The blog of Scott Goldsmith. Not a RP blog, I'm a fictive! I'm also pretty much every Scott, just primarily VSMP.
Bodily 22, actually 1628.
Methuselah. Coven mama-bear. Host and NPD and BPD symptom holder of a traumagenic system.
In simple terms, better than you. Stronger than you. Prettier than you. Richer than you.
Arospec + Gay + Poly
DMs open. Sourcemates are invited to interact, no doubles.
Minors DNI, occasional nsft under the #goldsmith: spicy tag. Not a top, sorry (not sorry) to disappoint. I don't care about syscourse, I don't participate in it and have no opinions on that front.
i don't mean to upset anyone with this, i just have a lot of thoughts and feelings and i feel the need to yell them to the void or i will explode.
if you don't have crippling dysphoria, you have no right to talk about the experiences of those who do.
you may not understand it, but you need to accept it.
having severe dysphoria and thus wanting to mend it is not overcompensating, not identifying with the trans label because it causes one dysphoria is not internalised transphobia.
dysphoria is not rational, but that does not mean it is open to critique. that does not mean people shouldn't take steps to fix their "irrational dysphoria".
if a trans woman feels the need to remove a rib, she needs to remove a rib. it may be dangerous, you might argue that there are women without pronounced waists. but it causes her dysphoria, and she needs to mend it. if it wasn't severely distressing, she wouldn't take the risk. you can't reason with this level of distress, you can't reason with crippling dysphoria.
before many typical trans surgeries were fully developed, they were extremely risky too. they only became safe because a lot of people were willing to take the risk. we owe everything to those before us who were willing to even die to feel like themselves.
that being said, someone having severe dysphoria and taking risks to mend it does not make someone with less dysphoria "not trans enough" either. they just experience dysphoria differently, and neither should be judged for it. please don't get on the cases of people who want to live as stealth, people who are willing to do extreme things to help their dysphoria. don't get on the cases of people who "don't do enough" either.
my issue is, i feel like people with less dysphoria speak for the whole community at times. i personally do not feel safe within it, and this is the only circumstance where i will even acknowledge being a part of it. please respect my decision on this matter.
everything we do is extreme and risky in the eyes of cis people anyway. if you do the same to your own community, you are no different than them. unconventional surgeries, risky ways of transitioning does not equal self harm. check your privilege.
they identify with the lambs, so they hate wolves for existing. both want to survive, it's not my fault i need to hunt to survive. it's not my fault i was born the way i was. i don't eat the lamb to cause misery. and i'm not going to hate my existence because it upsets you. i'm not going to suffer because somehow your suffering is morally worse.
people are complaining about me being woobied but WHO IS WOOBYING ME YALL ARE DOING THE OPPOSITE OF THAT
JFC I COULD SMILE AND YOUD CALL IT MANIPULATION (you probably already have!)
i'm not saying i have never lied nor manipulated. i have. i have threatened, i have been a bitch. but come the fuck on, i have some depth that everyone seems to be ignoring.
i feel like i'm so mistreated in this fandom, i do. everyone is too deep in their victim complexes and their actually woobified characters that they need an absolute evil to point the finger to.
the absolute evil does not exist. everyone is morally gray. get the fuck over yourselves
everyone wanted me to die at the end. fuck you, i'm not fucking dying. you hate me? i hate you just as much. i will survive just to piss you off.
