Letter to Adina

For you my pumpkin pie. From your mother.

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Letter to daddy

They say that love is blind. I am not blind. I saw the best in you. Therefore, i love you. No matter what happens. 💗

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It's 5am and mommy already awake.

Hi baby sayang.. You are moving inside my tummy right now. Mommy dah terbangun from sleep. Last night before sleep, mommy did laundry. Mommy cleaned all the clothes and hang dry it all outside the house around 11pm. Banyak baju daddy. Mommy rindu sangat dengan daddy.

Your cousins, Vea and Ezra temankan mommy to sleep. Mommy managed to sleep sampailah pukul 4.30pagi, mommy terbangun. Everything seems unreal. Baru semalam daddy tidur sebelah mommy. He will usually wake me up with keeping me close in his arms and kiss me on mommy's lips. Hari ni mommy wake up dgn Ezra dekat sebelah mommy. Mommy rindu daddy. Harap daddy dapat tidur kat dalam penjara tu :')

Mommy harap Dina will grow become anak solehah boleh doakan mommy and daddy. Nanti if mommy dah deliver Dina, kita pegi lawat daddy sama-sama.

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Ujian dari Allah

Dear Adina, how are you today? Mommy sihat, while carrying you in my womb at 36th week of pregnancy. You are already in position for birth. Mommy sangat excited that you are soon to be born. Daddy too. He loves you so much.

Hari ni mommy checkup antenatal. Jumpa nurse. Took blood and urine. Alhamdullillah all tests came back normal. Just mommy panic sikit bila nurse tak dapat detect your heartbeat at first. Habis perut mommy nurse uli sebab nak cari heartbeat kamu. Last2 the nurse call for a sister. Sister letak doppler probe on my tummy terus dapat dengar your heartbeat. 150bpm. Strong anak mommy. Alhamdulillah.

Mommy kerja hari ni. Daddy sent mommy to work then went to court to attend a hearing regarding a case he was involved with previously. It was a mistake he did 1year ago. Not that he's a bad guy, in fact daddy is the best man i ever met. I fell in love with him because of his kindness to me.

Unfortunately, daddy is remanded in custody and sent to a prison in Malacca. Daddy sempat call mommy lepas sebutan kes. He asked me to pick up his stuffs from his lawyer and talk to her (the lawyer) for more info. Mommy finish up work around 1pm and asked opah to pick me up. Opah came with makngah to pick me up, then we all went to the lawyer's office together.

Jumpa dengan lawyer, Pn Diana, she explained about what gonna happen, what are the chances if he's proven guilty as charged or vice versa. Mommy faham dan redha with ketentuan Ilahi. There is always blessings in disguise. Maybe it's for the best. Allah knows best.

Memang perasaan mommy at first sangat sedih. Tapi mommy kuatkan semangat for you. You are my love, my life, my soul. I am going to love you with all my heart and will give you 100% attention meanwhile daddy is held in custody. Mommy wont stop loving daddy too. He's the best man for me, i love him with all of my heart. Mommy anggap daddy is going for a war, a jihad. I pray for daddy to be strong while serving his time.

InsyaAllah Dina, if Allah wills for me to give birth with your daddy next to me, that will happen. Kun fayakun. Allah is with us all the time. For now, prayers are everything. Mommy will pray for all of us. InsyaAllah.

This was daddy's last messages before he was sent to lockup awaiting transfer to penjara sg udang in Melaka.