thirsty - @wolfstarmicrofic - word count: 401
Oh fuck, it was so very, very awkward.
Thirteen years and they’d forgotten how to talk to each other, hadn’t they? They’d never be what they once were. Hug in the Shack or not, Sirius was stupid to hope. Remus had probably long moved on. He was too good, too perfect, for someone to not have realized.
They stood in the kitchen, Sirius trembling.
Not that he didn’t do that most of the time now.
And Remus…Remus just looked at the floor.
“I…thank you,” Sirius mumbled, unable to look away from the man he’d thought about for over five thousand nights without being able to kiss. “For letting me inside. You didn’t have to.”
Finally, Remus looked at him, his expression almost insulted. “Sirius. I–I’m the one who…fuck, I thought you killed them, Pads!” his voice crackled and fizzled, emotion weighing it down. He suddenly looked like he was drowning in regrets.
But Sirius had never once blamed him. “I thought you were the traitor. I…I stopped talking to you, near the end. He got in all of our heads, Rem. You can’t blame yours–”
“Well, I do,” the taller man snapped, face twisted.
Sirius swallowed. He wanted to reach out, to hold him, to kiss his perfect lips which somehow looked exactly the same even when marred with a new scar and dusted with over a decade of age. This was Remus. His Remus.
But did Remus still want him? Did he even remember how they’d been when they were young, before war had destroyed everything? How much Sirius had adored him…how much he’d adored Sirius?
The question nearly made him jump, it was so sudden. But Sirius just nodded, swallowing thickly. “Mm. I’ll take whatever you’ve got.”
And after a few quiet moments of bustling, Remus returned, handing Sirius a mug full of–
“Mint tea?” Sirius croaked, their eyes finally meeting. His whole body felt kind of floaty. “You remember?”
The taller man shrugged. “Your favorite, right?”
“I…but you hate it. Or did you change–?” Tears were in Sirius’s eyes, now.
“No. I just…I…it’s ridiculous, probably. But I…always kept it around. Couldn’t bring myself to get rid of it,” Remus admitted, pinching his lips together and looking at the ground.
A moment later, the mug fell to the floor with a crash–Sirius was too busy kissing Remus hungrily to hold much of anything.