[lifewithbells]

Me trying to explain to my mum that I’m depressed and feel very alone despite being grateful for everything that I have

My mum

[stuckinapril]

any 25+ followers here. does ur prefrontal cortex really fully develop by then. do u feel more stable and at peace w the universe. i could really use some reassurance here

[stuckinapril]

do u still have existential crises 3 times a day or nah.

[lifewithbells]

I feel like this is the stage of your life that you’re meant to be the happiest and most excited but all my feelings are just dread, anxiety, depression and sadness

[lifewithbells]

5 • 11 • 22

coffee dates with mum.

[lifewithbells]

The things I love about you :

- your smile

- the thing you do with your mouth when you flirting

- when you randomly bring me food

- stroking my hair

- your pouty lips

- the way you softly snore when you sleep

- your arms around my waist

[valentina-poem]

[lifewithbells]

“ but were you ever in love with me ?”

The question hung in the air. The heaviness of it could be felt by both of us

“Yes , ofcourse I cared for you, ” my voice trembled.

“ That’s not what I asked,” he said

He looked at me from across our bedroom.

5 years hanging between us

“ Were you ever in love with me ?” He asked again

I looked away, avoided his eyes .

“ Did you ever love me ?” he whispered.

I could hear a mixture of emotions in his whisper as it broke

I looked at him, perhaps for the last time. My throat felt dry, preventing me from speaking , telling a lie .

I could not answer.

For how could I tell a man, who loved me,

I, not for one moment , have felt the love he felt for me

[ashenedsilver-deactivated202310]

I wholeheartedly believe that standing in an empty field during a thunderstorm would solve all my problems

[lifewithbells]

You know it’s starting again when you feel exhausted all the time, sleeping longer than needed, wanting to be alone, making excuses so you don’t have to go out, missing deadlines,

[lifewithbells]

1/2

2/2

[lifewithbells]

Do you ever get a random weird feeling in your tummy like you’re not supposed to be here or you don’t belong here? And it will always happen when you’re surrounded by loved ones, but never when you’re a random in a crowd

[lifewithbells]

I know God forgives us, and people, with time , eventually forgive us too. But sometimes I wonder , if I will ever be able to forgive myself.

[insomniac-dot-ink]

Frankenstein’s monster being called just “Frankenstein” is actually poetic justice on a meta scale. Oh, so you’re going to reject your son/creation for fear of God and his hideousness?? You won’t give him a name and only call him “Creature”?? Well everyone forever is going to only remember him by your family name.

How’s that feel Victor?

[lifewithbells]

God I missed tumblr

[owlmylove]

no one tells you how much of life takes practice. not just writing, painting, running, singing, etc, but practicing how to make friends. how to make the right ones. getting practiced at how to be a good friend, a good sibling, a good person. practice identifying when people haven’t earned that. learning to recognize your right to rage and, eventually, how to offer mercy. so much of life is muscle memory, and i’ve begun to realize there are so many more parts of ourselves to flex and stretch and strengthen than those we’re taught in anatomy lessons

[glowcowboy]

i love small joys so much!!!! yes i love my coffee in my favorite mug!!! i love the sun spilling in the window!!! i love the wind on my face!!! i love my blanket over my lap!!! i love the clouds in the sky!!!! i am seeking joy in every moment!!!!

[lifewithbells]