Life and what now

One day, it will make sense.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

About me

Just a kid from the Philippines who achieved its high school dream but is now in brink of leaving it.

There's a part of me that wants to leave and also wants to stay, basically a 50/50 situation.

Why leave? it didn't met my expectation when i was dreaming this kind of job, it's totally deferent from what i expected, i just want to perform my duty mandated by the law and not by some bullshit individual, just sick of the system and don't want to be part of it, sick of those people who uses there position for personal interest or over use of position.

Made a life changing decision three years ago, left school of lex to join a horrible organization, an organization badly needed of revamp because of its shit system.

If only i could turn back time and drop what i have right now just to be in the position three years ago, I would surely do without hesitation one hundred percent.

Can't stop dwelling in the past thinking what could have happened if i stayed in that position three years ago.

Hoping to be given a chance to once again be a student of lex and learn the rules.

if only i knew.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Color

Will my country still have a chance to change everything? to turn everything up and into positive? hopefully I'd still be alive when that time comes.

Because as of the moment, the bad one is still the leading person to win the race, I couldn't imagine my country lead by this certain individual.

I don't have political color, All I want is for my country to change for the betterment, to improve its services and to give excellent living condition to its citizen.

How I wish the people of my country will start to realized that they need change! that they need a fresh leader that's not coming from a political family, we needed a leader that is serious and genuine to public service.

It is not yet too late! for as long as May 2028 is still approaching you still have the time to change your mind.

Remember, it is not only you that will be affected by the decisions you made today, your family and future generations may also be affected by your silly actions right now.

So please be vigilant, if you're not sure, ask. If you have question search and try to verify every information you have gather.

Together, we can still improve our country.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

I don't know why but somehow it felt like I can do it, I could achieve it, but if I try to be rational and be realistic, it seems impossible and far from reality. Is it lack of confidents or just being true to self? Am I looking myself down or just afraid of doing something big? Time is running and we don't have forever to wait for a decision. Make your move now if you want to achieve that dream!

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Metal Box

A story of how far resiliency may bring you.

It maybe easy to be resilient when you are healthy and complete, but what if, in order for you to live you have to relay on a machine? would you still want to live? or would you stop living?

This is the story of late Paul Alexander, the man who was bedridden and machine dependent for seventy plus years.

He could not breath his own, that's why he needed an Iron lungs in order for him to breath and for him to do that he needs to put his whole body inside that metal box and lay down facing upwards all day long but in spite all that he became a lawyer, artist, author and a hero to all of us.

It reminded me once again that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

That if you want something and you are still breathing do what you want, achieve what you wanted and don't stop breathing along the way.

It made me want to fight even more for my dreams, and try to chase the chance I once had.

Rest Happy Sir Alexander , wherever you are I'm sure you are smiling, forever be thankful for the wisdom you have shared, I will never forget you sir.

[thequotespot]

"Some days the only victory is making it to tomorrow, and that's still a victory."

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Feeling down? Just allow to finish your day today for another day will be another chance. So don't waste the chances that's been given to you! Make every chances you have counts.

[ironyquotes]

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Adjusting to what is being given.

You cannot show everything to everyone, remember, too much is bad.

Choose your circle. Know your Circle.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

To Open or Not

Day 7 of the trial is an argument whether bank records and history should be open and be use during trial.

The court has decided and issued a subpoena that would open the bank records of the respondent.

Upon listing to the arguments between the two opposing parties I was not surprise by the court's decision in granting the subpoena that opens the bank records of the accused.

The prosecution has clearly explain as to why it should be open for trial, backed by both the law and the jurisprudence.

Another funny moments during trial was, when someone argued to everyone that all of them should make there bank records open to the public sense all of them are public servant. I do agree with his sentiments but not during that trial, its irrelevant to the case at hand and there is right time and proper venue for that issue.

Its a win for the people and the country as this could be use to prove the unexplained and undeclared wealth by the respondent.

Another strong build up case for the prosecution that could add weight to there case and possibly obtain a favorable decision.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Expertise

For the next two days of the trial, the prosecution presented the 2nd witness to the case, A lawyer that holds a government position in the field of law enforcement.

Truly a remarkable witness, he was able to explain his side as the one who leads the investigation to the case of grave threats and as a normal citizen I could easily catch up to the things they have been discussing.

The seasoned witness was also able to hold his ground to the bombardment of questions made by both the defense and the judges, while the former attacks the witness through procedural matters such as; typo in words, dates and unsigned documents, it failed to cross examined the witness in substantial matters, while the former attacks the credibility of the witness, by questioning what would he gain if he help the case and revealing his work history to the public.

One of the judges even question his credibility by sharing to the public that the witness is facing a lot of cases filed against him but the witness answered back by saying to quote "As a person working in the law enforcement field, it is the price we pay for doing our job and for protecting our county".

The prosecution was so satisfied with the two witnesses they have presented that they canceled the appearances of 3 other witnesses because they felt they already establish and proved the grave threats to the case.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

The First Witness

Day 2 to 4 is the presentation of the first witness of the case under the first article, the cross examine, re-direct and the re-cross examination.

It might have been the longest direct and cross examination of a witness, it took for around 3 days. They really test the credibility and the expertise of the presented witness, a huge shout-out to the witness for holding his ground.

What I notice and learn during those hearing as an ordinary citizen of this country is that; 1st the witness was able to prove the truthfulness of the video presented, 2nd their are some judges who are crossing the line when it comes to being impartial to the case, they should judge the case base on facts and evidence presented and not due to political affiliate, 3rd is that the defense did not question the authenticity of the video presented which to me weaken there defense, they attack on different angle which led to a weak counter argument.

Overall, the prosecution did a really good job in proving its claim, the witness was really expert to his field, despite the intimidating way of questioning by some judges and the defense, he stayed composed.

If they will just perform there job fairly, properly and for the people, justice is attainable.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

#2 Under Trial.

My day one reaction to the "#2 under trial"

The prosecution side really give the best arguments to the case, by simply stating the fact that "He who commit must be accountable and face the consequences of his actions". They also added the fact that, if this person, the second highest position of the country would be except from the consequences of his action this could be a bad precedents moving forward as this could give bad impressions to others because if one could get away from committing an obvious crime much less the 2nd in command, they could also be except from any criminal liability.

Meanwhile, the defense made a not so satisfying counter argument by stating the million votes he got during the election period which grant him the 2nd position of the land. He may be so popular by millions of people but it does not except him from incurring any criminal liability or be given a power to commit any crime without consequences.

Overall, it would be interesting to see how the judges would settle this trial and hopefully they will be neutral and fair for they have been trusted by the public to do what's best for our country.

May they act accordingly for the betterment of this country.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Post #101

As I achieve the one hundred one post in tumblr, I would like to share some of my thoughts with regards to the idea of leaving our country for a better opportunity.

As a kid I never understand why some people leave this country, because back then I already saw how beautiful and amazing this country is, it may not be complete as other country but it sure felt as if nothing is missing, it really give me no reason to leave.

So because of it, going abroad is never been an option to me, as far as I could remember, during my high school days I never imagine leaving this country.

Fast forward 14 years later, it change, now I understand why some people need to go and look for other opportunity abroad.

Some don't want to leave this country but due to poverty and lack of proper opportunity in our own country they have to find it else where.

One of the reasons is also due to lack of proper recognition to our skilled employees which in other countries are very much appreciated.

Systems are also a huge reason why some prefers to work outside of this country, why settle for a bad system when the other side could offer a better working environment, one can only question as to why other countries could offer a good working environment to its employees but we could not do the same. Is it could not or just would not.

Government is almost as synonyms to corruption, my country is a rich country but due to the people running the show it became chaotic and very hard to love.

As to me, it's the system and the corruption that is giving me the reasons from leaving this country, I just really hope that I could find my footing as soon as possible before I could have the opportunity to go abroad because if given a chance right now and in this time? I might take it and leave this fucking government.

Yeah, I'm not leaving my country, I'm just leaving this shitty system and a fucked up government with its toxic blind people.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

No More!

I am disappointed to myself yesterday.

I just showed weakness to others.

A new mindset I'm practicing right now is avoid showing off my weakness to other people, especially to my family, I don't want them to know how vulnerable I am, I don't want them to know how weak I am, because I only want them to know that they can also rely on me and trust me with there life.

I want them to rely on me not only financially but emotionally as while.

As a son to my parents, as a brother to my siblings I wanted to be strong, I wanted to be credible as a person who could give protection to my family.

They may know me as a weak person through-out my life, I want to change that now! and be a better and best version of myself.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Lots of memories in this office.

I would never thought in my life that I'd be able to serve this office same as my grandfather did, but in a different way. How I wish I would serve it the same way as his.

I remember when I was still in grade school, after class we would then go to his office, back then I am not still amaze by the building and how huge my grandfather job was. Now i am his huge fan, his an inspiration to me and to hopefully follow his footstep.

That's why every time I see this building I only remember him and my unfinish dream, the promise I made to my father and to him.

To our family you certainly is the yard stick to having a good life, a great person to emulate from.

It may be hard to follow your foot step but I wanted to try, because I want to strive to do great, continue the good legacy you have built and make my father happy.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Pilipino Ako, Ikaw!

You see, when you thought of doing something you wanted to do, just go and do it anyway because I'm pretty sure you won't regret it.

That's what I did yesterday, I wanted to watch the movie "Quezon", a film based on history, honestly I hesitated at first because I thought it was going to be boring because its history, but as a Filipino we have a duty to at least learn the past, and I'm a believer of the saying that "In order to understand the present, we must learn and understand the past".

And I did, to a small degree, I'm not saying to just base the history to a certain movie nor that the movie is an accurate portrait of our history but because of the movie, I some how understood the history I once failed to learn when I was in school, it open my eyes, it gives me a small knowledge.

I really hope that more movies like these should be made to give the new generation a new and modern way of learning history.

I'm 30 years old now and hopefully it is not yet too late to understand and learn the past. Because of the movie it sparked my inner Filipino to wanting more to learn the history of our great nation, to understand the actions made by our past leaders which led to the current situation of our country.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Chance, Change and Coming.

I don't know why but it felt light.

Felt like I was recharged, reborn.

I just picture out something that i could look up for, might found a thing that I wanted to chase and that I wanted to achieve, crazing thing is I could not specifically tell what that is, it might be just one thing or might be many things.

But one thing is for sure, I found a reason to move, to wake up and chase it.

All of a sudden, I just don't care or stop to care and just go try to achieve what i want.

Life is short, life is borrowed so go and follow what you want in life but don't forget to be a good person.

And if you are already in a situation where you want, but is about to quit or stop, Don't!, Don't stop, you will regret it if you do, trust me.

Just continue where you are and you will arrive to that destination.

Just be patient and pray and trust the Lord above!

[thequotespot]

“for a long time, i thought strength meant enduring everything. now i think strength is knowing what you should no longer carry.”

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

Double the pain! you still love the person but you have to let go! kudos to the people who could do these things for not everybody can have the strength to pull this off.

[lifeandwhatnow1996]

I may be the worse person in the world, or may even be in this universe. An ungrateful son. An unfaithful boyfriend. Such a bad person that don't deserve to live.