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Moon Ahra | 23 | Lgc ent. trainee

[lgcxahra]

Babysitting Chaos

lgcjinseo​:

Jinseo liked to think he got along with kids. He may not have gotten to take care of Jinah and Jinsoul for long, but he had done some babysitting along with his tutoring when the parents of his students go home late. The kids liked him enough to play with him and not make his life hell, and the parents always asked him to come back. He likes to think he can handle a few kids at the day care. 

Thankfully, he’s not alone. “I have had some experience with kids,” Jinseo says in reply to his partner. Having someone split up babysitting duties with should make things easier for them both. “Although I’m more used to kids who are already in at least elementary school, but I should be able to live. How about you?” 

After Ahra answers, Jinseo nods. Before he can say anything else, the PD tells them it’s time to enter the room. He looks at Ahra and smiles at her as if to say good luck before they enter their assigned room. “Hello, everyone!” he announces as soon as they both enter the room. 

After returning the smile and walking in, is the moment she really realised what she'd gotten herself into. The ages of the kids were rather young and she wondered if the parents really trusted them with their kids, or wanted them to be on tv that much, though perhaps that were rather pessimistic thoughts.

She greeted them as well, introducing herself and smiled at the kids, realising kids this young needed a lot of activities while not having attention spans all that long yet. They'd need to think of a variety of things and then, of course, how to best engage them and get their attention.

“Okay everyone, let' start with...” Ahra started, in a good attempt, but then her brain failed her, unable to come up with anything on the spot, so she turned around to Jinseo. “Indeed, what should we do first?” she asked, hoping he may already have an idea, or that she at the very least didn't put him on the spot with her question.

[lgcxahra]

Babysitting Chaos

Ahra couldn't lie, while she liked children, this seemed a lot more intimidating now than when she'd decided to try. How would she best handle the children? What if her way of dealing with them was in some way wrong, or they'd be super confused because they were used to something different?

Well, at least she wasn't alone, perhaps together they'd do a good job. Really, at this point, she wasn't even conscious of the cameras anymore, as she'd been while filming basically anything up until now.

“How... are you with children?” she asked her partner in crime, wondering if this would go well, or if they'd be under the mercy of the kids and whatever chaos they might create.

@lgcjinseo

[lgceunji]

     @lgcxahra​ is performing!

     eunji stood, hands clasped, hair done. it was prettily fashioned into her iconic ponytail, but curled and bouncy. she knew with that and just a little touch of the stylists’ makeup, she looked good. that was really all that mattered! she was on tv to be popular, to entertain, not to actually do good cooking. she knew from the previous season that absolutely zero viewers were in it for the cooking, so, all she had were her looks and variety skills. for that day, though, she could already tell she would be using no such skills.      it was out of her head. the event itself was gone. the smoke, though, it lingered.      her face was as dolled as it could be. not a single hair was misplaced. underneath, though, at the base of the beauty was a defeated child. there would be no jokes. there would be no smiles. eunji figured, even in her pessimistic state, that looks would be what she had best to give.      she stood beside her partner, ahra, and listened patiently to all instructions. she did not give big reactions, she only took what was given to her and made note of it.      before the mc’s could finish giving them all the details, eunji was already planning ahead. she leaned over to her new friend partner.      “what kind of desert should we do? it should be something simple, right? we don’t want to mess it up.”

[lgcxahra]

It was her first time on this show, so the female felt equally worried. What if she completely messed up? And she'd tell her mother to watch it, once it'd be out... the daughter of a pastry chef should be able to do this much at least, right? Well, she wasn't all that confident, especially as  her variety skills were lacking, still, she wanted to be a singer after all... but she was very much aware that prettily singing and dancing wouldn't get her far, not when most trainees could do this.

“I really hope they'll give us a simple recipe, but... something difficult would probably be more interesting for the viewers, right?” she answered, doing her best to still follow the instructions and explanations of the mc while listening to her partner and answering her. Her partner was beautiful, as superficial as that was (and she did feel a pang of guilt when she noticed her judgemental initial reaction to the other, no matter if “pretty” was usually a positive thing), in comparison she felt rather plain looking, with her simple bun and make-up. Strategically, an eye-catching appearance was a rather good idea, why hadn't she thought of that?

[lgcxahra]

across the room.

lgceunhye​:

eunhye was immediately intrigued by ahra’s response. even though there were so many trainees in the company at the moment, it still felt surreal knowing that they were picked from an even bigger pool of people who auditioned. 

“i had a similar experience, actually.” eunhye revealed to her as she thought about her audition process and how shocking the outcome was. “i auditioned out of whim to support one of my friends who really wanted to be a trainee in this company. the plot twist to that though is that i was the one who was offered the contract and not her. i’m still unsure as to why i was picked, but i guess that’s why i’m here to figure it out!” she ended her story on a positive note, mostly because she wasn’t like the other trainees who had seen and experienced more than she has.

“i felt bad back then that my friend didn’t get signed but i promised to her that i would make it up to her once i debut. it’s the least i can do to return the favor.” she let out an awkward laugh while thinking about how she would communicate with her friend every so often. “what made you want to sign with legacy though? was it to become an idol like blazing sunbaenims?” eunhye posed another question, curious to know what the company saw in her.

Ahra felt a bit surprised at first, she'd expected most people to plan on becoming an idol for a long time, going to multiple auditions, taking singing and dancing lessons and such and thought she'd be a rare case. Or rather, that she'd be surrounded by trainees who were all that much more ambitious from the get-go. Perhaps she'd have it a bit easier as a trainee than she'd thought.

“It's a good thing still, right?” she answered, “That means there must be something we've done right,” she smiled, although she could understand why the other felt bad for being picked over her friend. At the same time, it was hardly the other's fault for being picked, or for agreeing to sign with the company even though her friend wasn't offered the same opportunity.

“Yeah, at least that's what I auditioned for... though some other directions would be interesting, too, like musical acting, but an idol group is probably a better option... I didn't really care much for any specific companies, except avoiding the sketchy ones,” she chuckled, realising she must sound entirely unequipped for the journey ahead of her. “What about you? Are you wanting to be an idol, too, or is something else piquing your interest as well?”

[lgcxahra]

marathon

lgcaeri​:

“recent one…” aeri murmured as she scrolled down through the menu to find the recently added category. when she found it, she continued to look through the short list of dramas before finding the one she was looking for. “ah, here it is.” aeri clicked on the movie before turning her head towards ahra. “it’s called run on and it’s with im siwan and shin sekyung.” she revealed the title while clicking on the first episode.

as the first scene started showing, aeri took the snack closest to her as she responded, “i’m glad too! we’ve been so busy lately that getting any free time to ourselves has been a bit of a challenge. i missed when we could watch several episodes in one sitting without having to worry about missing training the following day.” while she was grateful for all of the opportunities that have been presented to her, there were times like this when she missed having some time to herself to recuperate and do something that brought her joy (and in this case, it was watching dramas and seeing the stories that each one of them had).  

“Sounds good to me,” Ahra smiled, not very picky to begin with, “let's go for that one!” The first name also didn't ring a bell, but that wasn't a bother to her either, it was just nice to watch anything at all, a bit of a break to her usual daily routine. And she could say she'd at least managed to watch one more or less recent drama.

“Me too! Even when there's enough time, I haven't really been able to concentrate on what happens properly, or it's been too long between episodes and I can't really remember what happened,” she chuckled, the latter part may just have been her bad memory, rather than a training induced problem.

“And I miss being excited over the very expected plot twists and upset because of second lead syndrome!” she smiled, the one or other drama coming to mind right away. Still, she wouldn't want to go back and change her decision either, who knows where she'd ended up, hadn't she auditioned.

[lgcnam-deactivated20210825]

reverb°

“well… this is it!” yunho mutters, gesturing to the empty studio space as he pushes through the door. he steps aside, making room for ahra to enter before flipping the ‘recording in progress’ switch. that should keep any staff roaming the halls from bothering them - at least for an hour or so.

“i’m still sort of… figuring everything out, but -” he wanders over to the soundboard, powering it on along with the surrounding monitors, electronic keyboards, and synthesizers. “it’s a lot easier to use than i thought it would be. the software’s pretty intense though… nothing like what i’ve been using.” not to mention it was completely free. he wasn’t sure how long he could get away with re-making emails to maintain access to free trials for various mixing software, so he was thankful to legacy for allowing him to use their professional set up even as a newer trainee.

“i’m definitely not a pro, but i think i can show you some basics!” he adds as he slides two chairs over to the the deck. “i’m actually working on a demo right now… nothing i’m going to submit - at least not yet, anyway. so, it shouldn’t be too much of a big deal that you get the first listen -” at least he hopes not.  

@lgcxahra​ 

[lgcxahra]

With wide eyes, Ahra looked around, entering the studio. Sure, she'd seen photos of studios, so this wasn't really a surprise, but still, reality and what photos conveyed were always a bit different. And while she had no intention to pursue producing seriously (or even just as a hobby), the curiosity was still there.

She nodded as he explained, showing that she was listening and took in all the different equipment, watching them come to live. She'd often wondered how songs came to be, from the different bits and pieces to a whole, though most of what she'd found on the internet was rather technical and not quite as interesting to read, as an explanation accompanied by some visual examples could be.

“I don't even know the most basic of basics, so that's perfect,” she smiled in answer, her face clearly showing surprise at his following words. “Now I'm even more intrigued,” she chuckled, glad he agreed to show her this.

[lgcxahra]

across the room.

lgceunhye​:

trying her best to hide her embarrassment eunhye smile at the other trainee as she took note of her name. it was easy to remember for her, which wasn’t a problem thankfully. however, it did lead her to wanting to ask several questions that she was bound to eventually find the answers to. “how long?” eunhye repeated out loud as she tilted her head to the side. she hadn’t thought about it in-depth as to how long she had joined legacy especially when most of those months were spent adjusting and getting used to a completely different lifestyle.

“not that long actually, just a few months ago…maybe four…five…” eunhye trailed off, not bothering to really count the exact days since she moved in to the dorms. all she knew for sure was that she was once the newest roommates before ahra moved in. “i’m practically new if i may say so myself!” she added followed by a soft chuckle. thinking about how she could go on for ages talking about her trainee life since joining the company, she instead thought about her roommate and what she could do to make her comfortable. 

“how did you get scouted, by the way?” eunhye asked, for she knew that was usually a great conversation starter for any new trainee that entered the company.

Ahra chuckled in return, actually kind of glad that the other hadn't been a trainee for all that long either, it made her feel a bit calmer for some reason, even though she couldn't quite tell why. Perhaps she'd find herself able to ask the other girl a question here and there and perhaps they'd end up getting along quite well... or they'd find each other to be rather annoying, but she hoped to get along well, of course. 

Since it hadn't been too long, she actually remembered quite well. “I went to one of the auditions, it was kind of a spur of the moment decision, really, but I got lucky,” she answered smiling. She'd thought it was a crazy idea and that she'd definitely never make it, but it wouldn't hurt to try, then everything came different than expected and now here she was, remembering how nervous she'd been.

“How about you?” she turned the question back to Eunhye, wondering if her own experience was rather common.

[lgcxahra]

marathon

lgcaeri​:

if anyone asked aeri what her free time mostly consisted of, it was usually these kinds of instances when she would bundle up in blankets and watch an array of dramas and movies. there was something about film that always fascinated her — perhaps it was the idea that she could visualize how it felt to be a certain character or be in a specific setting. whatever it was, it caused aeri to feel a sense of comfort and happiness (most of the time). so when she decided to have a drama marathon with ahra, aeri was excited to be able to share it with someone else.

“hm…” aeri hummed while taking the remote control to browse through the selection on the television screen. “i think we have everything. if we need anything else, one of us can get up in between and get it.” aeri responded while knowing that walking to the kitchen wouldn’t take them too long. turning to look at ahra, aeri asked a question to help figure out what they should watch. “do you want something more recent or a bit older? if we go with something recent, i think i might have one in mind that had positive reviews.”

Ahra nodded in agreement, excited to get started and not wanting to waste time either, after all, drama episodes were long and it was always nice to get as far as possible in one go, though they could always continue another time. Perhaps they could even find the time to do this every now and again.

“Hmm,” she hummed, about to suggest that they could go with the other's all time favourite, but re-deciding once Aeri had finished her sentence. “Let's go with that one! I haven't really watched much of any recent ones,” she added, leaning  back on the sofa and making herself more comfortable. A last look over everything they'd gathered and yep, surely she couldn't think of anything that they were missing. Besides, if the drama would live up to the reviews, she may as well just get too lost in watching to actually miss anything.

“How is it called?” Ahra asked curiously, wondering if perhaps she'd already heard of it. “And I'm glad we managed to find time for it, I'm excited,” she added, giving the other a happy smile.

[lgcxahra]

Hello!! After some weeks of debating, I’ve finally decided to change Ahra’s fc from WJSN’s Bona to Lovelyz’ Jisoo! Aside from her birthday (now 5 days later on February 11th) nothing else changed!

[lgcxahra]

Casting Call 007 Moon Ahra Acting + Singing

Joining a musical production was something Ahra had been interested in for a while, though she hadn't wanted to fully go into that direction, still wanted to be an idol more than anything else legacy may offer. Additionally she figured that auditioning for a main role couldn't hurt. Surely, the main roles would go to those actually training to be musical actors rather than her, but she still wanted to show her determination and hard work. There was nothing to lose right? Well, as long as the audition went well...

“Hello, my name is Moon Ahra, auditioning for a main role,” she said, bowing. “I will sing 'Day After Day' and show you a scene from season two, episode 4.”

Ahra began, but instead of talking, she sang, putting on a smile, though her furrowed brows, much like the rest of her expression, made it seem like she was in pain. Shortly after, she stopped, putting a hand to her throat and rubbing it, she coughed as well.

“Is your throat still sore?” read the other character's lines.

“A little bit. But we didn't practise much, yet,” she continued, “but the humidity is high here, so it's perfect for singing,” she said, the hand still at her throat, jaw tense as she looked off to the side while rubbing her neck. “I can't sing louder, keep going,” she said, her smile growing as to say 'don't worry, I'm fine'

Ahra decided to skip the singing scene, as she wanted to showcase her acting now, not her singing, she'd do that later. Instead she started coughing again, more strongly this time, then cleared her throat repeatedly.

“Don't overreact, I don't need to go to the hospital.” her smile widened again, but she still rubbed her throat and Ahra pretended to stifle a cough. Practising this had been really difficult, especially as she'd started to feel like she really had to cough after a while, making her worry whether she'd actually caught a cold. At the same time, this would, hopefully, make her performance more believable. For some reason Nana had stuck out to her, and while she didn't mind an ensemble role either, after all she had much experience to gain, still, the thought of someone suffering like this, ridden with worries such as these had made her curious. After all, her voice was her focus more than anything and during research for her performance, she'd found many ways to care better for her own throat as well, which she hoped would help her in the long run.

The scene jumped again as there wasn't much of her minute left, now she found herself in the hospital, with a little notepad and pen so she could write down her words for the conversation with Shiwoo.

“My throat is not good. I'm staying silent for now. I have to safe my voice,” she said as she wrote, as an audience wouldn't be able to read her writing either. She stretched her arm forward, as to show the words, determination but worry on her face. “Beg the director,” she wrote next, now looking more stubborn, making an disapproving expression at “Shiwoo's” answer, then kicking the air in front of her.

Sadly, there hadn't been enough time to show more of the scene, already having cut out a part in the middle. Now only the singing was left, but as much as she'd practised, she'd always be nervous, even if not quite as much as during the acting. Though she still felt as though the possible reality of her losing her voice one day enabled her to act a bit more realistically.

My hope that I will meet you for sure some day I will wait until the day it becomes fulfilled When each day by day passes I'm afraid my dreams will have lost their way In the wind and disappear

Ahra put her everything into her voice, realising how much she really wanted a nice role with every minute that passed during her audition. The lyrics weren't all too far from hoe she felt either. With her dream of becoming an idol one day, nothing was really set in stone, everything was unsure and she hoped her dreams wouldn't lose their way.

[lgceunhye]

across the room.

➜ a flashback starter for ( @lgcxahra )

after training had ended, eunhye decided that instead of spending additional time practicing, she would return to the dorms to rest. but as she was about to open the door, she was reminded about the new roommate that joined them recently. there were some roommates that had come and gone and eunhye hoped that regardless of what happens, she would be in good terms with the new roommate. entering inside the dorm, eunhye headed to her bedroom to leave her backpack there. 

a sigh came out of her lips before she spoke loudly, “i’m finally ho—” eunhye stopped midsentence before she noticed that there was someone else in the room and it so happened to be someone she hadn’t seen until now.  “oh…” eunhye’s voice is a bit softer, unsure what to say at the moment. trying to shake off the awkwardness with her exuberant and warm personality, eunhye said as she bowed her head, “you must be the new roommate! hi, i’m oh eunhye! it’s a pleasure having you here!” glancing at the bed that was once unoccupied, eunhye added, “everyone is pretty nice over here so you’ll be in good hands!”

[lgcxahra]

Her mind distracted after just having moved in, Ahra didn't even notice anyone entering the room. She would've thought that moving into a dorm would be easy, after all there was limited space, hence a limited number of items she could bring, plus she would be spending most of her time on her busy schedule anyway, so what would she really need, anyway? Apparently, a lot more than expected, which only made storing everything smartly that much more difficult.

Sooner or later the task was thankfully done and she finally had some time to rest and get settled in properly, still not realising that she really moved out from home now.

After a little start, Ahra looked up, smiling a bit carefully as she greeted the female back. This is the one part she'd been worried about from the beginning. Living with so many other people must be... difficult at the very least. Additionally, how well would she really be able to get along with the others?

“Yes! Thank you! I'm Moon Ahra, it's a pleasure to meet you as well!” she answered, her smile carefully brightening a bit. “If I may ask... how long have you been a trainee for?”

[lgcxjunghwan]

**truth & misunderstandings

junghwan considers himself a friendly guy. not exactly the type to want to please everyone (although he must admit that its only human nature that pushes him to do just that), but just enough that he can get along with almost everyone, despite how awkward he can get upon first meetings. conflicts gives him a headache, so he tries his best to not get into them as much as he could, and he’s proud to say he has not been into a serious argument with anyone, at least not until now.

his and ahra’s friendship started off well, and he would like to believe that they were close enough to be actual friends than mere acquaintances. they didn’t share too much with each other, just enough for their friendship to have a solid base on trust. junghwan can’t speak for everyone, but one of the very few things he doesn’t like is being lied to. it’s the very same reason why he was thrown off guard when a mutual friend mentioned in passing that she had said something just a little… off… something very different from what he originally knew and somehow it felt like he’s been lied to, no matter how petty that may sound.

this has inevitably pushed him to distance himself, and a part of him keeps telling him he’s being unfair towards ahra. the least he could do is ask her why, or if he had heard their friend the wrong way. surely, she wouldn’t say something like that? somehow, the answer scared him, to an extend, and before he knows it, his actions have put an obvious strain to their friendship. they talked less and less, the awkwardness growing more uncomfortable each time and junghwan feels bad. losing a friend is the last thing he wants, and knowing it’s somehow his fault, he knew he had to do something about it.

mustering enough courage, junghwan decideds to make a move, walking over towards ahra. “hey,” he starts, feeling awkward and dumb. he knew better than to jump to conclusion. if ahra hates starts hating him or something, there’s no one to blame but himself. “sorry, i- can we talk? for a moment?”

@lgcxahra

[lgcxahra]

Ahra was proud to say that her friendships usually lasted very long, even if she wasn't necessarily super close to everyone. There weren't many fights either, if at all... usually. Being non-confrontational had positive just as much as negative sides, of course and just like that the female found herself wondering here and there where her friendship with Junghwan had gone wrong. At least she would've called it a friendship, not super close, but she found they'd gotten along really well.

Well, now she wasn't so sure about that anymore. Unaware of what it was exactly that had made him so awkward around her (or was that only her imagination? Maybe he was just busy and didn't really have the time to catch up much? The sudden change in behaviour was something Ahra couldn't interpret at all), she'd figured that she shouldn't be a bother. Pretty childish, probably, but she couldn't deny feeling a bit stubborn about it. It did feel off and she was sad about it, but in the end it'd been easiest to ignore the situation altogether.

So when he said hi, Ahra felt complicated. Happy, but also worried.

“Hey, of course,” she answered a bit awkwardly, originally wanting to add something like “about what?” or similar, but deciding against it as it could be misunderstood much too easily.

[lgcxahra]

lgcsori​:

sori watches the first performances of the day from the trainee viewing area with a bored expression. blame lack of sleep after the double shift she’d worked over the weekend or general exasperation after weeks of long practices, but she’d rather be anywhere than here. she sits next to ahra in silence - a rarity for the girl who was usually found talking the ear off of anyone she’d managed to hold captive. but not ahra. 

the other was nice enough, sure. but sori just couldn’t shake the feeling that this girl just… really didn’t like her. maybe it was the way she brushed past her each morning to get to the bathroom without a word, or barely offered a chuckle at any of her jokes ( and her jokes were hilarious ). perhaps it was just the way she breathed. who knows. but what she did know was that she wasn’t all that fond of ahra either, and it showed.

“do you mind,” she snaps, coming off a bit more aggressive than she intended. she sits back in her seat, lowering her voice a bit as she crosses her arms over her chest, “i can’t hear the show over all that noise…”

It was interesting how some people immediately clicked and others never managed to get along, even without knowing much of anything about the other person. And Ahra found it even more curious how a dislike for someone could continue on for months, even years without being able to tell why.

As she was sitting next to Sori, still humming, Ahra wondered if today's performance would go as well as the others had so far. Or at least they'd gone well in her eyes. Now she was considering going over to another trainee to ask something and to avoid the slightly awkward atmosphere around Sori and her, though maybe that atmosphere was just her imagination, she couldn't tell.

Too late.

The female turned to look at the other, her expression unusually neutral due to the surprise of being snapped at, almost looking like she didn't care about bothering someone else, even thought that wasn't the truth. For a moment she didn't say anything, just stared, unsure how she should answer.

Normally, with almost everyone else, she'd simply apologise, after all she was the one bothering someone else, not the other way around, even if she hadn't done it on purpose. But something about the tone of Sori's voice, or maybe just her own insecurity about why the other seemed to have something against her for a reason she couldn't tell, made her react stubbornly, almost like a child.

“No. If that sounded like noise to you, that's all the more a sign that I should practise more.”

[lgcxahra]

marathon

“I think we've got everything ready?” Ahra said, or rather asked, as she looked at the table in front of her, her eyes glancing over snacks, drinks... they had cosy blankets and she was wearing her best comfy clothes. There was only one other question left to answer, that is, if she hadn't forgotten anything.

“So,” she leaned back on the couch, “what should we watch?” she asked, multiple options in mind. There were many dramas she'd been wanting to watch, but hadn't had the time for yet and they'd planned in lots of time for a proper drama marathon. Whatever they'd decide on, she was sure they'd have fun either way, but it would still be nice to go for a good one.

@lgcaeri

[lgcxahra]

lgcxjinah​:

being squished even tighter in return forces a strained laugh past jinah’s lips. she was glad that ahra was mutually as affectionate as she herself was. gosh, she really had missed the female. 

“heh- we really need to get together more. lets try n’ meet up at least once a week for lunch now, ye? we gon’ make it work somehow, I’m sure!” confident in her statement she holds up a fist in determination to the elder female. back to the topic of the mini game tonight though, she uses said fist to count down the words she had gathered. “so I found who, you, as, are and dressed- I’m guessin’ the question’s bout our costumes, no?” ahra’s smile was contagious really as jinah found herself smiling right back at the other.

especially with the given compliment she just puckered her lips as if she was going to place a smooch onto her eonni’s cheek but made no move to get any closer to her, since she didn’t want to smudge her lipstick nor leave a print on ahra’s cheek. “y’look amazin’ too, eonni.”

“That sounds like a good plan, let's do that!” she answered, just as confident, her fist raised in unison. And they really ought to, she missed Jinah. “We should check what day would work best for us later,” she added.

“Oooh, that makes sense, I hadn't really found anything useful yet,” she exclaimed, though not too eager on finding the solution quickly, she didn't mind spending more time with the other. They didn't see each other too much after all.

“Thank you very much,” she chuckled in answer, “I'm glad there's so many neat options for the franchise these days or else I might've turned up in a bed-sheet as a ghost,” she chuckled, that being closer to the truth than she'd liked. Or she would've put on a leather jacket and some boots, saying she's herself from an alternate universe—all in all not the most creative ideas.

[lgcxahra]

lgc trainee mission: 005 - performance

And just like that time passed by faster than Ahra could've guessed. With the last performance only minutes away, she felt unusually calm. But then unusual became a lot more usual these days. Either way, she'd had much more fun with the stages than she'd expected, forgetting her previous worries and simply enjoying herself.

It was also nice to perform a boy group's song instead of a girl group's for the last week. 10 out of 10 may have been the song she used to listen to more often, but she knew balloons was what suited her much more. She'd do a much better job performing, so she felt quite glad about the distribution in the end. There was a bit of everything, some songs she suited more, others maybe not so much but they were no less fun.

The light sound started filling the air and the smile came easily to her face. There wasn't too much choreography to agonise over, a focus on singing always preferred in her eyes. She may not be the best performer, but she already had fun, even if Ahra still ignored the thought that this would be the last performance.

On another good note, her hands stopped shaking as well. She knew this is how it always was: she'd worry for hours and hours, nervously trying to make the time pass by faster, worrying about everything she could do wrong and once she was on stage, the female usually calmed down more easily. Her focus was good, though standing on stage didn't make her worries leave her alone entirely.

In the end, she was breathing much more heavily than expected, all the jumping was still a bit exhausting. At the same time, she'd done it... 8 weeks, 8 performances and she'd enjoyed all of them, even if some less than others. Ahra did want to become an idol so she could stand on stage after all. It also helped her realise why she hadn't tried to become a musical actress first and foremost. There was a certain magic to it, that the female knew she would miss. And, perhaps, she could still join the one or other production.

Of course, all of those thoughts were on a strong maybe basis, she might never make it on any path she chose, but if she was to lose hope this easily, there was no point in even trying. And if there was anything true for her personality, it was her persistence, whether that was helpful or not.

[lgcxahra]

lgc trainee mission: 005 - preparation

Once informed of their next trainee mission, Ahra felt herself staring at the image that the mirror showed her. Usually she would've gotten straight to training, there were many songs that wanted to be learned after all, but this time was different. What was she even doing? The female had been wanting to join the agency subsidiary for ages now, but never actually tried to get in. Sure, she loved singing, performing, but at the same time felt passionate about acting as well. Surely, musical actress would fit the image in her mind perfectly. At the same time, something had been holding her back all this time already.

Of course, agonising over this didn't help and eventually the female got to work, started going through the songs her training group was given. Some, she'd always liked, others weren't so much her thing, but there was none she'd entirely disliked.

This jump down memory lane was fun, especially as she could distract herself from her racing mind, she would do the best she could, as always, but her usual energy still wasn't about to come back so easily. To the outside world, the difference in behaviour wasn't as obvious. Except for her friends, she doubted anyone would notice. But she knew. Sooner or later, she'd have to take a break and the doubts would be storming right back in.

The good side of this was that it gave Ahra much more motivation to practise, if only for distraction. The girl was 100% committed and determined to do her very best. The chance to stand on stage again also had her giddy. Nervousness or not, every opportunity would be seized, no matter how few lines she had or if she was standing behind someone most of the time, the girl just wanted to sing and dance her heart out and show what she'd got.