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Will be deleting shortly. I just feel like I never connected here like I would have liked to.

Had to say goodbye to my pup tonight. We thought she had broken a tooth and had an abscess. Turned out it was an ear infection. But when they took x-rays they found a large matastisized (sp) tumor. The big C. Fuck. It was so hard and I'm going to miss her so much.

Last workout of the year. Yeah, you don't want none of this.

My pup has had a few not so good days lately. She's 14 and we rescued her shortly after she was born. Her legs are getting worse from arthritis and my wife thinks she may have broken a tooth. I just found her sprawled out by her bowl. She never lays out in the kitchen. I did give her a couple of her pain pills so maybe that's it. Still, this is so heartbreaking to see.

Getting ready to start our Gloomhaven campaign.

Ugh. I have a list of things that look suspiciously like resolutions. I'm thinking pick one or a few to really focus on. What do I want the most vs what do I need the most vs even what makes the most sense or impact.

I like to track but usually it doesn't last long. I go back and forth between someone who wants to track and feels it's valuable vs someone who doesn't track and still manages to remember what it is they are working towards.

I think I might take my list and break it down into something more akin to systems rather than goals. Losing weight sounds good but vague. Not eating out, giving up alcohol, proteins and greens for breakfast and a salad a day all sound closer to how I want to go about it but also sounds like a lot at once.

I know in Getting Things Done you have your big goals and work backwards from there. In Zen Habits you work on one thing at a time. Others have lists of top three or six things.

I don't know. I'm undecided, unsure and at least a little confused. You would think if I decided to say drink 8 glasses of water it wouldn't be that fcking hard to do for more than a few days at a time.

#personal #rant #sigh

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Best moment of the year? Depends on your definition of 'moment,'. My oldest got a career type job with paid days off, sick leave, vacation, health care, etc. That was huge to me. MrsC and I traveled to North Carolina, Colorado, and Virginia. I love our vacations now. I especially loved Colorado. Going to dispensaries, seeing and hearing the elk bugle in the national parks, playing games and watching The Man in the high Castle in our condo. Lots of good moments. Learning more and being better able to deal with my anxiety has helped a lot. Learning that I actually have anxiety and depression was huge but I think that was late 2017. This year has been about figuring out how to work with it. I would guess though honestly that the one best moment of the year was probably experienced in the afterglow of some good sex. That is generally when for me all is right with the world.

Thanks for the ask @yourstrulystacey 😉