Currently in pronoun hell, very silly, 🏳️🌈. 20 y/o. I have many interests, and make art! ☆ Important tags are: lev's stuff - for posts I've made, and lev's art - specifically for art I've made. Also: peak - for really good stuff I've found, and good advice - for good advice ☆ Current brainworms include: Sonic the Hedgehog, Undertale and its AUs, Deltarune, FNaF, Dandy's World, Metal Family, Morph from X-Men, Moon Knight, The Amazing Digital Circus, Animal Hospital, and Doki Doki Literature Club, to name a few!
kids were roleplaying with minecraft figurines and one of them had their figure go up to the other and say “i’m in love with you” and the other one replied “sword slash to the chest. and you’re on fire”
Tw: Depression symptoms and mental illness, also a really long monologue about mac n' cheese
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Little Miss Messy Depression Room
Written by levthedisasterboy
PLAYWRIGHT'S NOTES
These characters are headmates in a dissociative system. They are not siblings but share the same body, family, and settings in their lives. Switching who's in front is represented through tagging the current fronter, like in a game of tag.
CHARACTERS
BEN He/him, 49 y/o. A caretaker in the system, BEN does many tasks and is a very kind and somewhat anxious older man. He’s based on many older sitcoms set in the 50s or so.
NYX She/moon, 17 y/o. Very low energy, mediates a lot of problems in the system. Likes video games, dark neon, and making art.
SETTING
A messy bedroom with clothes and bags scattered everywhere, it looks very uncared for. Trash is piling up and so is dust on low-traffic areas.
TIME
Late evening to nighttime
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(Nyx is in bed, their room is messy. Clothes on the floor, trash overflowing, bags on the ground. Nyx has mussed hair and is wearing pajamas, looking tired. Moon’s awake, staring at her phone. Her stomach rumbles, and moon groans, but doesn’t otherwise move. Ben enters gently from the closet after her groan.)
BEN
Heyy, kiddo… what’s going on? (Surveying the state of the room, it’s not looking good. He feels uncomfortable in the space.)
NYX
Hm. Rotting away.
BEN
Okayy, uhh… why exactly are you ‘rotting away’?
NYX
Tired.
BEN
Alright, alright… um, is there anything else you’d like to be doing right now? Other than rotting?
NYX
Nope. Tired. (Stomach growls again)
BEN
Aren’t you hungry right now, kiddo?
NYX
Yeah.
BEN
Well then, shouldn’t you get up and eat something?
NYX
Can’t. Tired.
BEN
Too tired for even a quick snack? You know, it’s always better to eat something than to eat nothing! What about a snack cake? Would that entice you to get out of bed?
NYX
I’m tired, Ben. I couldn’t bring myself to get up if I got a million dollars and a box full of kittens for it.
BEN
Oh…
(Silence)
BEN
Really? Not even for kittens?
NYX
Nope. No energy today.
BEN
Or yesterday, or last week… I’m getting kind of concerned, kid. All of this staying in bed and ‘rotting’ can’t be good for you. Or any of us for that matter!
NYX
Yeah lol
BEN
You know kid, how about you let me take care of things for a while? So you can get some rest.
NYX
I mean,, if you can, be my guest dude.
BEN
Thank you.
(Ben places his hand on Nyx’s forehead, and they dissociate as Ben switches into front. Nyx is still in bed, but now Ben’s in control of the body.)
BEN
Alright then. Let’s make some macaroni and cheese, yeah?
NYX
(Mumbles something)
BEN
Okay. Here, we’ll make it the normal way, alright?
(Ben tentatively gets an instant mac-n-cheese bowl from one of the bags on the floor, and he does the steps as he reads them out from the label.)
BEN
Okay. First, we get a paper towel, and set it on the ground for our ‘preparatory station’. Learned that one from the Food Network!
(Looks over at NYX, as if holding a conversation with moon despite the fact she’s only really responding with occasional murmurs. He clears a space on the floor for a paper towel to go, and kicks things out of the way to make paths where he needs)
Then, we read the instructions. Take off the lid, take out the cheese sauce pouch, and read the instructions again. Next, we need to fill it up to the fill line- ah, good on you for having a water bottle in the fridge! I’m proud of you for staying hydrated!
NYX
Huh? Oh, I don’t remember that. Must’ve been like, Kaira or Lucy’s from a week ago.
BEN
Alright, well, they can refill it later. What’s most important is that we eat. Uh, half-drank water’s not contaminated if it’s left in a fridge, right? (To himself) No, no, eating first.
(Back to Nyx, who wasn’t paying attention) Now we read the instructions again, get out a plastic fork since I imagine there’s not enough energy to do the dishes, and stir! Then, read the instructions again, and pop that sucker in the microwave! And now, we wait.
NYX
Pfft- why’d you read the instructions so much?
BEN
Wanted to make sure we did it right! How often do you read them?
NYX
(Sitting up) Uh, only really at the beginning and for the microwave timer to be sure. I’ve basically got it down by now, made a lot of mac-n-cheese during my time.
BEN
(Noticed moon sitting up, happier) Oh really?
NYX
Yeah, but the main thing that throws me off is if someone gets a different brand than I’m used to. I dunno, something, something, change? Whatever. (Slumps back a bit) It’s weird.
BEN
Hey, you’re talking to the fella who just read the instructions for macaroni and cheese four times in fewer minutes! I’ll get it, or at least I’ll try. Now, why don’t you tell me what’s going on, kiddo?
NYX
Uh, well… I just. Hate being so mentally ill sometimes.
BEN
Yeah?
NYX
Like, it’s just. There’s something wrong with me, y’know? Something deep down inside. Like, I know that it’s there, but I just… can’t do anything about it. It just hurts.
BEN
I get you, kiddo.
NYX
(Sighs) It’s been… bad, recently. Very bad. It seems I can’t do anything right, and even if I try, it hurts. I can’t even get started on most things, because all it does is hurt! Like, why? What’s wrong with me?! And I can’t play video games, or draw, or hang out with my friends without being tired! I hate this… why am I like this? Why can’t I ever have control over my life?! You guys are one of the few good things I can still interact with, and yet… I’m just. Tired, Ben. So tired.
(Silence. The microwave beeps and Ben takes the mac-n-cheese out.)
BEN
…I understand, kiddo. Mental issues are quite common around here, ha… I don’t know exactly what will help you feel better, but what I do know is that I promise to do whatever I can to help support you. I’ve got your back, kid.
NYX
…Thanks.
BEN
Would you feel okay maybe writing this down so we can show it to our therapist next session? I think that, if anyone could help you, it’d be them.
NYX
Hm… maybe. I mean, it’s personal, but… I want to get better.
BEN
Attagirl, Nyx! Or, atta… what did you call it, again? It appears I’m getting a bit senile in my old age, ha!
NYX
Heh, demigirl.
BEN
Attademigirl, Nyx! Do you think you’re feeling a bit better now?
NYX
Hm, maybe a little.
BEN
Well, that’s just swell! The macaroni and cheese is almost done, you’ve just got to stir the cheese sauce in. Do you think you’re up to it?
NYX
I might be.
BEN
Okay, it’s all yours. Have a good meal, kid, and come to me anytime you need something, alright?
NYX
Alright. Oh, and Ben? Thank you. For everything.
(Ben smiles, and tags Nyx while giving moon the mac-n-cheese. They dissociate, and Nyx is in the body now. Ben heads for the closet, and the doors mysteriously shut after him, leaving Nyx alone in their room with a bowl of mac-n-cheese and a smile on her face.)
It's Non-Binary Awareness day! So I cooked up this somewhat big set of drawings that had to be narrowed down orginally. 4 NB characters in media, and 4 of my ocs; Kori, Daryl, Lathy, and Roanove.
Honestly could have just drawn 8 Cookie Run characters, they just have that many to choose from over there.
twisted glisten for the love of GOD you need to NOT beat toons up so badly and get some anger management for soemthing?!?!?! Ive been cleaning your newest mess w/ rodger for the last 3 HOURS!!!!!!
at least its not on a carpet this time good fucking lord…
— twisted tisha
”Ugh—doll, I could have cleaned it up myself! Also—I’d rather you not be talking, I’ve SEEN you maul toons with that duster of yours. Here, give me the mop. I’ll clean it up myself, you go relax.”
Here's a play I wrote a while back for a playwriting class that I'm very happy with! I believe it's around 1,750 words
It's a short play about plurality, and two headmates arguing in a bathroom at a party
Tw: Alcohol, mention of weed/drugs, blood, headmate verbal abuse, and cursing
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Michael in the Bathroom (not) by Himself
Written by levthedisasterboy
PLAYWRIGHT'S NOTES
These characters are headmates in a DID system. Switching who controls the body is often shown through ‘tagging’ each other, like in games of tag that children play. They have a sister named Alisa, though she is unaware of their plurality due to them masking.
CHARACTERS
JUNAID, or JUN He/him, 19 y/o. A generally angry persecutor, he dislikes pretty much everyone. He enjoys rock music and playing his electric guitar, and has many bad coping mechanisms.
NYX She/moon, 17 y/o. Very low energy, mediates a lot of problems in the system. Likes video games, making art, and making references.
SETTING
A bathroom at a house party. It’s not large nor small, with bright fluorescent lights. Loud music is muffled through the door.
TIME
12am
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(Blackout, loud party music. The sound of a door slamming, muffling the music. Lights up on Nyx hunched over a sink, breathing hard with a red solo cup in hand loosely, headphones wrapped around her neck. Jun is leaning his back against the door with his arms crossed. Nyx’s breathing slows a bit, and moon turns to look at Junaid.)
NYX
So… crazy party, huh?
(Silence)
Uh, mind telling me where we are exactly so Alisa can pick us up? No offense to your lifestyle and all that, but I prefer the ability to control the volume myself.
JUN
Yeah, no, I’m not gonna let you narc on this party. It took me ages to finally get invited to one, since you losers constantly ruin my life!
NYX
Well, to be fair, I’m pretty good at ruining my own, too. Besides, I’m not gonna narc. Y’know me, I’m cool.
JUN
Are you?.
NYX
Eh, cooler than Lucy. Wouldn’t want her yelling in your ear about all this, that’s for sure. I am actually the coolest person in this system, thank you very much!
JUN
Whatever.
NYX
So, can you please tell m-
JUN
No. I’m not going home, and neither are you.
NYX
Ugh, seriously? Cause if I go back out there to that sea of people all bumping into each other… music and lights blaring, alcohol reeking… (recoils from the red solo cup) I might actually pass out on the floor right then and there. That would definitely ruin your street cred, right, tough guy?
JUN
That’s why you’re not going back out there. I am.
NYX
Oh, c’mon, Jun! I got triggered to front by the music, I don’t know how exactly you plan to shove me back in. Banger tunes, by the way. (Looks towards the door where loud music is blaring) Can I put on your noise-cancelling headphones now? Ah, screw it, why am I asking? (Pulls the headphones from around her neck onto her head) God, that’s much better.
JUN
Take that off, right now.
NYX
WHAT? I CAN’T HEAR YOU!
JUN
I’m literally talking to you inside your head, you prick!
NYX
SORRY, I ONLY LISTEN TO NICE PEOPLE!
JUN
Asshole.
NYX
Takes one to know one!
JUN
Just take them off already!
NYX
In the wise words of Veronica Sawyer: why?
JUN
Because they’re my damn headphones, that’s why!
NYX
No, actually, they’re our damn headphones. Insert communist Buggs Bunny meme here.
JUN
You’re pathetic. Can’t even stand a party without crying in the bathroom like a baby.
NYX
Oh no, my feeling! It’s not my fault I got all the sensory issues in the divorce.
JUN
Doesn’t change anything. It’s your fault and your fault alone that you’re in this situation. If you want to leave, then that’s fine. Cause you’ll have no help from me.
NYX
You can’t be serious, dude. Really?
JUN
Walk home alone. In the dark, if you wanna leave so bad.
NYX
Wow, that’s cold, Jun. That’s cold.
JUN
Well? Start walking.
NYX
You know that’s ridiculous! I don’t even know where we are! Whose house is this? It’s my house now!
JUN
Is it ridiculous? You see, here are your two options: you walk in a random direction at midnight and get murdered in an alleyway for all of the two dollars and pocket full of Silly Bandz that you possess, or you let me back in control. Take it or leave it.
NYX
Uh, I think there’s a fourth option, actually.
JUN
Fourth? Are you on drugs or something?
NYX
Nope, but I’m about to be! (Downs the entire red solo cup in one go) By the way, option three involved me killing you, so be grateful, kay?
JUN
Hey, what the hell are you doing?!
NYX
I’m gonna fly, baby! Got my- our- noise cancelling headphones on, and gonna do enough weed and alcohol so that my brain finally shuts the fuck up for once! I wanna be sedated!
JUN
You’re stupid.
NYX
Aw, c’mon, Jun! Everybody gets high, why the hell can’t I?! Especially you!
JUN
Aren’t you supposed to be the good one?
NYX
Nope, that’s Lucy!
JUN
The responsible one?
NYX
Ben!
JUN
The- the protective one?!
NYX
Kai~ra! And Bo’s the spacey one, and Angelo’s the little one, and you’re the angry one-
JUN
Fuck you.
NYX
Point proven!- And I’m NOBODY!! Aha… yeah. And then, there are the others. Yeah, they were- oh, I’ve been here for so long, Jun… so long… I might even be older than Ben! Though memories get fuzzier the deeper down you go…
JUN
…Stop it, you freak.
NYX
Ugh, God, everything sucks! I know why you love drugs so much now. I want more, please!
JUN
Ugh, just shut up! This was supposed to be my night, not yours.
NYX
Hey, if I could, I would’ve given control back to you in a heartbeat, but now? I wanna do more drugs. Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars!
JUN
Okay, you seem to not realize that these drugs are depressants, not magic carpet rides!
NYX
I. Don’t. Care. Man, I know you’re always angry at all of us for existing and fucking up your life or something, but you never realize how freeing it is to just, let go sometimes. Let others choose for you. Y’know? To not have to deal with everything all of the time. You view us all as a prison, but to me, it’s my lifeline.
JUN
Seriously? You’re just fine with six parasites constantly sucking your blood?! I can’t do jack shit around here without you all intervening because I’m “not acting like the body” or “not talking to our friends!!1!”. Behaving as myself is a crime! It’s ridiculous. In fact, I can’t even get through a damn party without one of you interrupting me! If you’re going to live my life, at least DO something with it instead of pathetically wallowing in MISERY!
(Silence)
Just call Alisa already. The night’s over.
NYX
… I don’t think you should be so harsh on them. Y’know, as much as the others take from us, I’m glad they’re around. I mean, if it was just you and me, I don’t think either of us would’ve lasted this long. Especially with our diets, can’t survive on potato chips and M&Ms for dinner every night, lol. Someone’s gotta eat a vegetable!
(Silence)
I really am sorry for ruining your night, by the way. If that means anything.
JUN
…You should be. How DARE you say I shouldn’t be harsh to them?! All of you always fuck up everything! Don’t you know what it feels like to have your life broken and taken away before you can even live it?! I’ve never had a normal ANYTHING thanks to you! If you were really sorry, you’d disappear forever and leave me alone.
NYX
…You know I can’t do that…
JUN
Before you came along, I was talking to people. I was jamming to music! I was making friends, NOT as the body, but as MYSELF. Which is more than I can say for you.
NYX
Damn it, Jun…
JUN
No matter what you do, no one will ever know your name. Not your friends, not Alisa. You’re nobody, and that’s all you’ll ever be.
NYX
Stop it! What the hell is wrong with you?!
JUN
What’s wrong? You yourself admitted it! ‘I’m nobody,’ remember? Afraid of the truth? No one will ever see you as who you are. You’ll never amount to anything.
NYX
Stop!
JUN
And when you think you can let your guard down, try to take off that mask around the body’s precious friends? Around Alisa? They’ll think you’re weird and delusional and scary. Then they’ll hate you. And so will everyone else-
NYX
SHUT UP!
JUN
-in the system who wished you just kept your stupid little mouth shut!
NYX
I SAID SHUT UP!!!
(Nyx punches the bathroom mirror, breaking it into a spiderweb of shards. Moon’s hand starts bleeding, and after a dazed beat, moon pulls moon’s hand back from the mirror and looks at it absently. Then Nyx looks up at Junaid with a blank expression, Jun wearing a sadistic smirk.)
JUN
You and I both know you shouldn’t exist. So just give it up already.
NYX
…What a waste…
(Nyx is dissociating, and Jun takes this opportunity to tag her on the shoulder before taking the headphones and red solo cup for himself. Moon seems too dazed to care.)
(Nyx slips out of the bathroom, and Jun is left all alone. His hand starts to bleed where Nyx punched the mirror, and he grimaces in pain before shaking it off and dramatically rejoining the party.)
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