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art, angst, poetry and other random shit

[listlessmidnight]

I want to self harm so badly right now.

[listlessmidnight]

Maybe feeling like a failure, drunk and alone in my home that doesn’t feel like mine, but it’s where I live, will make me feel better this time. Maybe it’ll make giving up feel like a good idea again. Maybe, against all odds, I’ll feel motivated to be better. Maybe. Maybe nothing will change at all. Maybe I’ll never change despite the therapy and the steady passage of time. I think I may remain a hopeless case.

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[ananarchie]

podrick just stole 5$ from me???? there was cash on the coffee table and he just came up, picked up a 5 in his mouth and trotted away?????? what the fuck dude you don’t need that you don’t even know what capitalism is

[ananarchie]

this is the money podrick. reblog for money to come ur way

[uwiguwi]

if you’re reading this

a lump sum of money is on the way to you

[uwiguwi]

it happened today, damn that was like 3 days maybe?

It Works the money is on its way!

[goodluckrob-deactivated20221110]

Need this.

[mindyourbusinessitsfree]

Of course

[sauvamente]

It worked tho

[ourblackisgold-deactivated20191]

I just won $500 off a scratch Ticket lottery.

[sauvamente]

ENERGY

[deux-pour-chagrin-blog]

OKAY LEGIT I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY. ME AND MY PARTNER ARE IN SUCH A TIGHT SPOT FOR MONEY ATM AS WE ARE SAVING FOR A DEPOSIT ON A HOUSE. I GOT PAID DOUBLE WHAT I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET AND SO DID HE AND HONESTLY I CRIED SO MUCH TODAY IM SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED

[lilybeth666-blog]

Positive vibes!!!!!

[realtrashwitch]

[analeahlove3]

I need this 🙌🏾

[purpletangyvaginas]

[grandpaq]

If I reblog it does that mean I’m gonna have good dick to give out this summer? 🤔

[lickmetilllicecreammmm]

Just here for the money part lmao

[interminaterogationriteolworshi]

Bring me my blessings

[n0kiv]

I just need the money

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[day-dreamersclub]

i pray that aug, sep, oct, nov and dec are all months full of growth, blessings, productivity, new doors open and opportunities

[ghosticalz]

R E B L O G   T H E   P I G E O N .

[drawnsnake]

Please

[listlessmidnight]

It really only takes one little thing to wreck me these days huh

[awwww-cute]

[blackandmildwithgod]

If you scroll pass this you don’t got ten dollars

[apollonne-deactivated20201016]

Need my $10

[apollonne-deactivated20201016]

Guys i literally just got tipped $10 at work

[miles-b-morales-deactivated2026]

I aint risking it.

[fandomnationwhore]

$10

[andhetakesandhetakesandhetakes]

Ugly, Bitter, and True by Suzanne Rivecca

[doubleyew-deactivated20191031]

we are under fucking attack

[fageleh]

[Image Description: 

“The San Francisco therapist kept telling me I shouldn’t be terrified of creative experimentation.

‘I don’t know what’s going to come out of me,’ I told her. ‘It has to be perfect. It has to be irreproachable in every way.’

‘Why?’ she said.

‘To make up for it,’ I said. ‘To make up for the fact that it’s me.’“]

[waller-bridge]

This is the employment Steve, reblog for bountiful job opportunity.

[torracat]

this is the money garf. reblog for untold pasta and riches to come your way

[inudaughter]

I’m doing this for the pasta.

[inkskinned]

okay, i don’t hate kids. i think they’re sort of funny. i like that you can talk to them like an adult and they’ll make sounds like they understand. i taught one kid “phosphorescence” and he looked at me and said, “they could just call it glowing if it means something that glows.” the kid undid the entire science community in one sentence.

but i hate kids.

or really, i hate how they’ve always been expected from me.

when i was five i was given “babies.” i hated the hardness of dolls, disposed of them for dramatic stories between stuffed animals. i knew how to wrap, feed, and care for a baby before i could spell my last name. when i was nine i was already “watching the kids”. i was only four years older than my cousins were. i wanted to go out and play. instead i was expected to have responsibility. by the time i was thirteen all of my friends had told me about how many children they were going to have in their twenties. 

my hips were “child-bearing” hips. my brother was a scientist, or a fireman, or a steamroller. i was going to make a good housewife, or mom, or nanny, or mom, or mom, or mom.

and when my body hurt, i was told it wasn’t really my body, not really, it belonged to my future children. i couldn’t cut or snip or tie anything; i was trapped by the potential energy that hung above me. a boulder, threatening. i couldn’t get tattoos, because what would i tell my children? i couldn’t kiss a girl, because what would i tell the children? i couldn’t be risky or wild or anything but a lady, because what about the children?

and when i said “i don’t want children” - not biologically, at least, not when cancer and depression and a whole other host of terrible things lives inside me - do you know what they said? “it’ll change, wait and see” “it’s not bad” “you’ll get used to it” “when you meet the right man” “you don’t want to be lonely”.

i don’t hate kids. i’m great with them. 

but then i’m told again that my life will be forfeit to them - something in me snaps angry. “wait until you have kids” “you should travel before you have children” “you’ll be more happy.” 

i hate kids! i’ve snarled. i don’t mean it at all. but god. please, leave me alone. i don’t want to be a biological mom. 

it’s like we’re born with a uterus and told “this is your whole life. your singular purpose. your job.” 

i want to be my own purpose. not here for the sake of passing genes on.

[breelandwalker]

This sums up everything I’ve ever felt about societal expectation of motherhood.

[the-v-gees]

Exactly.

[victorious]

Reblog this and money will be entering your life this week

[glitterandglamm]

Need it so why not 🤷🏼‍♀️

[cosmic-noir]

Pls

[resonance-of-libra]

This is the Lucky Ace. Reblog to recieve a wad of cash that is oddly specific to your current needs.

[jukaidream]

I reblogged this shit two days ago y’all… what kinda sorcery is this. Oddly specific too …. I’ll take it tho 🤯

[thisisasinkingship]

I think I did it wrong

[comic-girl2234-deactivated20240]

Uh I reblogged this like 3 days ago and I start my new job on Monday??? Like idk how you accidentally find a job but I did.

[caprifreak]

I need to get paid asap so pls ace help

[caprifreak]

I GOT PAID I GOT PAID!!!!!! MUCH MORE THAN I EXPECTED AAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU ACE

[musinvenusian]

I legit have a specific amount i want in my head rn it better come true 😭

[riyerose]

I ALSO HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY I WOULD LIKE TO ACQUIRE, PLEASE HELP

[autumn-new-moon]

This has worked before, so why not again?

[sushinfood]

you can have more notes just please give me money

[valeria2067]

Cancer treatment bills keep growing and growing and now they are in collections and tanking my credit score.