letter to myself

figure skating, kpop, literature & poetry rattling; i think i might be hollow

[outofcontextfigureskating]

[lettertoholly]

me showing off my grades vs me working to achieve them

[lettertoholly]

That feeling of realising you haven't studied enough when the test is tomorrow

[lettertoholly]

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror."

- Taylor Swift, anti-hero

[redstonedust]

ideal living situation is what i call the 'sitcom special' : having all your closest friends live in the same apartment building or neighborhood where you each have your own space but can wander in and out of eachothers homes at will, seemingly always welcome and never at bad times. and also all of you only have jobs when its important to the plot.

[lettertoholly]

@neighray @rayhan-is-better

The dream tbh

[lettertoholly]

I made a playlist of all the songs I can think of with repeating lyrics that drill into a lonely hole in my heart that's covered in the façade of independence and resilience!

Have a listen if you want, I'll probably be adding to it. Any suggestions are welcome!!

[lettertoholly]

"Isn't it just so pretty to think

All along there was some invisible string

Tying you to me?"

-Taylor Swift, invisible string

[rayhan-is-better]

"I'm spinnin' out on what to say or what to do"

-[Beaches] Beebadoobee

[lettertoholly]

real!!

[lettertoholly]

this looks so ugly I'm so sorry

[lettertoholly]

when they text "ily" but basil hallward would've said "from the moment I met you, your personality had the most extraordinary influence over me. I quite admit that I adored you madly, extravagantly, absurdly. I was jealous of everyone to whom you spoke. I wanted to have you all to myself. I was only happy when I was with you. When I was away from you, you were still present in my art."

[johnny-but-emo]

being off my phone is nice bc I’m not on my phone but it makes me sad because I miss things that my friends say

[plant-based-person]

had a fascinating english class that resulted in the notes header “the forcefeminization of victor frankenstein”

[plant-based-person]

what the people want, the people get

you see

my professor’s take is that mary shelley is feminizing victor throughout the novel, as a way of flipping gender roles and putting a male character through female experiences.

evidence as explained:

victor is creating life. he is putting his health at risk (spends two years with little sleep or socialization) to bring life forth into this world

his illness after he is shocked by the creature coming to life is akin to both ‘hysteria’ and postpartum depression

he pretty much swoons, let’s be honest

henry clerval, a man who has been characterized as manly and heroic, has to chase after damsel-in-distress victor and care for him as he convalesces 

afterward, he hides what he did and went through, for fear that others will label him crazy and emotional and not believe him. sound familiar?

Victor in general is more emotional than the other characters and is constantly tempering his reactions to not be seen as irrational 

the book does not otherwise have central female characters 

Also, Shelley’s mother died in childbirth. It’s interesting, then, that Shelley presents the creation of life as something horrific and damaging. She parallels Victor with her mother.

in conclusion, Frankenstein (1818) by Mary  Wollstonecraft Shelley is one of the first examples of mpreg in English literature 

[careysattheonsenagain]

Still dwelling in this catch-foot-twizzle- Ina-bauer-Jun-escaped-military-service-moment.

[lettertoholly]

JUNATION KEEPS WINNING

[kleinergeist]

Hey. Don't cry. Weird teenage girl somewhere out there reading Frankenstein for the first time. Ok?

[skate-the-onion]

Okay, I'll bite

[lettertoholly]

flashbacks. 4am on a tuesday.

[lettertoholly]

how it feels to ignore the plot, and turn to fanfiction

[lettertoholly]

book nook!! got this as a christmas gift and recently finished constructing it. i love it so much genuinely one of my favourite things ever.

[theconcealedweapon]

Things that society considers autism an excuse for

Nazi salutes

sexual assault

Things that society considers autism not an excuse for and things that people think children who do should be met with violence

using the wrong tone

showing too much or too little emotion

asking questions and having an authority figure take it as "arguing"