I have a pretty good life.

I am anonymous. And I will remain anonymous. This is the place where I'll write down what I could never say out loud. Is there such thing as love? My Family My sick Relationship with the Blade

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People are so disappointing.

He said he liked me. 

He said he wanted me.

And now you can't even text back.

Why does this always happen to me.

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Hey baby, don't do anything stupid ok? I love you okay?

I appreciate your message even though everytime I get messages like this I wonder if anyone on here would even notice me missing.

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Bleed him out. 

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I finally let someone into my life and he just decides to leave.

'We should stop seeing each other.'

No further explanation. But he's right.

I wouldn't want to be with myself either.

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I've had issues with my eating and my body for two years now.

It's been two years.

And I'm at my highest weight. 

I made a promise to myself to lose all the weight I've gained till Christmas.

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I'm feeling worse.

I gained so much weight. I feel like a whale. + my sister lost a lot of weight and I can't help but compare myself to her.

I'm too depressed to do my uni work and I can't concentrate on anything.

And I'm thinking about cutting more frequently.

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This is all just part of the war I'm waging against myself.

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Your post said... -I’m so weak.Mentally and physically. ...-My comment, Hang in there. You have strength that you do not know you even have. With love and peace, Wesley.

Thank you sweetheart. Right now I feel like I can't. I just feel so worn out and stressed out.

Thanks though. You made me feel like someone does care.

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I'm so weak.

Mentally and physically.

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It gets worse at night.

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hey lovely ? are you there ? i'm afraid for you

Yes, I'm still breathing and I'm making my way through the next week. Thanks for caring.

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Help me. I'm feeling suicidal right now. More than usually. Help.

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Why don't I just kill myself

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I haven't stepped on a scale in weeks.

It's about time.

I'm already scared.

It's going to kill me.

If it won't.

I will.

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I want my bones back.

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How will I ever get out of this labyrinth

Looking For Alask - John Green