Inscribed;
To my sun, my moon, my stars...
First of all, I would like to apologize for taking so long to write you back. Upon receiving your letter, it caused such catharsis in me that I was unable to form words for days-from joy, from sorrow, from anger- from such a conflicting mix of emotions that I still cannot discern, but all come from loving you, missing you, and living for a day where I can feel all of these without having to hide them from the world ( and for the longest time...myself). I spent a long time trying to formulate what I would say that could begin to express what I wanted and felt, but I decided that upon reading your letter, it was certain, and I would take it upon my hands to let no obstacle, not even time, not allow me to do what I wished the most. I spent days, weeks, and what felt like centuries trying to find what would be perfect to send you, and I found it. At a blacksmith’s, tucked in a corner on the 29th, covered in a veil of darkness and so hidden away from the world that I know that destiny had put it upon my hands to stumble upon it.
This is a toke of my heart, my affection, and my promise to say beside you in spite of any distance, even that of our corporeal forms-any realms in the sky or below layers of earth, any distance between the stars or depths of the sea, in sickness and in health, in love and in frustration ( that often seem so intertwined into one another), and even when I love you so much I can barely feel you.
This is for you, my love.
( a drawing of flowing, tangled energies, and below;
The energies that define us...)
This is you until I can have you in body and soul, breathing next to me again. In its elegance and darkness, in its detailing and mystique, it is you in form that I can wrap around my finger and to you. I give you a copy, its twin flam, and it’s a reminder that you are special, that you are you, and that there is someone who carries you and considers you home. In this letter I attach the ring (your essence), daisies, and roses, a rosary to ask for mercy and the blessing of whatever is above for prayer to beg for peace and forgiveness for whatever sin we have committed as loving one another, to unite us, and the uniqueness of our bond through time and realms, through label and word, for you are mine and I am yours.
I love you more than words can form, and I can only hope this letter gives you an idea of how much I want you, Nikola, more than life itself.
Clara.
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Inside envelope;
- silver ring
-rosary
-tea
-dried daisies
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March 20th, 2021
