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[squishranger]

man i just dont know why im so afraid all the time (<- has the disorder that makes you afraid all the time)

[postpunkclarity]

man i just dont know why im so empty all the time (<- has the disorder that makes you empty all the time)

[becherdireinen]

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

[stresslessnext]

The exhaustion of those days when all you wanna do is doom scroll and rot in bed. It sucks. & hurts.

[lgbtmedusa]

i never learned good coping mechanisms or how to regulate my emotions so now instead of dealing with difficulties and obstacles normally i start feeling suicidal

[cursesandcrows]

Me for the last 15 years: im a bit burnt out rn but im sure next week will be different

[d3ad-but-st1ll-al1v3-deactivate]

[lgbtmedusa]

i'm so tired of all the bpd viral memes being about girls being insane about men where are my fellow bpd girls that are insane about women instead

[lgbtmedusa]

i'm so tired of all the bpd viral memes being about girls being insane about men where are my fellow bpd girls that are insane about women instead

[lgbtmedusa]

the thing about situationship break-ups is that because it's something that doesn't really count as a relationship or has any labels it's harder to know when it's actually over

[honey-mess]

to you its a minor inconvenience to me it’s the trigger to a series of debilitating mood swings followed by a paralyzingly emptiness

[hop3wrlds]

ADHD is cool until ur having a panic attack in the shower over missing yet another deadline causing you to spiral n have a massive breakdown over the agonizing reality that easy things are hard and you will never be like the neurotypicals no matter how many self help guides you read or how many tips you apply . you just have to keep doing things the NT way and keep failing while not asking for special help or mercy bc society views it as weakness

[ojibwa]

[venus-in-hell]

No matter how many times my favorite person tells me he loves me I don't believe him. i can't believe him. I'm afraid of dying and not having ever felt truly loved. It's like there's a wall up in my mind that prevents me from thinking anyone could ever possibly love me. Because how do you really know?

you don't.

[dollheartangel]

[snail-is-wired]

does anyone else remember getting overstimulated as a kid to the point where you would start hurting yourself by scratching yourself, hitting yourself, biting yourself, destroying your own things, etc. and your parents would tell you to stop/you're doing that for attention/that hurts me to see you do that

like bitch I don't have emotional regulation and everytime I express my feelings to you I feel punished or am punished

[starfishinthedistance]

One thing (among many) that people need to keep in mind when they say things like "oh if you think you have a mental disorder, consult a professional" is that a lot of professionals will not consider evaluating and/or diagnosing you with something you bring up yourself. Especially the more uncommon/complex the disorder is. For things like MDD or GAD you likely won't have that problem, for things like OCD or ADHD they'll likely be suspicious but still comply somewhat, but for things like personality disorders or DID most professionals will completely brush you off and refuse to evaluate you. Because they think you're attention seeking and diagnosis shopping, and that you couldn't possibly have it, even if you haven't done anything to earn that suspicion.

For disorders like that, unless the professional themselves suspects you have it and comes up with that idea themselves, good luck getting evaluated at all. Especially when it comes to disorders most professionals don't even think they'll encounter, like SzPD or DID.

It'd be nice if we lived in a world where you could go see a psych, say "hey I think I have this", and they'd do a proper and fair evaluation for you the way a physical doctor would (moreso should but that's another can of worms).

It just isn't as simple as "ask a professional".

[powerfulkicks]

intrusive thoughts are so funny. your brain is like "imagine how fucked up it would be if you pushed that stranger in front of a car lol" and you're like yeah. that would be fucked up. i'm not gonna do that though. and your brain is like "ok. just to make sure i'm gonna make you think of it in graphic detail over and over for the next five minutes just so that you really understand how fucked up it would be." thanks i guess.