Sometimes, even flowers burn

—— Conwall, Lilly ;; ❝ I'm taking it slow.. feeding my flame. Shuffling the cards of your game. And just in time, in the right place. Suddenly I will play my ace.. ❞ { Lilly, 18, Pyromania & Delusional.. or so they say } She was beautiful.. but she was beautiful like a forest fire was beautiful.

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birdie-isms:

SHE’S FUCKING TIRED OF BEING MISUNDERSTOOD. she doesn’t belong here ( as far as she knows ) and she wants to go. but currently, there’s nothing she can do. so she might as well get comfortable. she just walks along the hallway in silence until she comes across another. “ what’s a girl gotta do to get some flowers around here ??” she knows its a strange request, but blythe has always been a ‘rare bird’ ( she got the nickname for a reason ).

“Are you talking about literal flowers, or hypothetical ones?“ Picking up on whatever the new girl had to say, Lilly was slightly cautious. Albeit not a dumb blonde like her hair colour might suggest, she didn’t always catch up on sarcasm and the like. “Best follow their rules if you want to get your hands on anything around here. Take your meds, eat your meals, don’t start a fight with other patients, basically live a dull life and you’ll get whatever.” She shrugged. Granted, Lilly hadn’t been the most difficult patient and she still hadn’t been allowed certain privileges. Strictly speaking she didn’t even know how long one had to be a good little girl before they’d be allowed to. 

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A E S T H E T I C { 1 / ? }  Lilly & him → he has ignited a fire in me.. consume me from the inside

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estellexgrimes:

Rubbing at her temples vigorously as if was going to dispose of the pounding headache so kindly given to her by her friends – vodka and sambuca – Estelle forced out an exhale, in self-inflicted AGONY. In all honesty, if she hadn’t organised any sessions for the day, she would still be tucked up in bed and hiding away from the rest of the world, but nope… Here she was; hanging out of her arse.

Toggling the mouse to her computer, ready to log into her system and cancel her appointments QUICK, the door creaked it’s way open… Her first patient had arrived and it was too late. Hitting the escape button so that nobody could see her attempt to sneak off, pushing a rather false smile onto her ( more so pale than usual ) face and shuffling forward in her chair a few inches, Estelle flipped her hair over her shoulder causing a dizzy spell to ATTACK as she clumsily fell back into the leather again. “Hi… Is it just me or is it extremely bright in here? Do you mind pulling the blinds? We’ll begin after that…” Her tone was coming out as a groan, as though she wasn’t happy to be meeting with those on her most recent assignment list, when really it was just the murderous hangover.

@rxcklessrick @n8whit @lillyxconwall @notsolittlelaurie @dixielaminer

Lilly was not looking forward to her first appointment with her new psychologist. Although she had barely met the woman (thus supposedly no reason to feel such a strong dislike towards the other) there was something iffy about the thought of someone probing around in her mind. 

Although she didn’t put up a fight when the nurse came to collect her from her room (she was still new, didn’t know where everyone’s office was), she took an excruciatingly long time following the nurse. Walking as slowly as her feet would allow her without it looking suspicious. “Eh- no, that’s okay,” she muttered, not picking up on the fact the other was suffering from a serious hangover. In fact, she took the liberty of closing the blinds herself; saving Estelle the effort of having to get out of her chair. On second thought she did look slightly too pale. “So.. what is it you want to discuss? Don’t get me wrong but you don’t exactly look like you’re  up for any kind of conversing.” Hoping she hadn’t just greatly insulted the other, Lilly took a seat in the chair on the other end of the desk anyway. Although she knew there may be a small chance, she probably wasn’t going to get away with walking right out again. 

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M O O D B O A R D { 1 / ? } Lilly Joan Conwall → there is nothing I wouldn’t do anymore

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doctorxseuss:

Sidney nodded politely at the question about her name that she never seized to hear whenever she met someone new. “Yes, that’s my name. Sadly I’m not aware of any relation to the author, though.” Sidney sat down next to the girl, willing to take a moment to answer any questions she had. She smiled gently at Lilly. “I am not the person that told your parents that you belong here. From what I read, the police recommended a psychiatric evaluation in the hospital, and from there a psychiatrist named Dr. Rozar referred you to us.” Sidney gestured toward the file in her hands. “That’s what it says in here.” 

The doctor glanced at her watch. “Lilly– I’m perfectly happy to answer any questions you have. I’m just wondering if you’d like to go to my office first. It will be more private than this waiting room, and we can also start your physical while we talk, too.”

“You aren’t? Such a shame.. must be nice to have an artist in the family.. someone that understands,” she mused, lost in thoughts for a second. It wasn’t like her parents disapproved of any spats of artistry, they merely didn’t understand that setting things aflame was a form of art as well. Dedicated purely to him. “Good, it’s easier talking knowing that you had nothing to do with it.“ She did smile, genuinely even. Lilly had no quarrel with the other staff members    not necessarily. They couldn’t help it that they were assigned by some big bozo to threat her for a disease she did not suffer from. 

“Sure, is the physical necessary though? I’ve had one a couple of months ago, went to the doctor for a fever. Aren’t the result still accurate?” She hated it, to be probed at, even if it was necessary. Even if she knew she had nothing to hide (she ate well, never harmed herself on purpose and although she didn’t work out a lot she was in normal shape for a girl her age), it still filled her core with stress; leaving her aching to watch the embers dance    like a smoker desperately waiting for his next fix. Still she walked along with Sidney without much resistance, down the long corridor that looked dauntingly the same at every turn. 

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“I think a demon has possessed me – look into my eyes.”

“What the fuck, Demi.“ (yeah she knows her name now) Not quite sure if the other was playing her or serious, she slowly averted her blue hues up to meet the other’s. “I don’t see it.” She slacked a sigh of relieve. “Are you sure you’re possessed?”

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doctorxseuss:

Sidney got a page, notifying her that the new admission was waiting for her intake appointment. She put the paperwork she had out away neatly, straightening up her desk before getting up and walking toward the hook that her white lab coat hung from. She slipped it on and grabbed the manila folder with the new patient’s name then left her office. As she walked over to the waiting room, she opened the file and skimmed it. Sidney moved the first page over to reveal poor copies of the girl’s adoption files, and underneath those, a police report. Dr. Seuss stopped walking, absorbed by the mysteriously vague report. The patient appeared to have a history of psychiatric troubles for a while before the incident, the fire that burned her home to the ground. 

The doctor closed the file and took a deep breath, continuing on her way to meet Lilly. When she reached the room, she laid eyes on a young, pretty-faced blonde. It was hard to believe someone who looked so innocent could be so troubled and capable of destroying anything, but Sidney had long learned not to let appearances be the judge of one’s character. Dr. Seuss cleared her throat. “Hello, Lilly? I’m Dr. Sidney Seuss.”

She was distracting. Sidney.  Snapping Lilly right out of her thoughts. It was as if the young girl never even realised the loaded tension behind the words she’d been uttering. “Seuss? Like the writer?” Lilly’s moods were known to change quite a bit depending on whether she managed to get out of her own head, however Sidney’s presence did just that. Instead of looking like a distraught little girl (even if her hands still quivered, the undeniable desire to set something, anything aflame just to distract him for the slightest moment burned within her soul) the hint of a smile graced her face. 

“Are you the one that told my parents I belong here?” Again with the loaded questions. Part of Lilly knew that of course this woman wasn’t to be blamed for her stay in Brielle, yet she ached for someone else to blame. Someone other than her parents. They couldn’t have just given up on her, could they?

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n8whit:

What a Frootloop. Not that everyone that entered Brielle’s walls was anything less than, but it certainly wasn’t always to be expected when there were people like Demi and Nate readily at the sidelines, totally capable of just about anything. The best way to deter the craziest from infecting the others was to ultimately be rid of them, or authoritatively force them to build the pyramid of Whitman. This one would be just another addition to his pile of bodies beneath the vessel that would one day hold his own body, years in advance. { Unless of course the Great and Powerful Nate found a way to become immortal - though, according to his reading was impossible, he needed a way to make it probable. } “Listen, Looney Tunes, I don’t know what kind of messed up animal bit you in the radioactive Chernobyl, but you need to get a damn grip because all of these bitches will dope you to high hell.” Nate was definitely not speaking from experience as he was quite a little twat in the system of medication administration, flushing his sleeping pills and defying nurses at every turn. She must’ve been practicing some sort of witchcraft, which is highly frowned upon by the community from which he came, however, Nate found a curiosity in the forbidden and decided to stick around, contrary to the fact that he had daily plans. In addition, the rounds nurses kept trying to drag him out of the room - yet to no avail - since every time they made attempts, he waltzed right back in with ease. 

Lilly seemed disturbed by the sudden interruption, as if awaking from a trance she didn’t know she was in; slowing blinking her eyes as she tried to make sense of the words spoken to her. As if Nate had been a hypnotists, speaking the magical word or snapping his fingers, allowing Lilly to submerge from her unconscious and leaving whatever tedious task she had been assigned be. “Don’t worry, I’ve never been bit my any animal.. they don’t appear to particularly like me but I never got into a fight with one of them.” It stung, that he had called her Looney Tunes while she still refused to believe she was off her rockers. Even though she never had a particular desire to fit in with the normal crowd, that did not mean she impenetrable. So she decided to give him another chance. Regard his disrespect and play it naive for the sake of allowing him to make things right. “Do you think these people can do anything to me? They’re just safekeepers, meant to keep me in place until he sees fit. I rather think it’s you that should be worried about what they may do to you once they find out you’ve been pestering the new girl.” She wasn’t one to rad another out, yet she had heard about the solitary confinement they sometimes put patients in (not that she knew how big an offence was required to even be put in solitary in the first place, if she had she’d have known her words probably meant virtually nothing), but hoped that this might push him to change his behaviour. If only the slightest.

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demixrivers:

Oh, look. Brielle had washed up, yet again, ANOTHER crazy – not like she wasn’t living in a fucking mansion full of them already. Rolling her eyes, a chill scurrying down her spine as those haunting words flooded from the strange girl’s mouth, Demetria stopped in her steps with arms threaded over her chest. Perhaps, she could have a little fun here; she hadn’t had any in WEEKS and the boredom was chipping away at her brain like a woodpecker. “Oh my god, you’ve been hearing those sirens too? They’re driving me fucking insane.” Of course though, there were no sirens. Demetria gave people what she thought they deserved; more delusions and more things to be worried about. Being the resident bitch was tiring work and with that new rat of an intern skipping the corridors like she owned the place, Demi had to redeem herself. “Holmes doesn’t regret bringing anybody here. As long as the DEVIL gets his pay check, then he’s dancing around the fires of HELL with his pitchfork. Good luck trying to convince him otherwise.”

“Yes.. in the distance, echoing in and out.. singing their song desperate to be heard. But they’ll be too late, no one ever pays attention to them until it’s too late.. it’s really quite sad.“ Call her naive, Lilly didn’t quite realise Demi was messing with her mind. That’s how desperate she was for another human being to understand where she was coming from. Her parents didn’t understand, so they stuck her here. The nurses didn’t understand, so they fed her medicine (supposedly to calm her mind, yet all it did was make her feel loopy and out of touch with reality). and then there were the doctors. The doctors with their superiority complexes. All because they had a fancy degree from some fancy university they supposedly knew what was wrong with her? No, they understood the least of all. “They drive you insane? You don’t like them? I think they’re quite comforting.. so long as they’re far, far away.” For the first time Lilly focused her attention on the brunette. Instead of idly gazing at the wall, blue hues studied the other girl from head to toe. She wasn’t much taller, looked about her age, much resembling the girls at her school. Maybe she could finally find someone that would understand. Like when she was younger and everything was still fun and games. Oh, how her friends loved to escaped into her imaginary world. Except it had never been imaginary to her, and once they understood that they had dropped all contact. “The devil? What an unusual way to call him..” Lilly had trouble differentiating her own world from reality. To her, Holmes was yet another pion in his games. “I guess you could call him that.. after all, he likes nothing more but to play with fire. Do you like to play with fire?” 

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She was nervous, anxious even. Unable to get her hands on the one thing she required, Lilly much resembled a drug addict suffering from withdrawal symptoms. She had been especially irritable (snapping at more than one nurse that dared glare at her the wrong way), the fact that her head felt like her brain was trying to pound itself out of her skull not helping much either. Yes, if one did not know her, they may as well assume she was some druggy. The irony being that the palpitations, sweating and constant quivering weren’t even a cause of addiction. No. That was all in her own head. All because she was scared that if she didn’t get that one thing she wouldn’t make it out of this place alive. 

“When the sirens ring and the ashes set you’ll all regret you brought me here..“ She kept mumbling the same sentence over and over, barely loud enough for anyone to fully make it out, yet clear enough that she was definitely talking about something. “When the sirens ring..“ 

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“Don’t touch me !” Cecily was screaming at the nurse in front of her, kicking little legs out furiously as she chocked on her own tears.  “Don– Get out of my head !!” at the last words, her eyes clamped shut, the nurse looking on helplessly, unsure how to calm the child down. 

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Lilly was startled (to say the least) by the sudden commotion in the hallway. She hadn’t adjusted to her new surroundings. Wasn’t given the time to either. and now she had landed herself in the middle of what appeared to be a murder scene. She wasn’t even the least bit surprised. Wasn’t this the psychiatric ward after all? “Hè.. hè! What are you doing to her!?” Lilly had never been too maternal, it wasn’t like she despised kids, she merely didn’t have the age to consider wanting them yet. Still, even she could tell that whatever the nurse was doing.. it was all kinds of fucked up. “Can’t you tell she’s scared? God, you keep saying you’re supposed to help us yet all I see you people do is upset and hurt little kids.” She furrowed her brows, averting her attention to the petite blonde instead. “A- are you okay? What are they doing to your head?” Just because she had intervened, didn’t in the slightest mean Lilly understood how to talk to the young girl. Instead resulting to something she had heard many adults say to their distraught children. “Ssh, it’s okay now.. I think,” she added, a hint of uncertainty lingering in her voice.

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make me choose: ice or fire

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“Doctor Holmes may view it as compulsory, but I do not. You don’t have to do it and I’ll keep it a secret, if you do.” Estelle RADIATED with kindness; she was the kind of person who tried to use her power for the better and despite being of a higher status than most of the patients around, she always looked at them as though they were equals – friends, even.

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“How do you know what Holmes does or does not have me do?“ The girl tensed at the thought, eyeing the tall blonde from head till toe. Lilly hadn’t been here long enough to know who was to be trusted, and who wasn’t.. let alone to know what everyone did around Brielle. “I mean.. how do I know you won’t rad me out? Have him send me to solitary?” She had heard about a place where you were to be locked, completely confined of all human contact. Just waiting and waiting and waiting for someone to finally come and rescue her. and what if that someone was him? The thought alone had her quivering. “If you must know, Doctor Holmes says I’m not to be looking for trouble. The things is, it’s not trouble I’m looking for. I’m merely looking for a way to make things easier. Not just for myself but for everyone else as well. You won’t like it when he comes.” She lifted a sliver of the veil, not enough to get her in any sort of trouble, yet enough for her to test whether this woman.. was she even a therapist or a patient herself? was to even remotely be trusted.

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Fool’s paradise → Lucy & Mason

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singmetosleeplucy:

The warm embrace came as a welcoming surprise; a genuine smile breaking through as she held him as tightly as he held her. She didn’t want to let him go. He was the first friendly face she had seen that day, and genuinely one of the only reasons why coming back didn’t suck completely. 

“Hi.. I’ve missed you, you know that?,” she mused, holding him a little tighter before creating enough space between them so that she was able to properly look at him. “I eh.. well, do I need to explain how I am if I’m back here?” She attempted a joke, a soft chuckle escaping her lips although it wasn’t very convincing. They all knew why they were there. “But well, I’m back. So how are you? Did I miss a lot while I was away?”

She took the liberty of leaning in for another hug. She had missed him a lot and their fair share of phone calls hadn’t exactly been the same as seeing him on a daily basis. 

“Of course I know that, I’ve missed you too!” he replied, whining a little and relaxing his hold as she made space between them, “I suppose you don’t need to explain no…” the boy said with a sad pout before offering his friend a cheerful smile to try and lift her spirits a little.

“I’m alright I guess… I don’t think you did but then again I’ve been away too and I’m just starting to try and work out what I missed,” he replied with a shrug, eagerly hugging his friend; he was glad that there was at least one person who would show him the kindness and affection that he recieved so little of otherwise. Lucy was his friend. The best friend he’d had in a long time and her absence had upset him a great deal more than he’d expected- even being able to talk hadn’t been enough to fill that little hole called ‘friendship’ in his life.

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His smile was infectious. Not just to the point where it made her smile to, but where it generally cheered her up. It was nice to have at least someone around she didn't feel the need to hide from. “Well, whatever reason it is we're back.. you still look cheerful as always.”

“Surely we didn't miss too much. I mean, everyone's pretty much forced to follow the same every day schedule. How much trouble could they have gotten themselves into?” Probably a lot. Possibly a lot she didn't care too much about anyhow. “Have you settled in yet? Oh! Does Angeline already know you're back?” She wiggled her eyebrows, still utterly in the dark when it concerned their past.