& since this is the perfect hour to talk about stuff i may delete in the morning...
i’ve been off & on debating rebooting/removing mandus from the pokemon community.
i’ll even confess to considering deleting him for a hot minute.
not due to me no longer enjoying his character (i love this man way too much it is nigh upon worrisome), but simply no longer getting the same enjoyment from going through the same motions here.
i’ve had a TON of fun on my other blogs, primarily my zelda blog, which constantly has new people filtering in & out.
it is refreshing, & something i haven’t really gotten on mandus, as i tend to rp with the same five people.
is this my fault?
probably.
i am a REAL stickler on who i follow & i thought remaining exclusive to the pokemon community (aside from a couple of exceptions) was the right thing to do for his character.
alas, i haven’t followed anyone new in months, my rps are the stale same-old same-old, & i am pushing myself further & further from mandus.
ofc, the issues of doing as i mentioned above (rebooting/removing/whatever) is:
1. mandus is so deeply rooted in the pokemon lore i couldn’t do much. i tried having him be fandomless/modern, but he doesn’t work well in other verses, as his status as the Big Bad in the pokemon world doesn’t translate well. what’s the point in leaving if i’m still going to be pokemon?
2. i have so much content on here it’d be a difficult reboot. i also am nigh upon another follower milestone, & after that is ANOTHER huge milestone. i have some serious attachments to this blog & while rebooting would mean being able to clean it up + have a tagging system i’ll stick by + trying to sort through it better (less ooc, more ic related content), the pros & cons don’t all balance out.
the fact that this isn’t the first, nor will it be the LAST, time i have considered this is rather concerning.
to me, at least.
i’m not especially happy on this blog, but i love this trash man too much to easily let go.
i guess this also serves as to explanation as to why i suddenly decided to become inactive, & why my hiatus is continuing.
i don’t know if that hiatus will end, & i don’t know when i’ll come to a proper conclusion for this blog, & for mandus.
i thank you all for your patience with my lame ass, though.
especially to you folks i need to hit up OOC, but have been too much of a wuss to approach.
ya’ll are an amazing crowd.