[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I can be with him or just a moment and how he lingers as I push my hair over my shoulder, move in a way that my shirt creeps near my face I can't put my nose on it Sometimes I wonder if anyone will catch a whiff of him if I sit close Maybe its the uncertainty of where and when that makes it feel so welcomed To sit with myself and smell everything from closing the curtains to resting my head as he reties his shoes The bitter-sweetness of goodbye to a gentle reminder of the next hello

12:41am 10.12.17

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I wouldn’t be surprised if the sun gleams from behind our teeth or through our cheeks No matter how well we can hold it in, not much can dim something so blinding

9:49pm 10.8.17

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

Don't ask if I'm dating, I won't ever spill it Look over my shoulder or ask for my digits Don't wanna go out, and its not about you I'm just doing me, but I'm doing him too

2:17pm 9.28.17

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I don’t exist to entertain you to keep you company when you’re alone at night or to pity you when no one else is around I exist to experience to feel and breathe to look around and see an open field, not a fenced in yard that’s tied a leash around my neck, trying to make me heel I’m here to let my heart wander and tell me where it wants to go, not to feel bad for fake friends that only worry about how I can please them I’m not here to please anyone because my purpose isn’t to talk you out of liking me or into leaving me alone it’s to find happiness and hoping you can find some on your own

4:15am 9.24.17

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

Raised eyebrows and halted intuition Misplaced heartbeats Asking if there's water in my eyes and silently taking sips of yours How can I be here and feel like I'm missing it?

9.5.17 2:33am

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

An iceberg breaks The water got too warm it left no choice So the iceberg drifts off to sea knowing it used to be part of something bigger knowing that's still where it'd rather be

9.5.17 2.22am

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

No matter how hard you've scribbled on the page No matter how many layers the ink bleeds through, or the pressure of the pen imprints, If you keep flipping through, I promise blank pages lay ahead

9.2.17 1:52pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I may be a slave to my emotion but just because I'm a fool for love does not mean I'll be a fool for you

self-defense

9.2.17 1:43pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I find peace in poetry because my hand doesn't nag my brain to scribble on paper to prove I still have thoughts But my brain takes it's own will to nudge my hand A word falls into my mind like a grain of sand and my brain sheds around it like an oyster makes a pearl If I don't force myself to write, my mind does it on its own, showing me how I feel rather than trying to find what's missing I think sometimes its okay for blank pages to stay blank

8.18.17 2:36pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

If drunken words are sober thoughts, then imagine sober words whispered soft and strong enough to trail into the next morning Before, the only lips pressed against mine had been soaking in things other than apple juice But now the only sour left in my mouth is from the candy we shared Imagine a sweet aftertaste Words with no escape route Emotion with no excuse Connection without substance abuse

I’ve never felt love drunk until I’ve been alone with you 

8.18.17 2:28pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I catch myself sitting with hands over my eyes dimples ready to burst because what he's saying doesn't feel real until I can feel my heart beating in my ears and remember the feeling of his

8.9.17 11:29pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

When I'm high I get warm in the cheeks and I miss you

8.2.17 1:12am

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I feel naive for allowing myself to hope but when I catch myself hoping I feel deprived talking myself back into reality  I can't be hopeful that things will change if I'm hopelessly unable to set them in motion

8.2.17 12:22am

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

Suddenly all of the questions that were racking my brain didn't seem to matter anymore I got my fix Until next time,

7.31.17 11:11pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

When you're not sure what you're feeling go for a drive and reach your arm out the window Feel the warmth or the cold Feel the blessing of being able to decipher between the two Feel the wind brush through the hair on your arms The aerodynamics of your fingers and your wrist the breeze in every crease of your knuckles Breathe in the rush Because a rush of nature is the purest you will ever feel

7.25.17 12:04pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I don't love love because I'm sick of trying to love things I've never known

7.24.17 10:46pm

[looksbetterthanitsounds]

I've realized when I'm suffering I don't speak up because I dream of how wonderful life would be if it resolved on its own but as time passes I keep my breaths quiet and wait for someone to recognize the look in my eyes they ask why I haven't stood my ground they ask if I've let it absorb me Would you like to answer, or should I?

7.24.17 10:01am