Figuring things out but not really™

| Escapism; the tendency to seek distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, especially by seeking entertainment or engaging in fantasy. |

[disfuckingfunctional-deactivate]

[lil-leona]

I wake up to the same crushing feeling from the day before,

choking on air I can’t catch my breathe.

I’m sinking

Drowning

Deeper and deeper

It feels like the universe is cornering me in at all sides

Being pressed slowly to death

I seek relief through sleep

But the torment continues

The past refuses to be laid to rest

Taunting me in my dreams

My heart throws me forward

I awake in a sweat

My insides are screaming they can’t endure the stress

I hide my ailment in a bubble of shame

Isolate to avoid pretending I’m okay

I haven’t slept in days and my senses deceive me

I can’t trust myself

I fear I’ve gone crazy

Day in day out

The same routine

My instinct is to continue to fight

But I’m sinking

Sinking

Sinking

I’m tired

Oh God when is the last time I wasn’t tired

All I can do is lay at the bottom of the sea

Praying I die peacefully.

[lil-leona]

It’s not a matter of if, but when.

[infpisme]

[sxcietyfeels]

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

Some things will.

[palelittleangel]

It’s okay if your biggest achievement today is getting out of bed. 

I’m proud you’re still here.

The world is a tough place but I know you’re tougher. Don’t give up.

[sxcietyfeels]

It’s torture .

[destroymylife]

[eliminated]

[lips-smacker]

[understands]

[cinemasnoopy]

Time for Impulses to take over how about I ruin all of my relationships and run away perhaps

[martinilesbian]

someone give me some drugs i don’t want to feel this shit any more

[suicidal16oldgirl]

[emilydb]

They would be better off without me, everyone would be better off without me.