Gay Lil Vampy

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[lilvampyuwu]

Add me for some gay chaos<3

[lilvampyuwu]

My dream is to become the reason

behind that smile

[lilvampyuwu]

As I fall deeper into the sea of darkness, all sounds silence, all sight vanishes, all feeling turns to numbness.

[lilvampyuwu]

I'm sorry that I'm so fucking weak... I'm sorry that lately, although you may not realize it, I've been hiding things that I really want help with but am scared to bring up because he keeps whispering in my ear...

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no homo bro but i want to hold you and run my fingers through your hair when youre having a rough night and promise you that youre safe with me, that ive got you no matter what and im never letting go… but no homo bro haha

[lilvampyuwu]

I feel like I cant breathe

This overwhelming feeling is suffocating me

Overtaken by this pain

It hurts so much I fear I'll go insane

I try to scream, I try to cry

But no one will listen, no matter how hard I try

I be what they want, it's never enough

Its pushing to the point of just giving up

Can you here me? does anyone care?

What happened to "I will always be there"

Do you enjoy watching me as I fail?

The pain in my voice as I yell?

Maybe your right, I should end it all

Cause nothing comes out of me standing tall

[lilvampyuwu]

I just want a vampire boy to bite my neck

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Gerard Way

Gerard Way photographed by Paul Harries for Kerrang! magazine (2010). Shared by Harries on Instagram (6/19/2020).

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Old Xian update of [19 Days] translated by Yaoi-BLCD. Join us on the yaoi-blcd scanlation team discord chatroom or 19 days fan chatroom!

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[lilvampyuwu]

I dont want to human anymore.

All my trust has been damaged...

I feel like I've broke and I feel like im nothing.

Support? Comfort? Care? Love?

What are these things? Are they real?

I'm hurting more than anyone cares.

I'm crying, I'm screaming, and asking WHY?

The pain is so much, I'm tempted more to end it all.

[lilvampyuwu]

I just want a full ass long heart felt real apology

[lilvampyuwu]

I'm tired of talking texting a ghost

[lilvampyuwu]

GODS. All I've been doing all day is crying and taking showers.

Having my grandma into my room to make sure I'm still alive and okay(not okayy).

Wanting the comfort of someone I fr trust which is not really anybody hardly so that's tough.

Crying in the arms of a neighbor because I'm too weak to stand alone and need comfort.

Tearing off my bandages unveiling fresh wounds because the bandages ripped them and caused the healing process to start all over.

The overthinking and worrying about other things I shouldn't have to on top of what I'm already dealing with.

Having panic attacks because I wonder if anything is real and if everything heard, said, and seen is a lie.

Dying over and over as the flashbacks get stuck on repeat.

Not being able to stand being in the room with anyone without getting a crawling, nauseating, and dirty feeling.

And making a post because I need to vent someway or another in the short time I have where I can see through the tears.

[lilvampyuwu]

I just want a hug...

[lilvampyuwu]

I'm a complicated person.

I've gone through so much.

Most things dont make me happy.

Material things only keep me okay for a short period.

Just having people doesnt stop my doubt they hate me.

People think I'm super hard to please.

If they only knew how much I actually yearn for simple things.

Little surprises, paragraphs of how much they care and how I deserve to live, and caring physical affection like hugs.

If they only knew how much it takes me not to act on my wants and grab their hand as we walk together.

[lilvampyuwu]

This shit painful as hell

Not just the physical pain of it

But the mental and emotional pain that comes with relapsing

[lilvampyuwu]

If you have a long cut the needed band-aids, you'd want to put on enough band-aids for the whole cut right?

Let's say it required....7 regular sized band-aids. But you only had 2.

You have two choices, put the 2 band-aids on anyway even if they arent enough, or dont put any on and leave your entire cut uncovered when it needs band-aids.

On one hand, you dont have any. But on the other you may not have enough, but you still have some.

The band-aid is like an apology.

Even if an apology isn't enough, it still helps a little bit. Give those two band-aids to the person to cover their cut, even if it's just a little bit. It's better than nothing.