Never Too Sweet

21 y.o. LA sugar baby and college girl. I'm too cute to not be spoiled. xxxo

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When your sugar daddy gets into politics and you have to start making up speeches

[tranquillust]

good the fuck night y'all

[nevaehtyler]

Can we talk about Malia Obama please?

[mc-mxciv]

She is goals like k

[womanoflove]

I honestly, adore this girl

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Let ‘em know

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Reality Is Finally Settling In

Okay, I’m back from my trip to Hawaii with Puff and there is so much I need to let off of my chest. This is definitely going to be a long post. Read it if you have the time, skim through it, or don’t read it at all. I just really need a safe place to vent.

Puff proposed the week before we left to Hawaii. At this point I was already having doubts about continuing this relationship because he is so insecure and I’m already exhausted from him projecting these insecurities onto me. I cannot handle clingy guys and he is the epitome of clinginess. The proposal was simple and private which I am totally thankful for. I did not want a big display of his love in the invent that my head took over for me and said “no.” I walked out of my house to see a puppy running around my driveway (I guess I’m a mom now? lol) and I immediately scooped her up before jumping into his car to admire her. My feet knocked against a bag that was sitting on the floor of the passenger side. I noticed two small boxes in it and my face lit up. I put on the the bigger of the two rings and said yes (I must be fucking crazy). Both rings are simple but stylish, sparkly, and nice enough to catch my own eye every time I wave around my hand. Apparently these two rings are just the beginning and there’s another ring waiting for me somewhere. Puff SUCKS at surprises and is always dropping hints about them. I can’t tell if it’s cute or annoying now, lol. I only wear the rings when we go out. I still haven’t broke the news to anybody because my doubts are too heavy to ignore.

We get to Hawaii and everything is okay and tons of fun until about the third day. He brings up how I never post any pictures or snapchats of us and it turns into the pettiest fight I have ever had. I was angry and annoyed because I barely post selfies so posting pictures of us seriously never crossed my mind and I know that it was just his insecurities bitting at him. I have never had an actual argument in any of my relationships so the fact that I was having one this dumb while in fucking Hawaii really pushed me over the edge and I got mean. Puff had no idea what he was doing when he decided to pick this fight with me. We manage to semi-settle it and move on. The next day he tries picking the same damn fight right before we board a shuttle to go on a tour. I told him that it wasn’t a good idea to bring things up right then and gave him the meanest look which shut him right up. We get home from the tour and he picks the fight again. Ruins another perfectly good day. I get mean again. He tells me that I’m being a bitch and I tell him it’s because he’s being insecure and annoying and he’s funny if he thinks we’re going to have this argument every day. Some how we settle things and I send him downstairs to have a drink alone at the bar because I was not going to sit there and act like I was happy with him. We bicker a little the rest of the trip but nothing major again.

During all of this craziness we somehow managed to go house shopping, lmao. We’re so dysfunctional, right? Or am I just irresponsible and insane? I had mentioned to him before this trip that I have always dreamed of living in Hawaii. After a few days he asks if I was serious and I tell him that I’m 110% serious. We had managed to connect, hang out, and party with a handful of locals which made me fall even more in love with the island. I’ve always dreamed of living the island life since my first visit years ago and I’ve never let go of the dream. California is as close as I thought I would ever get. I’ve just never pursued Hawaii because of financial reasons, of course. So he calls a realtor and the next day we’re walking through million dollar houses and I’m falling more in love (with the island, not him. lmao). We talk with the realtors on a regular basis and walk through houses basically right up until we have to leave for the airport to catch our flight back home. I agree on one house with a $4 million price tag and now that we’re back home Puff is dealing with the realtors and trying to make a deal. The idea currently on the table is that he would live there mostly full-time while he comes up with new business ventures on the island and I would come and go as I please while finishing up school here. I can’t tell if I’m finally living my dream or stepping into something totally insane. I am being cautious though and working out my own exit plan in the case that Puff totally pisses me off and I decide to not continue this relationship with him.

I can’t tell if I’m just scared of moving so fast so I’m coming up with all of these awful things about him in my head or if I’m really just getting tired of him. I’ve read back on my old posts about him and I’m trying to see where the taste I’ve had for him turned from sweet to sour. I’m telling myself to push through just a little longer because it’s already been a few months and I already have my puppy, not one but two rings, a multi-million house on an island, a trip to Europe in less than two weeks, and a car of my choice on the way (I just need to test drive my top picks and make my decision, ahhhhh!). Only the sugar gods know what I’ll have if I just suck it up and keep on going. I keep re-reading what I’ve just typed out and it all sounds so fake. Like, so fake that anybody would be happy to have all of this stuff being handed to them but I’m still here on the floor of my room pouting because it doesn’t feel as amazing as I thought it would.

There’s so much from before Hawaii and even during that I’m leaving out but I think this is enough for now and there’s going to be so much more coming soon. I hope all of the sugar babes and spoiled girlfriends out there in the bowl are getting what they deserve and remembering to have fun because I’m constantly being reminded of how emotionally exhausting this can be. Keeping my eyes on the prize is getting harder the closer I get to it. 

xxxo

[idgaf-vibes]

[celebrityho]

sugar daddy: good news doctor says I’m gonna live for another 15 years 

me: 

[amberrosedaily]

“I’m high maintenance a little bit but not in a, not in a negative way I just like extremely expensive things“.

Amber Rose is credited on Drake`s album “Views” for providing a line for his song “Faithful”.

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Money Cats masterpost, to have your LIFE!! filled with money.