Do it for yourself because who else is going to do it for you, a true statement about life. At times, rather mostly always, I feel as if everything is up to me. The future I dream for will only come into reality if I make it. I suppose this is logical because I do not assume someone else is going to make millions and hand it on over, hard work is the key to success. The issue I am having is that at 19 I have wants and goals that exude my reality, no one is going to give me a position with a starting 6-figures. I know I have it in me to do it, I know I have the skills to be successful, but I struggle with the process of achieving it. I want to have my future all planned out for me so I know exactly what to do, step –by-step, but this is not reality. The unstableness that comes with life is nothing I cannot handle, but would choose to not deal with it if possible. The solution to this is money and success. Money allows you to not worry about the minor bumps that come, like new tires and brakes, because the finances are there to composite for anything. This reality is achievable and will be achieved, but at 19 with this not insight worries can only exude. Also, success is coming constantly for me, but I the overall goal is becoming foggy and seems to be changing. What is it that I need and want to be happy besides money? I have so much to speak for and stand beside, but tears fall from my eyes bi-monthly as if hitting a rock in reality is becoming a new pattern. Obstacles will always be there, but making sure I get around them properly is a new worry; I used to just worry about getting over them. I need to find a center to play around in while reality twists and turns around me, allowing obstacles to drain me is going to only hinder the achievement of success, though figuring it out is still to be determined. I am committed, driven, and eager for it come, but explaining exactly what ‘it’ is may be my first issue to deal with before tackling the rest.
All I know is that I dream of financial stability. After growing up with money issues floating around constantly all I can hope for it having enough money to live life without a care in the world, this is how is should be lived in my opinon. I need a career that allows me to travel around meeting new people, and keeping me on my toes and is constantly exciting. I long for culture and the arts because expression is the root of everything and is what drives me daily. I need lime-light and glam because perfected beauty is my goal. I know that being the star may not be in my deck of card, but managing the career of one(s) maybe. Yet, I am attached to a major network marketing company that can make my rich as well, if I put the work in of course though. Two different options that can both be achievable together if planned properly.
Currently, I sit with a year and a half till I graduate with my BA. I have a part-time job at $10/hr. I live at my parent’s house. I have a car with engine issues and I am CA resident. First solution is too get my finances back in order now that I have a job and look into replacing my car. From there, I need to focus on school and work and keep both in check; eventually adding on various projects or a second job should come. Moving out was a desire while I was doing my undergraduate, but it seems like it is just not going to happen for me; I am hoping the loss of culture do to it will be made up later in life. Hopefully, I can call a place my own by age 21 or early 22 because I will have graduated and working full-time doing something that I am passionate about.
Well, I went from misery to the basics of a plan to get my out of the depression of my current state. Checking-in on the basic and eventually overall goals may be what I need to do in order to achieve what I want, instead of bitching about it.
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