Trust me I'm lost too

Do you ever just think to yourself "wow I'm bad at adulting"? Honestly me too.

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[lovelustquotes]

“I don’t know how to love without using my whole heart. I don’t know what its like to love someone halfway. I practice giving love in the same way I’d like to receive it.”

— Reyna Biddy

[heartofmuse]

“You broke my heart in every way a person can break someone else’s heart and yet here I am still thinking of you.”

— e.v.e. (Things I wish I still didn’t do) 

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Why don't seagulls fly over the bay?

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Title?

Why is it I seem to be the only one that stops for the person at the crosswalk or let's cars in front of me? Is it that hard for people to be nice? I keep giving people chances after things they do to me or say to me. I can't help it though. People keep asking me why are you so kind still to them? Well it's because we are all having a hard time. No one is better than you or me, they really aren't. I've had this friend for quite a few years now and honestly I've given him more chances than anyone can probably count. That's because even though he has hurt me doesn't mean he deserves hurt back. You gotta help people who are struggling. Then again aren't we all? Don't assume things about anyone it's not fare. I know I know, now your probably saying "well life isn't fare" and it's not. But doesn't mean you need to make it harder for others. Just try for a few days be as kind as you can to people, let them over in traffic, stop for them to cross the street. Trust me you will feel like your in a better place.

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So, I met this really cool guy like 3 or 4 days ago. He's super sweet and I really like him. He did the craziest thing for me too! He flippin co-singed my new apartment lease and payed for the application fee! That's crazy right??? RIGHT???? I feel so lucky no one has ever done anything like this for me or even showed any kind of compassion to me so quickly. Maybe adulting is gonna be ok after all.

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Yes I do take my phone to the bathroom

Ok I don't see the issue, do you? No? Ok cool. Well just now, as I'm walking in to the bathroom. MOM: "What are you doing?"

ME: "Going to the bathroom"

MOM: "With your phone?"

ME: "Yes?"

MOM: "Um why?"

ME: "I'm sorry I didn't realize it was an issue for me to be on my phone while I'm peeing."

MOM: "Ok well it's weird."

Then I just walked away. Why is that weird??? Why is that an issue??? I've seen her go in with hers. Come on just let people do their thing.

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"Title, if you want one"

Well yes I do want a title, but not really sure how to come up with one. So I guess I should let those of you who might even come across this know a little about me. Well I'm 19 didn't really have a dad growing up. I've moved more times than I can count, and well I'm clearly not ready for this adult thing. But I have to be. As I'm sure you can already tell well my punctuation sucks. Why is that? Well that's because my mom thought it was a good idea to send me to a hippy school when I was supposed to learn how to do that right. Instead of learning how to do that I learned how to clean my teachers house and pull weeds in her garden. Not such a great idea any more huh? Well then next I was thrown in to another school, just as bad if you ask me. It was very self directed, and if you didn't fit in at first you never would. I never did I hid in the bathrooms I had one friend who ended up being kicked out. You might also be asking "well why are you telling me this" that's because I woke up this morning sick I couldn't talk and I was sneezing and coughing like crazy. While laying here for hours I realized, you know I am really bad at adulting. Last night I pierced my lip again this time on my own. Big mistake right? Well my lip is quite swollen now I look like I got lip injections. See I'm bad at adulting.