Lilith @lilith88sstuff - Tumblr Blog

Lol the plates looked so unappealing

I'll try posting wieiad starting from tmr if the lighting is good enough

Studying was my refuge because it is something that I can control. Now, with my results, I feel like hard work didn't pay off. I feel out of control.

Nothing felt in control throughout my whole life. I have lost my teenage years. I spent most of my time imagining the future. The future came, and NOTHING was archieved. Not the friends I have fantisised about, not the group hangouts, not the parties, not the great grades (I got a 81.4% I feel like a failure after everything that I've done), not me losing weight (I have dreamt about that since I was 8 lol), not the mental stability, not even the aesthetic mental unstability, not my health, not my looks, not the knowledge I've been seeking for.

NOTHING!! My friends have dismissed me, I feel. No one wants to go out with me.

One day, I will have the life I dreamt about. I am still optimistic and trying so hard not to kms or relapse on self harm and starving.

#nothing #mental health #vent #tw vent #vent post #personal vent #depressing shit #tw death #tw depressing thoughts

I feel like hard work sort of paid off.. I will be posting the results of the national exams on june the 30th i hope.

I still have an oral exam to sit. I'll keep y'all updated. I didn't post bcz most of the things i did these days r oral recitations.

#studyblr #study motivation #study blog #studying #studious

study-diaries

Get up and do your work. Work as hard as you can. And live life the way you want. Achieve your dreams.

It will piss off all the people who hate you.

Living well is the best revenge.

Morning session (excuse my drawing skills)

Chem+philosophy.

#chemistry #studystudystudy #studyblr #study motivation #study blog #studying #studious

Istg these fuckass unis want me to kms.

Morning sesh lol

From 8:30 until 13:55

I did a total of 5 hours of studying.

1. Maths: analysis, sequences

2. Physics: orbital mechanics, project, thermodynamics, newtonian mechanics lol

3. Chemistry: conductivity, organic chem

4. Philosophy: a bunch of things lol.

Today I went to a new café (after saying that i will never go to study in a café ever again) it was fine until electricity got cut off. Other than that, it was great.