turnabout at the end of the world

blog for the AO3 writer littleraeofsunshine. cullrian, hansry are currently ruling my brain but i am a force for chaos and post anything I like. Queer, cat servant, dangerously close to 30. Banner art belongs to BlancheDr on Deviant art: https://www.deviantart.com/blanchedr/art/And-all-the-wounds-that-are-ever-gonna-scar-me-545630795

[littleraeofsunshineda]

FIC MASTERPOST

~ Kingdom Come: Deliverance - Henry of Skalitz/Hans Capon

And I Have Already Begun

Explicit - 223,768 wds - 27/30 chs

Hans falls in love, finds a book, and tries to figure out how to avoid losing his best friend. It would be easier if he had anything at all to offer Henry, or if sodomy were not the sin of which men do not speak.

NB: currently in progress and actively updating. Come shout at me about it!

cold, cold, the light of heaven

Explicit - 4,889 wds - Oneshot

Hans wakes on a winter's afternoon, in a cabin, with his Henry.

now I'll tell you the gift that will make me stay

Mature - 8,705 wds - Oneshot

The year is 1419. Fifteen years after that night at Suchdol, Hans Capon rules in Rattay, and hopes he's raised young Heinrich to be better than his father.

When Jan Hus is betrayed and burned for heresy at the Council of Constance, Bohemia begins to draw battle lines. With old friends and their own consciences allied to the Hussite cause, Hans and Henry should be as united as ever.

But when he is caught between his personal convictions, and political and financial strain, Hans' actions begin to tear him and Hal apart.

~ Dragon Age - Cullen Rutherford/Dorian Pavus ~

Make Me to Rest in the Warmest Places

Explicit - 117,037 wds - 10/10 chs

Cullen is struggling with his latest attempt at lyrium withdrawal in a castle full of mages. Lonely and bored, Dorian is burying his misery under wine and ill-advised encounters. They become obsessed with one another, with wholly inevitable results.

NB: There is a sequel to this in progress... maybe I'll even finish it one day...

reassemble road and compass

Explicit - 27,753 - 3/3 chs

Following Kinloch and Kirkwall, Cullen is impotent. Ashamed and lonely, he takes it as a punishment from the Maker. And then he meets Dorian.

[fascinationstreetmp3]

"i wasn't good enough for you so stop pestering me" then the sort of soft vulnerable shift in hans' expression the prolonged eye contact before he finally averts his gaze and the awkward silence between them being filled in by two dudes beating the crap out of each other and the musical performance going on in the background. kind of a cinematic masterpiece

[i-know-how-my-story-ends]

God I'm a sucker for characters who are so utterly loyal to someone that they're completely unhinged. Characters who have no moral compass except their overwhelming devotion to whoever they've chosen to listen to. That's the good shit

[scissorsaint]

(flirting) i could be your problem

[redstonedust]

unfortunately i dont think its queerbaiting if the creator is just so terminally heterosexual that they never remotely considered the same gender relationship their show is centered around could be read as romantic. it is deeply painful however.

[melanqueerly]

Maybe accidental queer baiting? The way someone may not mean to say something rude, but it may come off rude, so it's rude. Frustrating either way.

[phinarei]

Not being a dick, just a friendly clarification.

By definition you can't accidentally queerbait. Queerbaiting is specifically using a same sex pair from the show to market the show to queer audiences with no intention of ever following through on a romantic relationship.

There is officially licensed Destiel merch signed off on by Kripke. Teen Wolf had a commercial with the actors for Derek and Stiles draped over each other talking about being "on a ship." Both shows actively used scenes between them as marketing while actively mocking fans for wanting them together. Sherlock has multiple characters refer to Johnlock as a couple, including characters we're supposed to believe are never wrong about human behavior and pushed those scenes in marketing. Then they acted insulted when fans saw them as a couple.

That's queerbaiting.

Done on accident it would just be queer subtext. Done because they had no other choice due to censorship is queer coding.

The specific meaning of the word is really starting to get lost and it's a pretty important one to keep accurate. It describes a very specific phenomenon that was done repeatedly and maliciously for decades and is meant to examine that specifically.

Doing it on accident sucks, but it isn't a tactic of capitalism intentionally intended to suppress queer representation while making money from queer fans.

[joyandotherstories]

Reblogging to keep the accurate definition and examples of queerbaiting circulating in the world

[confused-pie]

Peer reviewed tags

[littleraeofsunshineda]

The thing, it becomes immediately clear, about writing original shit

Is that surely no-one is going to listen to me scream for nine hours about my vague world scenarios and ill-formed little gremlins

And i fear this is an essential part of my diseased brain's process

[actualmermaid]

The "character" of Jitka of Kunstadt is a microcosm of how people approach female characters in media, female characters in fandom, and by extension, women in real life.

This "character" does not appear at any point in the KCD canon. She does not have a game model. She has no lines of dialogue. All we know about her comes from 1) a summary and a stylized illustration in the codex and 2) various opinions from male characters. She is a non-entity. In the Silmarillion fandom, we call this type of character a "textual ghost."

And yet, because of her relevance and proximity to the male leads, she is an elephant in the room who must be addressed by serious fan creators. How you choose to portray her becomes your whole CV re: shipping, misogyny, the role of women in your story, and the role of women in your life. The fandom will read this CV and draw any conclusions they like from it. No matter how you choose to handle Jitka, she will be held up against the (nonexistent) "real" Jitka as determined by the headcanons of whoever is reading your interpretation.

What this means is that no matter how you handle Jitka, there is already someone who has chosen to believe that your interpretation is cheap, shallow, and misogynistic, simply because it is different from their idea of who Jitka of Kunstadt is supposed to be.

If she's cold and spiteful, she should have been warm and supportive. If she's warm and supportive, she should have been cold and spiteful.

If she's horny, she should have been chaste. If she's chaste, she should have been horny.

If she's a lesbian, she should have been straight. If she's straight, she should have been a lesbian.

If she's assertive and confident, she should have been shy and passive. If she's shy and passive, she should have been assertive and confident.

And so on and so forth.

An additional layer of interpretation comes from the fact that most fanfiction writers are female, and to some extent, the way we write Jitka is an answer to the question of "what would I want in this situation," coupled with the ever-present awareness of the "evil fujoshi sidelining women so the boys can kiss" stereotype. What may start as an honest attempt to give this fictional woman a happy life may be interpreted as "turning every female third wheel into a supportive hag wingman." But, if you write Jitka as an adversary and break up her marriage with Hans (again, in an attempt to release them from a life they didn't choose and might not want), then you're "demonizing and villainizing women who get in the way of your ship." There's no version of Jitka who will ever be acceptable to every reader, and no version of how you handle her relationship to Hansry will ever be "unproblematic."

"Jitka of Kunstadt" is an OC. She's a suggestion of a character. She's an invitation to self-insert. She's an invitation to rewrite, remix, and reinterpret. I reiterate: she does not appear in canon and has no lines of dialogue. She only exists to the extent that fan creators call her into existence.

There is no "correct" Jitka of Kunstadt. Instead, the way you write her will always be held up against an ever-shifting and paradoxical ideal as determined by the fandom at large. She will never, ever be "good enough."

So you might as well write her however you want.

[0111010001110010011000010111000]

does anyone wnt to turn into a creature with me. it does have to be weird btw

[bellaswans-khakiskirt]

[ratty-writer]

english major brain: words can evolve and develop as a society goes on. the way a word is used is its definition. it's pointless to hold onto the idea of right vs wrong words human brain: THAT IS NOT WHAT LARP MEANS!!!!!

[colubrina]

for the love of god, write all the self-indulgent scenes you want.  be utterly  shameless about including every last fantasy.  i know everyone likes to share quotes and quips about how miserably hard writing is, but please please try thinking of it as a joyful act where you get to be a messy human who makes art rather than some pain filled quest for icy perfection.

[colubrina]

“authenticity looks an awful lot like self-indulgence but it is the only way to find your true audience”

[kaelio]

[liarsblade]

there's this weird thing people fall into online a lot, where people assume that if the [perceived-to-be-inferior] version of [activity] is discouraged then people will, naturally, do [perceived-to-be-superior] version of [activity] instead. When really it's just as (or more) likely that if [perceived-to-be-inferior] version of [activity] is discouraged people just won't do it at all.

[liarsblade]

audiobook listeners are not necessarily people who would otherwise do a lot of traditional reading if audiobooks did not exist, many are people who simply would experience zero books. Booktok romance readers would not necessarily be reading the classics if booktok did not exist, many of them would simply not read. Fanfiction writers would not necessarily be novelists if fanfic wasn't an option, many would just be people who didn't write. You know?

[clockworkrobotic]

when i was a teenager i used to catch myself thinking "i'm really glad i'm alive right now because of all the cool personal technologies that exist" and when i did i'd think it through and reckon that well, its not like teenagers in the 70s and 80s knew they didnt have ipods or facebook or whatever. they were also happy with the tech they had. and i'd reason that in the future there would be more fun technologies that i dont know i'm missing out on right now and the future will be an even cooler time to exist

anyway i was dead fucking wrong about that last part. i hate personal technologies now. i miss having an ipod that doesnt advertise shit to me and i miss when my htc wildfire didnt harass me 45 times a day to install an ai assistant and then install it anyway when i say no and i miss when the internet wasnt 5 websites all of which i have to log into and i miss when i didnt need an app to talk to my landlord. sorry past me you were actually right about 2009

[themoonandmyman]

HR SEASON 2 ANNOUNCEMENT! They’ve officially cast The Weevil!

It’s rumoured that The Weevil will have a minor but nonetheless impactful role in the continued narrative of our explosive stars, Shane and Ilya. The young bug’s team has issued a statement on InstaGrain noting how excited he is to embody the fan favourite character.

[themoonandmyman]

I regret to inform you that due to recent scandal, the young rising star has been recast. It’s a true shame, but ultimately the actor taking the role is the lesser of two weevils..

[hexedvampire]

mutuals i'm coming over to be annoying and meow loudly

[insomniac-arrest]

if my liege lord looks at another soldier vassal in fellowship I'm going to *remembers suicide is an affront against the almighty* take a common grain rat as a wife

[failurescripture]