit of space between his items and saeun’s. “ oh — speaking of ruri. would you tell her that she doesn’t owe me anything ? i did her a favor once and she keeps trying to repay me. ” he runs his fingers through the hair at the nape of his neck. “ she doesn’t seem to believe me when i tell her, so maybe she’d listen to you. ”

“ you mean for choi kiwoong or for kim dongchul ? ” he asks, pretending to take an innocent look at the selection of candy at the counter, when in actuality the blush on her cheeks didn’t escape his notice and he’s just drawing out her embarrassment. it’s cute when saeun’s flustered, he thinks, but it’s in a similar way to how he might consider his little sister, jihye, to be cute. his gaze turns back to meet saeun’s, and there’s a touch of mischief coloring his irises. “ oh, choi kiwoong ? you know, i heard that he used to be a dance trainer at another company around the same time we were at mirae. do you think you would have debuted faster or slower under his tutelage ? ”

#𝒄onversations / saeun .#mention of food

𝒇𝒕. hyunsik

A smarter man would have noticed the body language coming from the other. The less obvious straightening of his features, and the fact his body visibly became more stiff with his presence. Unfortunately, Hyunsik wasn’t the most observant when it came to other’s feelings being shown with their actions, rather than their words. Something that has lead him into trouble more often than once in the past.

“Breaks are well needed sometimes, don’t you think?” The older of the two tried to offer, smile not wavering once as he spoke. There were some trainees and idols alike that felt they should work through their breaks, that if they hadn’t earned it then they didn’t deserve it. It was nice to see someone taking advantage of the down time. “Oh you know, busy. Working hard for our comeback soon, it’s been fun.” It hadn’t.

ironically enough, the moment jiwon first realized how much he unapologetically just did not like hyunsik was one of the events that made him realize how much his time in atlas records had changed him. before, it wouldn’t have mattered how he felt about the other man — if he was a senior artist, he wouldn’t have allowed himself to spare him any thought that even bordered on being negative.

but now, he presses down his irritation.

really, hyunsik hasn’t even said anything close to unreasonable since stepping into the practice room, and jiwon knows that he needs to chill. out. but jiwon can’t act to save his life — “ yes ... breaks are well needed. ” — it’s the reason why atlas records pulled him out of acting lessons after only one month despite staff telling him that he has quote the face of a leading man end-quote. but the mention of mon:star’s next comeback does pique jiwon’s interest. “ oh, what kind of concept is it ? ”

#𝒄onversations / hyunsik .

hello soft plot call for jiwon ! i need to get some more plots up and running for him and am p much open for anything ( esp anything off of his plots page ) but also all but one of his exes are currently en pee cees so. NFJSJWJ also excuse the ugly mobile post. also disco is much preferred ( dm me for the user if you don't have it already !! )

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