Really hate feeling like I'm misunderstood because I am fundamentally a very uncomplicated person im just not the type of uncomplex that other people like. I'm not going to project onto others why I think they don't like those things about me I can't ever know. Its just that i guess all to common autistic person thing where other people notice you are deep down very different from them even when you're doing your very best to mask and have observed normal people your whole life and are doing your best impression of a neurotypical person and they can still somehow tell that you are not normal. I hate when I get that feeling about people in my life, when the it feels like they would think my reaction or my feelings are an overreaction or too big or just the wrong feeling and reaction in general. I guess I just need to talk to them in the morning but I really don't want to feel like I am once again not fully myself around someone out of fear of being ostracized

















