Life Challenges Me

I have some deep struggles lately. I want to connect with others who are like me.

[lifechallengesme]

Cutest pigs on Bali!

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What I knew about hsv before I got it.

Yeah I was disappointed when I got herpes type 2 but I felt like I was already fairly informed and had heard the Valtrex commercials before. I remember thinking "oh that kind of sucks" but didnt think much about it. I have always had canker sores that severly come up based on my hormone level. My derm tested them for hsv which had come back negative. She had asked me if I kissed anyone or kissed anyone "down there" or if they had done that to me. It was a little embarassing but no one had done that yet so I said no. At the time I was like "oh dang guess cold sores can transfer down there" since she asked me. She must have seen it before. Meh. I just paid attention and I never new about the stigma and jokes that have come up in the past 6-7 years or so. Was I the only one who knew that cold sores and genital herpes were both hsv? Seriously why do people get shocked and deny cold sores are herpes and that there are several herpes viruses in the human world. Only genital herpes has some sort of morality judgement attached to it.

[lifechallengesme]

Is it bad if I want a little less kissing and a little...or a lot...more fucking?

[glitterslutblog]

So you just got Herpes...

Welcome to the glitter club! I’m Glitter Slut, your guru of all thing sparkly, kinky, and not to mention sexy.

I know you’re itchy, you are hating yourself HARD, and you feel very, very alone. You’re not.. one and four have this shit. That’s a fucking lot. You have a whole community here that will support and love you. You are anything but alone, okay?

We are going to cover everything from how to love yourself again, getting the itch to stop and disclosing like a mother fucker.

This is Master-post #1 and this will cover the basics: self love, taking care of shit, getting rid of the itch and not to mention looking sexy while you do it. Master-post #2 Will cover disclosing like a mother fucker, safe sex, and good to know facts.

But don’t worry, we’ll do this one step at a time.

So take a deep breath.

Deeper.

Deeper… come one don’t be a bitch…

and let it out.

Do this two more times…

Feeling better? Good.

Now let’s tackle this shit.

I’m going to walk you through the do’s and don’ts and give you a dick ton of posts to read through to make this as pain free as possible.

Here are my most asked questions….

#1. How do I stop feeling gross and start loving myself again?!?!?

Welcome to Love yourself 101, this is the first of many bad bitch lessons you will learn from me…young glitter padawan.

The first week is a roller coaster, you sort of have to take a step back and reevaluate yourself.

You have this concept of who you are, what represents you as a person. There are things that you don’t like about yourself. Now is the time to dig in those dark nooks and crannies lay all that shit out and let it the fuck go.

I just had my one year glitterversory, and I bought some VERY expensive shoes to mark the occasion (and some jewelry and a killer dress)….  I am addicted to fabulous.

But let me tell you what I learned.

I have herpes and very openly might I add. Everyone knows, friends, family, clients, anyone who asks.

Get laid ALLLLL the time. I mean girls, guys, transgenders, all the beautiful people. They all know I have it, totally not a big deal in the dating pool.

I am dominatrix who openly has herpes and people will PAY ME MONEY to stick my panties in their mouth and make them cry.

A lot of money.

The only person who is stopping you… is you.

So you had sex? Sex has consequences: unrequited emotional attachment, stds, babies, ect…

Everything has risks, you can lesson them by being responsible: only have sex with people you love, and always wear a condom, and get on birth control. But life isnt perfect, and it would be boring if it was.

But here you are, you had sex and got the glitter… now it’s time to take care of shit.

Work out, eat your veggies, get on anti-virals, take you’re L-lysine so that way when you are ready to have sex (which doesn’t have to be anytime soon) you can inform you partner the statistics, how you’re going to protect them, and let them know it’s not a big deal.

I have disclosed: on a plain, on a train,  over the phone, on the internet, on first dates, on third dates, during a business meeting, during a make out session. (this is starting to sounds like a Dr. Seuss poem).

And never have I once been told no.

Why is that you might ask?

Because I’m a fucking Queen.

Straight up!!!! no ifs, ands or buts about it. I love myself and the glitter is a part of who I am now, and I love it just as much as the other shit that makes me fabulous. I know my worth and i wont be treated any less than that.

period.

And this would have never happened, this self love, this fierceness unless I got the glitter. Herpes has changed my life for the better in SO many way I cant count.

Don’t let fear control your life.

It’s like riding in the car with the windows up, you are so afraid of what’s out there that you miss all the good stuff.

This is HELL week (just like college) but it will get better, you will get stronger. You will learn to love yourself in ways you NEVER thought possible and people will notice.

They’ll ask you what happened…

Did you meet someone?

Did you get a new awesome job?

Why do you have this amazing new glow about you?!?

And you can tell them you got herpes… and you’re sexy as fuck. 

And they will be in awe, because it takes one bad bitch to make herpes hot.

You are that bad bitch.

Here is some of my extra curricular reading that will help you feel empowered as fuck.

-My first and most famous post..

The herpes grieving process.

-Dealing with the stigma

Slut Shaming

#2- How the fuck do these tests work?

My test came out negative but i’m pretty sure I have herpes!?!?

My doctor said I have herpes but my test came out negative!?!?

These are commonly asked questions for herpes testing. It’s confusing as fuck so let me help break it down.

So this virus is actually not floating around in your blood, (for genital it is in the lower spine, oral behind the cheek bone) but the antibodies are. Those antibodies are IgG and IgM and they are programed to fight the virus and protect you.

IgG- stays for life.

IgM- Is the first antibody to show up, like the front line. But this one can leave you like your first love.

So, it’s very important that you take the correct blood test depending where you in this relationship with this virus. If the glitter is new to you, then you need to take a test that looks for IgM. But like your situation if you have had this for a while you need a test that looks for IgG.

Now, since our health care here in ‘Merica is a industry made to rape and pillage you (and yes I understand the severity of my words and I feel that I am using them appropriately), a lot of time practitioners will pick the most expensive test, or whatever company is giving them insensitive.

So unfortunately, you need to go in guns blazing knowing what you’re talking about.

Here is a herpes blood test guide that is super awesome! Print that bitch out and bring it with you… your nurse will be very impressed.

#3- I’m pretty confident my pussy is on fire.

I am going to give you a set of links that is going educate you on how to take care of your shit. The less breakouts you have the happier of a person you will be.

My first recommendation is to read outbreak battle plan this will help get your shit in control. I know your first outbreak can be terrible. This will break everything down and show you step by step how to stop that itch.

Since I used to work in holistic health i’ve been lucky as fuck to find some AMAZING cheap easy ways to keep the immune system up and glitter attacks down. Holistic stuff for yo glitter

Essential oil and i’m not talking about lube. Essential oils are another really dope tool that can help prevent glitter attacks and provide relief, and help you glitter heal faster. So all the things.

Cool down coconut glitter stick. This is self explanatory not to mention life changing. You’re welcome. 

Taking your pussy from drab to fab in no time.

#4 - How the fuck do I look cute when my vagina is on fire?

I get this question a lot and here is looking fabulous with the glitter.

This will break down what to wear, and how to wear it for optimum hotness and comfort.

#5- Shaving? The FUCK.

I know, it’s terrible anyway but when you’re faced with glitter attacks from hell… well it’s easy to let thing get out of hand.

Let me ask you this?

How long has it been since you shaved?

I thought so.

Welcome to Shaving waxing and everything in between (your legs that is).

My most requested post EVER. This will help break down all your options and how to make the whole experience as painless as possible. Taking you from that guy there to this beautiful bitch.

#6- People just like you.

Here are commonly asked questions, and stories from people just like you.

That Bitch lied.

I would bet money I have the glitter

Has herpes changed the way you’ve dated?

Where did you come up with glitter to describe herpes?

#7- Who the fuck are you?!?!?

I’m Glitter Slut, the sexy face of herpes.

And I have finally found a cause I’m passionate about. And you guys have a lot to do with it. This blog has really changed my life. You guy’s bravery has really changed my life.  I preach the Glitter Gospel wherever I go from the person next to me on the plane, to the guy hitting on me at the bar.  I give out my tumblr url more then my phone number.

“Why are you being so open with me about this?” asked the guy sitting next to me on the plane home from my business trip this weekend.

“Because, all you know about herpes is what the media has told you. That it’s this big scary monster that’s going to swallow your dick up. It’s just a rash, most people get a few times a year. If I tell you about this now, the next time you go on a date, with a beautiful girl, when she discloses to you you’re going to be informed. You’re going to be compassionate. And you’ll probably fuck her brains out”.

He asked me out for dinner as soon as we walked off the plane.

I am the spokeswoman for herpes, and my marketing skills have never been put to better use.

I’m a well educated sexual deviant who doesn’t give a flying fuck what anyone thinks. I’m here to help, educate, and be a positive outlet for anyone who needs it.

You are not alone.

“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.” ― Tupac Shakur

I hate sweeping anyway,

XOXO,

        Glitter Slut

[lifechallengesme]

This is fucking amazing. Following.

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I want you back

I'm back ya'll think its time to tell more of this fucking story called my life! To be continued... Btw I cant remember what I wrote about years ago..

[mingdliu-deactivated20210422]

10 Things I had to learn by myself (my mother never taught me): i. Blame the person who hurts you, not yourself. Never blame yourself for not being what they wanted or not being “good enough.” You are made with perfectly flawed traits, stitched together to be loved unconditionally. ii. Not everyone you love will love you back and the people who do love you, you won’t always reciprocate the feelings. But that doesn’t make them or you a bad person. You can’t love everyone and not everyone will love you. I refuse to blame the people that can’t find it in their soul to give me what I give them. I don’t give to get back. I give because I want to and because I can. iii. Don’t let one person tell you negative things about yourself. One opinion out of a million does not make you who you are. No one paints a masterpiece for you, you are the art piece. You make who you are. You are the artist. iv. Don’t ever settle. People always feel safer with things that they are used to and comfortable with instead of seeking for the heart pounding feelings and moments that take their breaths away. I never want it to be easy; I want it to be hard to breathe and suffocating when I give something my all. I want to learn how to survive through that. v. Learn how to say no. No, I do not want to dance with you. No, I do not want to kiss you. No, I do not want to date you. No, I do not want to do this. No, I do not want to do that. Because that does not make me happy and that does not make me feel comfortable, so no. And I don’t need to give you a reason nor do I need to make up an excuse to say “no.” vi. There are different kinds of people. Don’t always catergorize people in groups because people are not meant to be labelled. Just because one person hurts you, does not mean the ones in the future will. Just because one person holds a knife doesn’t mean the next one will use it. There is good out there; there is good in the world and there is good in people. Not everyone is a monster. I strongly believe that majority of the population is good. vii. Do not let the past prevent you from living in the future. Do not let the pain and hurt take over. Don’t close yourself up to others just because you have been broken before. Never allow the demons of yesterday to control the beauty that is to come in the future. Vow to never allow it to always be stormy for the sun does eventually shine down on all things beautiful. I am beautiful, and so are you. viii. You can swim across the world for someone but they might not even step outside in the drizzle for you. Even if you hold the umbrella for them. ix. Never give someone the power to rid you of yourself. Don’t ever fall out of your routine or lose who you are permanently. That is so important. x. Love yourself. Learn to love the birthmark on your face, the chipmunk cheeks, the thighs that jiggle when you walk, the nose you think is too flat, and your fingers that are too short. Learn to appreciate your almond shaped eyes, your skin color, the thin hair that doesn’t grow fast, the beauty mark above your lips, and the small gap between your teeth. Learn to love your sense of humor, your laughter, your emotions, your tendency to trust easily, and how happy you always are. Learn to love the way you love others deeply, how you sometimes fear being lonely, the way you enjoy walks alone, and the radiance in your soul. Learn to love yourself at 3AM when you cannot sleep and can only think of the skeletons hiding in your own closets and learn to love yourself at 3PM when you are cranky and unable to get out of bed. Learn to love yourself and come to terms with the fact that you are you, and that will never change.

Ming D. Liu, A Story A Day #147 (via fearlessknightsandfairytales)

This is amazing.  I am crying.  I hope one day to come to this place of understanding.  

[herp-life]

Whoa, this week marks my one year herpversary….. Crazy how time flies. A year ago I never thought I could be happy with myself again. And now, hsv is just a lame skin condition I have. A couple sores every now and then doesn’t affect my life anymore, and I’m so glad. To all those recently...

[lifechallengesme]

A year for me too already.  But somehow still feeling bad about it sometimes.  Most of the time I feel normal and fine but when I get lonely and worry about my relationship with my boyfriend the bad feelings come back.  My boyfriend is my giver and when I think about our relationship ending I am filled with panic. 

[safesextiger]

The only reason STDs are stigmatized and bad is because our society is so goddamn hung up on how “dirty” and “wrong” sex is, and apparently having a disease that involves your genitals is just like taking and already dirty stick and sticking it in mud.

Fuck that bullshit.

[lifechallengesme]

agreed.  ...seriously. 

[hsvswag-deactivated20170402]

Tonight I had drinks with my parents and some of their friends who have been like extended family members to me. We were celebrating my college graduation, and I mentioned to one of them, Emily, that I had gotten herpes about a year ago. Her response: “Who doesn’t have herpes? What, how am I...

[lifechallengesme]

Is it just me or is it not like this anymore???  Maybe it is and I just don't know about it.  

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A year later...more beautiful

This is a fact. I have become much more beautiful after getting hsv.  I lost 15 pounds, taking great care of my skin and hair, getting my nails done. Walking with more confidence.  Knowing I learned some hard things in life but I have matured and grown and changed.  

I am damn sexy. 

[lifechallengesme]

I am deleting this blog

I have decided to stop sharing my life so much on the internet and relying on the internet to provide me with some sort of answer or satisfaction about my life.  I think I have to really focus and look inside myself instead of blankly staring at a screen hoping it will give me answers,.  I deactivated my facebook for the foreseeable future as well and feel the better for it. 

SCREW HSV AND ITS ABILITY TO FUCK WITH OUR LIVES!  I hate that I allowed myself to feel ashamed for so long.  It has played an overly dramatic part in the way I see my boyfriend who gave it to me in the first place.  

I will leave this post up for a day or so and see if anyone reads it or not.  I warn you all.  If you really get satisfaction from tumblr and facebook then by all means get it out there on the internet.  I think I need to return to my old modes of coping with stress.  Handwriting in a private diary and reading good books and thinking deeply. 

[officialmrpresident]

my self esteem has two levels

im a worthless piece of shit who deserves no love

bow down before bitches i am your queen

[herpalicious]

Welcome aboard

[lifechallengesme]

Anyone wanna come join me on the HSV 2?  Its about as fun as it looks. 

[thesilenceofthemoon-deactivated]

My 3 month progress. First picture is from mid September. Second is sometime in October. Third is about 4 days ago. I have been doing a lot of incline treadmill cardio, cross training, and squats to achieve this progress of my legs. You can see my stomach has substantially shrunk as well due to clean eating and also cardio and intense ab workouts.

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This is simply amazing!  I just had to reblog so I can look at it again...

[kelli-spigarelli]

It is almost spring break. I have one class left and a shift at work until I am on “break”. Speaking of breaks, haven’t had an outbreak in awhile. Probably because I haven’t been having sex. Which I am for once totally okay with. I sent Chad one final harsh message this morning and then blocked...

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great post, seriously

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Help

Hey guys what are your fast ways to clear up herpes pimples?  I got an outer pimple and some uncomfortable itching going on in the inside.  I don't take any prescriptions but do take Lysine.  Usually I take 1500mg a day because I am rather prone to obs.  How much do you guys take during an ob? 

Other suggestions?  I don't have a bathtub or epsom salt...

[lifechallengesme]

From the best hsv site herpes-coldsores.com

HERPES IS NORMAL

Although at times it might not feel like it, herpes really is a very common, manageable, non-scary skin condition that is normal to have. Over 70% of the population have the HSV virus which causes cold sores and genital herpes.