lila

[lilabybrighteyes]

really i’d kill myself to hold you one more time

[lilabybrighteyes]

a bitch will tell you to go to whataburger so when you order your food you expect to say “wow, what a burger!!” but you get there and instead say “what burger?” because they give you a whole lot of nothing at whataburger 😢

[lilabybrighteyes]

it plagues even children, those small girls with sickly-coloured skin and blunt teeth

never to bite at life again

[lilabybrighteyes]

i can’t do anything because i keep thinking of timothee chalamet whimpering scene

[lilabybrighteyes]

i always change my style to try and escape beauty standards but it actually just doesn’t change. whether you’re alternative or not, you’re still expected to be a skinny white girl with a button nose and big eyes. i don’t perfectly match that criteria but i’ve finally addressed the fact that i really don’t gaf about it. i’m kind of basic yet kind of hippie yet kind of nothing. i don’t really care, i just dress how i want. you don’t need to be a specific style. being alternative doesn’t shelter you from the blatant racism and body shaming that girls constantly experience. having a “glow up” doesn’t really do shit honestly it’s all about being happy with yourself. just try to have fun 🙂

[lilabybrighteyes]

life has got too hard. i will be casting spells. watch out. all of you are my opps.

[tankhall]

uuuu knowwwwww…. i’ve gotttttt….. mooooood swings that i got no control offffff……

[lilabybrighteyes]

the animal rattling around in my brain consumes me whole every so often. such a miniscule creature, yet so flexible, bending and stretching as he pleases.

to take place and carve fresh urges into the tree trunk that will soon become the past angers lila as many may know her. but to live inside myself is to let the two blend and merge until they are indifferent

yet never exactly whole

[lakevida]

trying to communicate ideas through language and it doesnt suffice so you turn to the abstract image and then people want to be talking to you about the images NO!!!!!! ! ! ! ! ! !

[orteil42]

unconvinced i'll ever find "the vitamin" that makes me all better so i can get real work done but i do expect they'll elucidate whatever my deal was post-mortem, after which what i did manage to accomplish with my life will be regarded on the level of Beethoven composing despite being deaf or Gordon Ramsay cooking despite being british

[lilabybrighteyes]

when i was in primary school i explained how having ocd felt to someone and he genuinely told me “not to be rude, but i think i would actually kill myself if that was me”

and i was like 😂😂😭😭😢

[lilabybrighteyes]

i’m scared of everyone

[lilabybrighteyes]

i think we should stop trying to categorise all our relationships. everything is too vast, complicated and specific to use umbrella terms. especially not for naming people that changed your brain chemistry

[lilabybrighteyes]

the church near my house smells so strongly of something i have smelled before and it angers me. the scent is earthy and nostalgic, familiar in a way i really love. yet i cannot pinpoint which specific note i am so drawn to and i'm afraid i never will. scent is purely something you experience in the moment; it cannot be recorded or evaluated. i will only achieve that specific rush of familiarity by going back to the church (for which i have no good reason to do so) or being lucky enough to catch it in a rare moment in the far future

[lilabybrighteyes]

i wish i had a boyfriend but i don’t think i’d like him very much

[lilabybrighteyes]

one time when i was like seven years old me and my neighbour were out playing and her cat killed a shrew so we took it and poured food colouring all over its dead body then buried it in a field

[lilabybrighteyes]

i want to be everything