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¿Cómo me alejo del amor de mi vida?
¿Por qué no entiendo que si fueses el amor de mi vida, estaríamos juntos?
Porque contigo me siento diferente, porque me demuestras tu amor de formas tan sencillas, que me hacen creer que todo es tan natural, que no te quiero dejar ir.
Y ¿por qué la vida no me permite tenerte como quisiera?
¿qué nivel tengo que superar?, ¿cuándo será nuestro momento?, ¿cómo confío en que la espera no me destruirá?, ¿cómo continúo sin sentir dolor?
Y es que ¡como te quiero! No sabes cómo.
The Midnight Gospel Analysis 01: What’s real and does it matter?
Going to kick off the revamping of this blog with a deeper look into one of the premises of The Midnight Gospel. A long time ago, I gave some thoughts on the trailer for the show in anticipation of its release. I must say that it did not disappoint and I’ve found myself thinking back on the show quite often since finishing it and rewatching a few episodes here and there.
However tempting it is to get into some of the show’s core messages about spirituality, faith, and generally how to live life, I want to start with an analysis of one premise of the show that’s easy to take for granted. I think that it’s a great way to frame how my analyses will be presented moving forward as well.
I’m talking about the Multiverse Simulator. More specifically, I’ll be discussing the relevance of introducing infinite worlds and their interesting inhabitants, but underscoring that they aren’t real in the literal sense of the word.
Overview of The Midnight Gospel
For those unfamiliar with The Midnight Gospel, it’s a show about a space-caster (imagine a video podcast broadcast to all of space) Clancy Gilroy, who interviews different people on life, death, and everything that comes in between. Here’s the catch, though, Clancy’s interviewees are all the product of a simulation. He visits different universes through his Multiverse Simulator, a device that randomly generates worlds and their inhabitants.
Every episode is a different interview, whose content is based on actual interviews by co-creator of the show, Duncan Trussell, for his own podcast. Taking place within the backdrop of a colourful and sometimes absurd world, courtesy of co-creator Pendleton Ward, creator of Adventure Time.
The show goes to some very profound places and at times explores heavy topics. But there are fart jokes at just the right times, and that balance is what makes the show so heartwarming and enjoyable.
With such an episodic premise, The Midnight Gospel may seem very much like a standard interview-type podcast but animated, but this isn’t the case. As the show progresses, we are introduced to more of Clancy’s life outside of his space-casting. His character develops and changes along the way. And that growth can, in large part, be attributed to the conversations he has with the inhabitants of other worlds.
But when circling back to the core of the show, one looming issue emerges. If these interviewees are just the product of some computer algorithms, which, at one point, were programmed by a person, what value do these conversations have? The show does not shy away from reminding us that the Multiverse Simulator is a machine. In fact, the plot of later episodes is driven by technical issues faced by owning a machine that can malfunction. So if none of these interviewees are real, what of their thoughts, words, and actions? Is Clancy, in fact, alone?
Fictional Worlds, Fictional People
The series does begin with Clancy living alone. Aside from his simulations, his pet dog, Charlotte, and his semi-autonomous home A.I., Computer, Clancy doesn’t interact with anyone else. It’s only towards the end of the series that we see other humans and even then, Clancy carries on a transactional relationship with them, calling on them or interacting with them because he needs something from them.
He also goes out of his way to shut out other people– and without spoiling too much of the upcoming analyses– even those close to him. This behavior stands in contrast to how he interacts with the simulations, where he actively listens to and engages with his interviewees.
On some level, he might just be doing what a good interviewer does to mine for content. However, the conversations he has with them directly affect his feelings, thoughts, and actions, granted some more easily than others. Nonetheless, they change his way of living and his worldview.
If we look at the Multiverse Simulator as an allegory for fiction, then the relationship Clancy has with his interviews makes a lot of sense. Fiction, like the code behind the simulated worlds, is created from human hands. An algorithm that learns how to talk like a human, even experience like a human, must be fed human experiences and realities in the first place.
Through fiction, we are exposed to other people’s feelings, thoughts, and experiences, and like any kind of media, we can choose whether or not we want to consume them, engage with them, or internalise them.
However, it might be easier hearing these lived truths coming from a fictional character than from someone we have biases against believing (case in point, how many people dismiss parental truths as paranoia?). In fiction, we’re communicated these truths in a vicarious and visceral way. Show, don’t tell. This makes it all the more impactful.
And what is a Multiverse Simulator but the latest form of cutting-edge entertainment? A new kind of consumable media?
The Multiverse Simulator is an excellent allegory for fiction as well, because sometimes, fiction exaggerates the reality being presented. It blows up and stretches truths in fantastical, terrifying, and sometimes unexpected ways. Nonetheless, we recognise the humanity (or lack thereof) in the characters and in the story.
Furthering the allegory, we see that the multiverses are not separate from one another. There’s a cat ship in one episode that Clancy sets off course and as a result, Clancy is derailed en route to his destination planet in the next episode by colliding with the ship. Similarly, works of fiction inspire each other. Media that creators have consumed influences their work.
And whether or not we create more media, fiction inspires the consumer. At the end of every episode, Clancy edits his space-cast for upload. In this way, all the fiction we consume, whether a book, a show, a movie, or anything else, affects us differently and different points in our lives. The “key takeaway,” “moral of the story,” or whatever you’d like to call it, differs for everyone. We’re editing the most salient point of the media we consume every time we consume them.
But the Multiverse Simulator as an allegory goes even further.
Living in The Matrix
In the everyday grind of lived experienced, it’s all too easy to dismiss the experiences and the very existences of other people. Call them “extras” or “fillers” or “background characters,” we have at one time or another gone through life acting as though only our lived experiences were the capital-R Reality.
Cognitively, we know this is probably not the case. Although philosophers like Descartes, famous for his conclusion cogito ergo sum (I think therefore I exist), have shown that through pure logic, we can doubt the existence of other beings except for us, practically, we live as though our family, friends, and colleagues do exist.
Perhaps the way to put it is that their experiences are not as real as ours. The writer David Foster Wallace puts it really well in “This Is Water.” He says,
“There is no experience you’ve had that you were not at the absolute center of. The world as you experience it is right there in front of you, or behind you, to the left or right of you, on your TV, or your monitor, or whatever. Other people’s thoughts and feelings have to be communicated to you somehow, but your own are so immediate, urgent, real — you get the idea.”
Developmental psychologists also point out that young children believe the world revolves around them, because they still are unable to put themselves in the place of others, and so their own existence becomes the primary reality.
In other words, you have to make an active choice to consider the people around you as real. It’s a mental effort to remember that the people you’re talking to are just as real and living lives just as concrete and tangible as yours. Otherwise, it’s easy to go back to a comfortable place in which your own experience supersedes anyone else’s; therefore, it is your comfort that is the priority and everyone else is just in the way of that.
This thinking hearkens back to the concept of the Matrix. What if everything around were just fabricated and you, specifically you the individual, were the only “real” thing? Or maybe you and a few friends and loved ones were the only real things, what then? There have been many arguments going around about how if nothing matters, then just live in a way that pleases you, other people be damned. Or that only those in your closest circles really matter anyway and only look out for your own.
The Midnight Gospel presents us another option. Whether or not we can be certain everyone around us is going through something the way we are, whether or not we can say discount a negative encounter as the other person just having a bad day, whether or not we want to hear what the world throws at us, we make the choice to listen. We make the choice to take them as real. Just as Clancy does in his interviews.
Because Clancy does encounter people who regularly challenge his worldview. Even if they’re made up. Even if they’re created by a computer. Clancy chooses to open his mind to what the characters are saying and treats them with respect.
And this is not to moralise or to speak of my own morality. This is presenting a way of living as espoused in the show and having it happen to intersect a lot with my worldview.
There are times when you definitely feel like just turning off your brain and enjoying some fiction, or just going through life on autopilot because there are too many things to worry about as it is. But for me, analysing and reading into the fiction I consume has always helped me garner a deeper appreciation for the deliberate choices and the story that the creator is trying to tell.
Giving faces to the stories of the faceless “everybody else” I’m all too eager to shut out has greatly improved the quality of my life, and hopefully, the lives of the people around me, because it’s made me just a little more patient, just a little kinder, just a little more understanding. And at the end of the series, Clancy is all those things and just a little more open to what comes next.
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This is the first of a series of The Midnight Gospel Analyses I have planned. I’ll be linking to the other posts down here, so stay tuned.
¡Pregúntame! Voy a responder honestamente
1: ¿que cambiarías de tu físico?
2: ¿Cuál es la mascota de tus sueños? (sea real o no)
3: ¿como te gusta vestir?
4: ¿Cuál fue tu videojuego favorito mientras crecías?
5: ¿en que cosas o personas piensas a lo largo de tu dia?
6: Si tuvieras una etiqueta de advertencia, ¿qué diría?
7: ¿te consideras una persona toxica? si es así ¿por qué?
8: ¿Cuál es tu tipo de personalidad griega?
9: ¿Eres cosquilloso?
10: ¿Eres alérgico a algo?
11: ¿Cuál es tu sexualidad?
12: ¿Prefieres té, café o chocolate caliente?
13: ¿Eres un gato o perro?
14: ¿que le dirias?
15: ¿Tienes un Youtuber favorito?
16: ¿cuanto mides?
17: ¿Si tuviera que cambiar su nombre, a qué lo cambiarías?
18: ¿Cuánto pesas? [¡Solo pregúntale si sabes que al usuario no le importa!]
19: ¿Crees en fantasmas / espíritus?
20: ¿Te gusta el espacio o el océano?
21: ¿Eres religioso?
22: ¿te sientes cómodo al mirarte al espejo?
23: ¿te gusta mas la noche o el dia?
24: ¿constelación favorita?
25: ¿estrella favorita?
26: ¿qué tanto te gusta esa persona?
27: ¿Alguna fobia o miedo?
28: ¿Crees que el calentamiento global es real?
29: ¿Crees en la reencarnación?
30: ¿Película favorita?
31: ¿Te asustas fácilmente?
32: ¿Cuántas mascotas tienes en tu vida?
33:¿cuantos seguidores tienes?
34: ¿eres masoquista?
35: ¿Dónde te gustaría viajar y / o vivir?
36: ¿Dónde naciste?
37: ¿Cuál es tu color de ojos?
38: ¿Introvertido o extrovertido?
39: ¿Crees en horóscopos y zodíacos?
40: ¿Abrazos o besos?
41: ¿a quien visitarías si pudieras en este momento?
42: ¿Quién es ese alguien a quien amas profundamente?
43: ¿Alguna perforación que quieras?
44: ¿Te gustan los tatuajes y piercings?
45: ¿Fumas?
46: ¡Habla de tu enamorado, si tienes uno!
47: ¿Cuál es el sonido que realmente odias?
48: ¿Un sonido que realmente amas?
49: ¿sos de esas personas que habla solo?
50: ¿consideras que sos una buena persona?
51: ¿Actor y / o actriz favorita?
52: Película favorita?
53: ¿Cómo te sientes en este momento?
54: ¿De qué color le gustaría que tu cabello esté ahora?
55: ¿Cuándo te sentiste más feliz?
56: algo que te calma?
57: ¿Tienes algún trastorno mental? [¡Solo pregúntale si sabes que al usuario no le importa!]
58: ¿Qué significa tu URL?
59: ¿Qué tres palabras te describen más?
60: ¿Crees en la evolución?
61: ¿Qué te hace dejar de seguir un blog?
62: ¿Qué te hace seguir un blog?
63: tipo de persona favorita:
64: animal favorito (s):
65: nombra tres de tus blogs favoritos.
66: Emoticón favorito:
67: Meme favorito:
68: ¿Cuál es tu tipo de personalidad?
69: ¿te has auto lesionado? [¡Solo pregúntale si sabes que al usuario no le importa!]
70: ¿que te hace llorar?
71: ¿Qué atuendo de toda tu ropa te gusta usar más?
72: ¿Publicar una selfie o dos?
73: ¿Tienes zapatos de plataforma?
74: ¿Cuál es un hecho aleatorio pero interesante sobre usted?
75: ¿piensas que los amigos verdaderos existen?
76: ¿Te gustan los pájaros?
77: ¿Te gusta nadar?
78: ¿Es más divertido para ti nadar o patinar sobre hielo?
79: Algo que deseas pero que no existe.
80: Alguna cosa que deseas.
81: que estudias?
82: Algo que realmente disfrutas hacer:
83: persona favorita para hablar:
84: ¿Cuál fue tu primera impresión de Tumblr?
85: ¿a cuantas personas sigues?
86: ¿Puedes correr una milla en diez minutos?
87: ¿Tus calcetas siempre coinciden?
88: ¿Puedes tocar los dedos de los pies y mantener las piernas rectas completamente?
89: ¿algun hobbie?
90: Si fueras un animal, ¿cuál serías?
91: Si una flor pudiera representarlo estéticamente, ¿qué tipo sería?
92: ¿que tipo de personalidades odias?
93: ¿Cuántas tazas de café puedes beber en un día?
94: ¿Prefieres ser capaz de volar o leer mentes?
95: ¿futurama o los simpsons?
96: ¿Invierno o verano?
97: ¿Cuánto tiempo puedes aguantar la respiración?
98: ¿La persona menos favorita?
99: Alguien con quien admiras:
*nadie lo pesca*
Comprendí que por mucho que alguien te quiera, no significa que no pueda seguir adelante sin ti. Como la gente dice; nadie es indispensable en la vida de nadie. Hay etapas importantes llenas de cariño y admiración, pero solo son etapas. Las cosas cambian y por difícil que sea aceptarlo; la vida sigue. Con o sin ti, ellos siguen… y no los podemos juzgar.
Sin embargo, creo que olvidar es una manera de parar un poco ese dolor, dejar el pasado guardado en una esquina. Alumbrado con alguna luz de color referencial, por lo especial de la persona, y así poder continuar.
Liberarte, aceptar y dejarte ir.
NDNDNSND ctm mood
¿Tienes algún gusto culposo?
Los hombres
A veces es difícil aceptar que no todo lo que veíamos era como nos gustaría del todo… quererte se convertía en una actividad extrema. Como en una cuerda floja. Me estaba arriesgando demasiado.
Creo que reaccioné a tiempo, después de todo ¿qué habría sido de mi, si pisaba en falso y caía?
Nadie me obligaba, lo hacía por decisión propia, lo hacía por ti… olvidando totalmente lo que sería de mi.
No me quería rendir pero creo que no valía la pena seguir luchando.
Ashley
Varios días devastada, con la mirada cansada, los ojos hinchados y sin saber de ti...
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Alejarse para sanar, dejando de lado resentimientos, atrayendo energía positiva y nada más.