Why we cant move on?
So as of now idk whats the best thing to do. Its been 2 weeks since weve talked. And still wala pa rin. Before that Ive tried to talked to him to fix everything. But it turns out that he dont want it and he even told me “ huwag kang umaasa na maaayos to”. Because of it tumigil ako na kausapin sya, but im still into him so lagi ko syang iniistalk through his social media accounts. My friends told me that I need to let go kasi naglet go na sya so i need to do the same but I cant ( well I really can but i dont want to). Its just one month pero na attached na ako ng sobra sa kanya. Its normal naman diba? Well I think. Pero ang tanga ko kasi Ive made a box full of notes, Po, and pastimallows para ibigay sa kanya. Sa lahat ng taong nakakakita sakin while im doing the crepe paper thingy theyve asked bakit ko daw ginagawa yun eh wala naman na. I answered “ maybe this is for closure, lahat ng feelings ko nilagay ko na sa box to let go.” But they don’t believed. So i dont care, this is the first time that ive put so much effort to someone kasi dati sa mga fave bands ko lang to ginagawa but now sa taong mahal ko na ( ang corny lol). Sabi nga ng the script “how can I move on if Im still in love with you” I really love that man kahit na magmukhang tanga okay lang. Kahit nasasaktan go lang.
So ito na talaga alam ko yung unang part walang connect sa title lol sorry about that. So here it is why we cant move on? 1. Wala kayong assurance na wala na talaga kasi both of you dont have the chance to say “ayaw ko na magbreak na tayo”. So ayun dyan dumadating yung word na HOPING. You assume na kayo pa and still hoping na babalik pa kayo sa dati. 2. You still dont want to move on, kasi youre still stuck on loving him. Youre not thinking about the worst memories but the lovable one. 3. You dont want to. Ayaw mo talaga kasi gusto mo yung feelings mo para sa kanya to stay.
But the effect of not moving on are bitterness and acceptance.
