second best

"if you can believe it, the mind can achieve it"

[lgcsori]

modeling contracts plot call !

with all of my muses renewing their contracts w nintendo, they're all in search for a thread for the event !! sori and cherry are both doing pokemon pokopia and hyoseop will be doing "yoshi and the mysterious book", if you'd be interested in plotting, please like this post :3

[lgcsori]

nintendo answers

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sori sits down, tapping her fingers on her thighs, sitting in front of a camera still isn’t her greatest skill, and she looks a bit around before properly looking into the camera, forcing a smile to show up on her lips. ‘just get it over with’ she tells herself in her head, convincing herself she’s ready to answer some questions.

“what’s your favorite nintendo game of all time, and why?” “truthfully… i haven’t exactly played a lot of games, so there’s not much to pick from” she shrugs “but my member and friend introduced me to mario kart a while ago, while i’m still not the best driver, it was a game i really enjoyed” she nods. “it was really fun, i did get quite competitive though… but i think i love multiplayer games overall? they’re just more fun for me to play, i keep picking baby mario as my character though… i feel like maybe i should try a new character soon?”.

“if you could live in any nintendo world, which one would you choose?” “ahh… any nintendo world…?” she hums “that’s such a hard question…”. “hmm… i think maybe i would choose the mario world? mostly because of mario kart”. “i know that probably sounds silly, but it just seems really fun. even though it looks a little chaotic sometimes… everyone always seems like they’re having fun”. “i think it would be exciting to travel to all the different places too. like, one day you could be somewhere really pretty and peaceful, and then the next day you’re racing through rainbow roads in the sky.” she laughs quietly “although… i’d probably be really scared of falling off.” “and oh… i like the idea that it feels very cheerful? even when things go wrong, everything somehow feels okay again in the end. i think i’d like living somewhere that feels bright and happy like that.” smiles “maybe i’d still be bad at driving, though…”.

“how does gaming fit into your daily schedule, especially with a busy schedule?” “ah… uhm…” she laughs softly, a little embarrassed “honestly… gaming doesn’t fit into my schedule as much as i wish it did…”. “with practice, filming, recordings, and everything else, i feel like there’s always something to do”. “by the time i get home, sometimes i’m so tired that i just shower and go straight to bed…”. “but i really do miss it”. “whenever i see clips of people playing mario kart or hear friends talking about games, i always think, ‘ahh, i want to play too…’” “i think games are really nice because they help you relax and forget stress for a little while. so… um…” she hums“i kind of hope that when things calm down a bit, i can make more time for it again. even if it’s just a few races before bed.”

[lgcsori]

familiar feelings

while sori had managed to be an idol for quite a bit of time now, she still felt rather… awkward when filming cfs. standing in front of the camera was still not sori’s strongest trait. and while her dad was a successful model, and had countless of times tried to give her advice, sori remained awkward and shy in front of the camera. she’s sure it’ll change someday… maybe… hopefully? but for now, she’ll just attempt her best to get through it.

truthfully, sori didn’t know much about this ‘pokemon pokopia’ game they were promoting, which also truthfully, made her even more nervous about filming the commercial. she’s biting her lip, looking around and soon spots a familiar face. “hey yura” she says with a smile, while the two know each other, it’s been a while since they last interacted, but sori is pretty sure she’ll just grow more nervous if she’s just standing by herself. “the game we’re filming a cf for, are you familiar with it?”.

[lgcsori]

lgceunhye

“yeah, a living skeleton!” eunhye nodded her head several times, relieved to know that sori had a better way of describing the character she had chosen. “it is a bit creepy, but somehow i find that a bit endearing about this character. but you’re right though, not as cute as baby mario.” she laughed as she looked at the vehicle choices quickly.  a few seconds passed before eunhye came to the conclusion that she would pick the first one she saw. “the first one! it’s easier for me to pick the first one instead since it’s suited for all players usually.” after choosing their vehicles, eunhye reasoned as she passed through the menu, confirming the choices they agreed on earlier. “i’ve been told that since each part of the kart has different stats, it helps the player when driving. for instance, you could pick a heavy kart to block collisions from another player, but the downside to it is that you tend to move at a much slower speed. or you could pick the fastest kart, but sacrifice getting hit and pushed to the side easily by the heavier kart. those are the things the veteran players think of when choosing their karts.” after she was done with her explanation, eunhye noticed that it was time for them to start the race. “oh! it’s race time.” she smiled as she shifted her focus back on their screen. “good luck!” eunhye added soon after, excited to see how their first race would turn out.

“ah it seems like there’s a lot to get to know about this game…” she nods her head a bit “i suppose with time i’ll find out which car suits my playing method best” she shrugs “for now i’ll just go with whatever i find cutest though” she chuckles. sori doesn’t exactly expect much from herself, and she’s pretty sure she won’t be good in the beginning, no matter what vehicle she picks. “did you play this growing up?” she looks at eunhye. she would’ve loved to have played this growing up, but they were probably too poor, and then when her dad got money, he left with her brother.

“eh! is it already race time?” sori bites her lip “i don’t even know how to drive… do i press any buttons or do i just drive automatically?” she looks at eunhye with panic in her eyes. “you’re choosing an easy one, right? i think i need to start with an easy one…”. “be prepared to uuh… lose” there’s not exactly much confidence behind sori’s voice, she’s already pretty sure she’ll lose herself.

[lgcsori]

name cha sori stage name aster birthday august 15th, 2002 birthplace anyang, south korea blood type b zodiac sign leo favorite motto “a journey of a thousand miles, starts with a single step”

random facts 

she’s the sister to type zero’s “cha hyoseop”

she speaks three languages: english, korean & japanese

knows how to play the guitar

is allergic to pineapple

known for making really good pancakes

year end goals 

hosting a music show

modeling for a fried chicken brand

improve dance skills

previous appearances/projects featured in chuu’s “pink cloud” m/v, guest on joojoonail most memorable or favorite event “team unknown mission 001”, i have never wanted to debut as much as when i joined team unknown, the team and event really pushed me to practice harder, and made me realize how much i wanted to be an idol

[lgcsori]

lgcxminji

minji gladly takes the vitamin drink, immediately uncapping it and taking a sip as she sits in a split on the ground. "you're right! this is where the dancing really counts, so i'll take all the vitamins I can get." she puts the bottle back down, then stretches forward in her split, feeling the slight pull on her hip muscles. she thinks about sori's words- the weirdness of filming in their 'natural' state, without heavy stage makeup or elaborate dancewear. minji, knowing she was filming today, did put on some very light makeup, nothing elaborate. just some mascara and a lip tint. however, it's still nowhere close to the flaw-covering glam they typically have on stage and in videos. despite not being in a 'perfect' state, minji still ends up replying "eh, i think i got used to it." after multiple years in the industry, it's second nature for her to notice cameras around at any point- prepared or not. "the fans won't mind anyways. anyone who says anything about it is probably just watching to hate in the first place."

sori didn’t care as much about her looks at her brother and dad, in that respect she was different and more like her mother. her brother and dad wore make up almost every time they went out, and the two were both big fans of working out. sori doesn’t think she’s ever even seen her mom in make up. it’s not that sori dislikes wearing make up, she loves getting her make up done, and she often does her make up herself, it’s just… not a priority for sori? she doesn’t mind going out without make up, besides, she usually isn’t lazy, but when it comes to her looks… perhaps she’s a bit lazy…

“i don’t dislike my face without make up, so who cares” she shrugs. “and you always look good minji, make up or not” she smiles to the other. “besides, if we did wear make up, we might just sweat it off anyway” she nods her head a bit. “do you think we’ll manage to get it in one take…? i feel like even if we do good on our first take, they might just make us do another take anyway”.

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lgceunhye

no matter how many fansigns eunhye attended, she always enjoyed them. some fans were familiar faces she’d seen countless times before, while others were people she barely knew but still wanted to leave with a memorable experience.  as the staff members rearranged the tables and seats, eunhye did her best to juggle her usual leader responsibilities while interacting with the fans around her. with so many people trying to get her attention at once, though, her focus scattered between conversations. because of that, she was surprised when she felt something placed on her head, followed by a familiar voice. “huh?” eunhye blinked in confusion, wondering what sori had done before her eyes landed on the other’s bunny ears. a laugh slipped out of her immediately. “you’re the cute one!” she protested, pointing at the ears before tugging lightly at the hat on her own head to see that it was a fish hat. “i’m glad that rabbits are herbivores. i don’t want to be eaten by sorikki!” eunhye joked as she scrunched her nose in mock horror.  “i think i’m going to keep calling you sorikki until the fansign ends. it’s cute,” she added with a smile. “it’s a mix of sori and tokki.” even as she spoke, eunhye was already trying to think of ways to help sori feel more comfortable without letting the fans notice anything was wrong. to match the silly mood with her hat, eunhye puffed out her cheeks and puckered her lips into an exaggerated fish impression. turning her body slowly towards sori, she asked, “how would you rate my fish impression?”

fansigns were a weird concept in sori’s head, standing on stage answering questions and interacting with her members, then sitting on a chair to talk to fans, but it was still enjoyable though, sori liked it. she’d never been the most social, always struggled with making friends, so interacting with fans didn’t exactly come natural to her. she still tried her best of course, to smile and happily listen to her fans, because they truly meant the world to her, she just struggled with showing that.

“sorikki?” she repeats, looking up at eunhye with her puppy eyes, “i like it! it’s cute! no guarantee i won’t eat you though…” she playfully hits eunhye while a smile sits on her lips. there’s a lot of comfort in standing next to eunhye, interacting with the other, the worry of so many eyes on her, fade a bit away. “your fish impression is amazing” she gives a strong nod “are you sure you’re not the maknae of fabula?” she tilts her head to the side “you’re too good at aegyo…”.

[lgcsori]

modeling contracts plot call !

with all of my muses renewing their contracts w nintendo, they're all in search for a thread for the event !! sori and cherry are both doing pokemon pokopia and hyoseop will be doing "yoshi and the mysterious book", if you'd be interested in plotting, please like this post :3

[lgcsori]

lgceunhye

“oh yeah! for sure!” eunhye responded with confidence. “fans tend to like all sides of us, or at least what is presented to the public. obviously they wouldn’t really like someone who is rude or disrespectful, but if it’s something like them not being good at something, they’ll find it charming and cute that their bias is someone who has flaws too.” she’s seen her fair share of moments similar to what she had described (and also experienced a few for herself). “confidence doesn’t come from experience alone—it comes from believing in yourself too. if you trust that you can win, you just might surprise yourself!” she said with reassurance as she shared a bit of her mindset whenever she tried something new (and once she got out of the initial surprise phase). chuckling at sori’s reaction, eunhye watched as sori picked her character before going back to where her cursor was. “i’m picking this one! it’s called dry bones, they’re um…how should i explain it…” eunhye realized that explaining what they were to someone who might not know could possibly be an interesting moment. “the opposite of that one.” she vaguely began describing while pointing to the turtle that looked similar, which was the koopa troopa. “it’s just they’re the skeletal version.” clearing her throat, eunhye quickly clicked on her chosen character before switching to the vehicles option. “i think after picking the vehicle, it’ll ask us to confirm if everything is correct so we can start the race afterwards.” she noticed that there were so many vehicle options to choose from, but ended up choosing whatever was the first one available to make it easier for her. “for the veteran players, they have their own preferences for the go-karts since each one has advantages and disadvantages. but usually whatever comes up first is a good option for players!”

“eh, really?” she pouts “i still don’t like showing the things i’m bad at though…” she lets out a sigh. it’s always been sori’s goal to be the best at everything, and usually she is the best at everything, so it feels so weird when there’s something in the world she isn’t the best at. she has these high standards for herself, and perhaps she just assumes everybody else has these high standards for her as well. “flaws too you say” she hums “maybe it’s not the end of the world to let them see me do stuff i’m not good at… i’d still prefer showing off the things i’m good at though”.

“so it’s like a living skeleton or something?” she looks at eunhye as she tilts her head to the side. she turns her back to the screen, “it’s kind of creepy, isn’t it? well… it’s definitely not as cute as baby mario, that’s for sure…” she nods her head. “oh, we’re picking our own vehicle too? this is kind of fun, and we haven’t even properly started” she giggles. “i think i’m just gonna pick whichever vehicle is the cutest” she shrugs, scrolling through to find her pick. “that one!” she says excitedly, before letting her eyes wander over to eunhye’s pick, “are you gonna chose what comes first or something else?”.

[lgcsori]

po-- wait, po what?

...

the livestream starts a few minutes late with the camera pointed at absolutely nothing useful for a solid ten seconds before shifting abruptly upward. a quiet voice mutters, “oh… it’s on already?” there she is, slightly flustered, fixing a strand of hair behind her ear as chat immediately fills with greetings and teasing comments about her accidental dramatic entrance. she laughs awkwardly, the kind that sounds halfway between embarrassed and fond. “sorry,” she says quietly. “i’m not good at starting lives… i thought someone else would do for me… like usually” she bites her lip, fans calling her cute to her own surprise.

tonight’s game is pokémon pokopia, though she says the title cautiously, like she’s worried she somehow pronounced it wrong. the entire vibe of the stream becomes cozy almost instantly. she’s a little shy in front of the camera, often glancing at chat before quickly looking back at the game, smiling to herself whenever fans compliment her.

at first, she tries to be very focused. very serious, keyword: tries. five minutes in, she confidently explains her “strategy” for approaching a challenge, speaking carefully like she’s presenting something deeply thought-out. “so if i go this way,” she says, nodding to herself, “then technically—” immediate mistake, her character runs directly into the wrong area. she blinks. “…i think that was emotional navigation.” the chat loves it “what?” she asks, genuinely confused. “that made sense in my head.”

the funniest part is she never realizes when she’s being funny. when fans spam laughing emojis after she accidentally startles herself over an in-game sound effect, she looks puzzled. “i didn’t even scream,” she says quietly, a pause, “you screamed,” chat insists. “no…” she says, immediately replaying the clip after fans beg her to. silence. “…okay maybe a little.”

throughout the stream, she accidentally creates running jokes without meaning to. she keeps forgetting item names and inventing replacements that somehow stick with the fandom. a mysterious glowing object becomes “the sparkly suspicious thing,” and after getting mildly lost for the third time she sighs softly and says, “i’m not lost. i’m just… seeing all the map has to offer.” fans instantly start quoting it.

despite her shyness, she constantly checks in with viewers. she reads usernames quietly, thanks people for staying, and occasionally gets flustered when compliments move too fast in chat. “you guys are too nice,” she mumbles, trying very hard to move on before smiling anyway.

[lgcsori]

lgcxminji

dance practice hype

with the new comeback on the horizon, it meant there were many routine activities that needed to be filmed; and today, it was time to record the dance practice.¨ minji had dressed herself in a simple black outfit, one that she hoped would accentuate her lines and make herself look good while dancing. she had her hair tied up in a ponytail, a habit she'd held since her days in musical theatre dance classes. the girl excitedly bounced into the practice room, meeting sori inside." she smiles, plopping herself next to her and beginning to warm up, starting with a few lunges. "i was practicing in my dorm late last night, i was so excited! i want to make sure it's perfect, of course. how about you, do you think you're ready for the video?"

sori was ambivalent when it came to filming dance practice. dance surely was sori’s greatest skill, and she was very confident in it, still, having a camera film her made her a bit nervous, which makes no sense, because she’s not at all nervous when she’s performing live. perhaps she just hasn’t fully gotten used to being in front of cameras yet, it still feels… strange… unfamiliar? she doesn’t have a word for it, she just knows she still remains not the biggest fan of being filmed.

she’s wearing grey sweatpants, and a way too tight black shirt, looking in the mirror, she almost feels disgusted, not that her outfit looks bad, it just… looks like something her brother would wear… sure they’ve spent more time than usual lately, but that doesn't mean she’s becoming more like him, does it? ah well… who cares, sori is probably the only one noticing how striking similar her outfit is to what her brother wears.

sori nods at minji’s words “i feel prepared” she says, a slight smile showing up on her lips. “ah wait, give me a second!” the girl says before vanishing over to her bag, soon returning “here’s a vitamin drink” she says with a smile “we gotta keep ourselves healthy”. “it feels a bit weird there’s cameras in here when i look so… naked? i haven’t done my hair nor my make up…”.

[lgcsori]

funny hats

fansigns still feel a bit unnatural for sori, she’s grown to like it though. she enjoys talking with the fans, even though she feels like she’s a bit awkward, it’s nice to hear whatever the fans have to say, sori isn’t naturally good at interacting with people, and especially not strangers, so she always fears the worst. and then there’s the other part of fansigns, where it’s just the idols on the stage, playing with the gifts the fans have given them. 

sori sneaks her way over to eunhye, she always feels a bit more calm when she’s with one of her members, finding two hats on the way, she picks those two up as well. she puts bunny ears on herself, and goes up to eunhye from behind, placing some sort of… fish hat(?) on the other. “eeh! so cute unnie!” she says, hugging one of the other’s arms and holding her tight. she’s not sure whether eunhye can tell she’s shy right now, but it’s still comforting just standing next to the other.

GO! @lgceunhye

[lgcsori]

lgcyoojin

well, the idol did stop, and even if it was visible that she was tired (and yoojin immediately had second thoughts about pushing his agenda), she looked friendly with her reaction, which made him immediately bow down and introduce himself to the trio in front of him. “i’m choi yoojin, i’m a trainee”, he politely explained, returning to his original position and looking from one girl to the other, but keeping his stare on sori, offering her a tiny smile. “i know i might sound very unprofessional now, but i have a little sister at home who wouldn’t stop talking about how much she loves fabula, and you’re her favorite.” yoojin then pulled a limited album edition, his sister got from the fanclub merchandise just when fabula debuted, and offered it to sori, still keeping a very shy posture, because he never had to go through that kind of interaction before (well, there was the time with jino, but that was completely different, mind you), “i was wondering if you could sign thing for her, it’d make her day. and i’m already sorry in advance”.

it sounds weird, but sometimes sori almost forgets she’s an idol, that she has fans. it’s been some time since she debuted, yet she still can’t fully believe that she debuted. sori became an idol for dance, but now it might just be the fans that keep her going. she didn’t think she’d admire and love her fans as much as she does, liking and loving has always been a rare and weird concept to sori, and she struggles with telling anyone she loves them, even her family, but saying she loves her fans comes so easily to her.

there comes a surprised expression on sori’s face as this “yoojin” continues talking, and sori somehow finds herself genuinely surprised at his words. “me?” she points to herself “are you sure?” she tilts her head to the side. sori has always assumed the other members are far more popular than sori, sori doesn’t do well on variety shows, and she’s often awkward in front of the camera.

“eh! how’d she get this album? even i don’t have it…” to be fair, she wasn’t the biggest fan of fabula before joining the group, it was crystallis’ astrid that had caught her heart. “but of course” she nods “i’ll sign it” she smiles. “do you want a selfie with me too? though… i’m not sure if that would make her happy or jealous…” she pouts “what’s her name? who am i signing this to?”.

[lgcsori]

lgcmilan

the girl's nose scrunches a bit in displeasure at the mention of energy drinks. "my body doesn't react well to energy drinks... my heart more often than not starts beating like crazy and i get all jittery. that's not normal, right?" then, there's the fact that milan s naturally excitable; energy drinks make her unstoppable... in a bad way. one can to study through the night for an exam the next day? oh, she's staying up all night alright, but her capacity to focus on something so tedious becomes absolutely nonexistent. sori's words make her pause, her eyes soften as she puckers her lips for a second before laughing softly. she throws her arms around the fabula member's shoulders and rests the side of her head against hers. "because our relationship didn't begin on the right foot, these words sound really precious, you know." milan pulls away from sori, nodding understandingly. "during the first few months, i'd sleep every day off that we had. but as soon as i adapted, i went ahead and made... choices." she chuckles. that's one way to put it. she surely would be less tired if she wasn't so stubborn or didn't sacrifice sleep to meet with a special someone. "did i tell you i returned to university?" that's the stubborn part. "how did you manage to get your degree without losing your mind?"

“i think it is? not everybody reacts to energy drinks the same way” she shrugs “i used to drink an energy drink when i had to study for tests, but since i’m not a student anymore, i haven’t had one in a while…” lately she kind of missed it though. part of her wants to sleep through the night, so she can be well rested for whatever the day brings, part of her wants to stay up during the night, as that kind of feels like the only time off she gets. “maybe we should get coffee for you and an energy drink for me?” she tilts her head to the side.

“ah… you’re right” she bites her lip “i don’t think i ever apologized for it, though? i used to be so… mean, and so… rude” she pouts “i just thought of everyone as a rival or enemy, milan, i’m sorry about that” she looks at milan, a pout on her lips and wide sorry eyes staring at the other.

“i think i got used to having no free time? practice and schedule and then when that was all done, i’d study, i couldn’t really properly show up to school as an idol, but i made an agreement with the school, i did my homework, showed up here and there, did my exams, so eventually the degree was sitting on my head”. “i don’t even think i have any good advice, being an idol and student at once is hell, and i do really wish you luck, because… i really do think you’ll need it”.

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lgcxsarang

Sarang nodded in response, honestly she felt the same way. she loved being in front of the fans and she loved performing in front of them. the performances at fan-meets weren’t as serious and allowed more fun but she still loved it. dressing up and finding fansites that took photos later on. it was something she had seriously waited for and sarang was determined to enjoy every bit of it. the wait was worth it, “it does make me happy that I chose give it a little more time.” and if she hadn’t made it through the debut round, well it was something sarang didn’t want to think too heavily about. it was better to focus on the present then bring herself down with the what ifs. now she was apart of a debut group, she was promoting and finally achieved the idol dream that she always dreamed of. her head nod was more aggressive the second time around, “soon enough, we’ll be someone’s sunbae and we’ll be able to tell them that it was worth it as well.” even that was a pleasurable thought, at some point she’d be able to talk about her story and journey to debut and maybe, hopefully help some hopefuls keep up the hope.

it all sounds so stupid now, but when sori’s brother debuted, sori doubted herself. she’d been in legacy longer, she used to feel like she deserved to debut first, then, when he debuted, she questioned herself and her abilities. how could someone with less training debut before her? she became insecure about herself and her skills, and she wondered if she would ever debut, part of her wanted to give up, current sori is very happy she didn’t do that.

“ah sunbae… it sounds so strange, but i guess, eventually we’ll be called that, won’t we?” she looks at sarang “i hope we have a lot of years ahead of us as idols” she looks back at everything else, sometimes it still feels awkward to stare at sarang for too long. “do you have any goals, now that you debuted? before debuting, all i wanted was to debut, now i can have proper goals, like getting better at variety, learning an instrument and such” she wants to look back at sarang, but she doesn’t.

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lgclili

( prev. ) lili pauses, thinking back as she counts the years and slowly realizes how the years have really dwindled by — fast and slow, each with their days of torment and joy. “sixteen? i think i came a month after i turned sixteen. i did the whole transferring schools, learning korean and everything — but that’s almost a lifetime ago.” she says as a woman now snowballing into her quarter-life crisis. “kind of seems silly that i did this for so long and this is all i have amounted for.” she’s hoping through this concert that something will give — something’s gotta give, right? if not her, then them? ( them being the company, that is ) she nods, hiding a smile behind a hand as she almost agrees with sori’s words because she can only know all too well how it feels to see everyone as a rival in such a competitive environment. it couldn’t be helped and the trainers definitely didn’t foster a friendly atmosphere with everyone vying for that special spot in a debut group.  lili puts out a hand for a shake — as if in a greeting gesture, almost comically at this point, probably belated but who was she to care — they’ve already tiptoed into this conversation, “well, sori-ssi, i’m lili and i would gladly be a friend to you if you’d be a friend for me.” “i know i will, it’s just the when that’s killing me.” she laughs, head shaking. 

“woah, sixteen really? i was seventeen, but turned eighteen a month after” she nods her head, “it does seem like trainees become younger and younger” she hums. she’s heard of people joining companies at the age of thirteen, sori can’t completely imagine it, since she’s never met such person. her brother was seventeen too when he joined a company, his first one just wasn’t legacy. “oh yeah, i forgot you’re a foreigner, you first learned korean when you came here?” she tilts her head to the side. she shakes her head “you’ve come far, don’t doubt yourself” she hums “my dad used to say something to me… what was it” she bites her lip. “ah! you have not failed until you quit trying” she attempts to smile.

sori stares at lili hands for a bit, a bit surprised by the other’s gesture, she looks at lili, a wide smile sitting on sori’s lips. “i’d quite like that” she says, shaking the other’s hand “now you gotta debut, i’m in need of more idol friends” she chuckles. “and hey, you can speak casually with me noona, no way to call me sori-ssi” she shakes her head “ah! are you fine with me calling you noona?” she tilts her head to the side, smile still sitting on her lips. sori isn’t sure if this is how friendships usually start, but she is happy about the situation she’s in, she’d gladly be friends with lili.

“it killed me too” she pouts “my brother debuted before me, and i couldn’t believe it! eventually it was my time though”.

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lgclili

( prev. ) she’s wanted this for so long — so, so, so long — that she wonders if the novelty of debut has worn off on her and all she wants is peace. but then she’ll find herself back in a practice room, going through the motions of a choreography she learned the day before — tired, sweaty, breathless — and thinking, there’s no place she’d rather be.  and when sori puts the number into facts, the reality is ice cold. she’s been here for so long, too long and she wonders if its pathetic of her to continue waiting. but the praise is a nice consolation, a true testatment of her years of training, practicing, grueling over getting each and every choreographed performance right ( only to grow a chip on her shoulder when the year ends and debut is still closer to a dream than it is a reality ), “thank you,” and its in this instance that lili finds it hard to humble herself down — not that she ever wanted to be considered humble but forcing it now was hard when she’s nearly had a decade of practice under her belt. “it was my first love.” and was almost as easy as breathing at this point. lili could believe it. when she first got into the company, she had kept to herself — a detached persona shrouded her when she had moved from one company to the next, carrying the shame of her past actions. it had continued until her second year when she finally branched out but it was too late and there were too many trainees who simply didn’t care to be tethered down by relationships. somehow, lili became one of them. “it’s okay, i wasn’t really the most … social either. i thought if i kept to myself and worked hard enough it would make me debut faster but …” she pushes through a wry laugh, “surprise, surprise — still here.” she’s trying to joke, hoping it comes across as funny instead of desperate. “but i have been enjoying this experience. it’s definitely different than anything i’ve done before. i’ve only ever performed at the company concert at the end of summer.”

sori wonders how long she would’ve stayed a trainee before giving up. dancing is her true love, and she would’ve stayed at legacy for a while as a trainee, but how long would she have stayed a trainee? she couldn’t have been a trainee for forever, at some point apparently, you’re too old to debut, so eventually, had she not debuted, her dreams would’ve been crushed. how long would she have stayed, how long would legacy have kept her around? it’s not exactly a pleasant thing to think about, but it does make sori more thankful she at last debuted.

she looks at lili, and the number repeats in her head, nine years… it took sori about four years she’s pretty sure, and that felt like forever, but… nine years… it sounds like forever, and sori fears she wouldn’t have been able to stick around for that long “how young were you when you became a trainee then?” she must’ve been young… one of those people that started as a trainee extremely young, right? “i suppose it was my first love too” she nods her head, sori has never had anything romantic with anyone, so dancing is probably the closest sori has gotten to “love”.

“i personally had a tendency to see everyone as a rival during my trainee days… so making friends was difficult” she twirls a piece of her own hair between her fingers. “it took me some time to realize that it’s nice to have friends in this industry and that not everyone is your… enemy” she pouts. “maybe it’s good you didn’t know me back then, i often came across as… rude, i suppose” she was rude, definitely was. “i still struggle with making friends, but hey, i try” she smiles to the other, part of her wants to ask lili if she wants to be friends, but she’s unsure if that’s how friendships work, do you ask people to be your friend? “you should look forward to debuting, i’m sure you will be debuting eventually” she smiles.