I’m Back Bitches

I had to delete my old account, same name ED / 15 / US / not proana

[theroguefeminist]

Just a reminder because apparently people don’t realize this, but the rainbow gay pride flag isn’t like…a gay male pride flag? it was literally meant as a pride flag for everyone in the community. not that there’s anything wrong with specific identities having their own flag, but i keep seeing ppl post flag sets as if the rainbow ride flag only represents gay men and saying that not including every single other flag known in existence means you’re excluding people when no it’s not the rainbow flag is for everyone

[beanierhodes]

I think this is really important for people who are daunted by all the labels and still figuring themselves out. It’s okay. The rainbow flag is yours too

[iwantthatkpopbody]

블랙핑크 젠니 - BLACKPINK Jennie

[lose-it-hoe]

Her waist to hip Dario I’m cRyiNg

[dream-catcherrr]

reblog if you need to lose 40 pounds (18kg) or more

[lose-it-hoe]

Do y’all know how hard it is to recover when the smell of your room reminds you of restricting?

[meggygrace]

Started my Lipstick Diary and can I just say, my lips are killing me.

[tohkyo]

cr: makeupmouse

[lose-it-hoe]

Boy: *does the cute thing*

Me: that’s so cute oh my god I love you :(

[lose-it-hoe]

Y’all sometimes malespo inspires me more than girl thinspo because instead of being like “yeah she skinny I wana look like her” my hetero-wired brain is like “oohh pretty boy, you could date pretty boy if you were skinny, be skinny get pretty boy”

Which like doesn’t really make sense cause I’m bi but whatever

[worndownsecretss]

Does any else sometimes has that kinda short-term, warmish feeling in their stomach from time to time when they’re fasting? Or am I just weird

[lose-it-hoe]

YES! And it kind of feels acidic? Anyone else get the throat thing too? Kind of like pop rocks but the back of your throat?

[daintily-sapphic]

My ED: Chris is that a food?? I’m c a l l i n g the police!

Me: No its just a tea-

Dispatcher: 911 what’s ur emergency?

[recoverornot]

[lose-it-hoe]

Ok but like not only is this guy awesome by defeating this hell we’re all going through but also he cute as fuck when he’s healthy

[diet-coke-kween]

7 Rings by Ariana Grande but ~ED Version~

My weight, be droppin’

No I, ain’t stoppin’

My voices be talkin’

My bones be poppin’

You like my body?

Gee thanks! Just starved it

I see it, I weigh it,

I hate it, I got it, y e a h

[lose-it-hoe]

My brain: Ok, here are your current options. You can be productive and do homework. You can be skinny and workout. Or you can be sad and romantic and write about your feelings.

Me: Hmm, I think homework would be the best option, but working out isn’t too bad either. Being sad and romantic doesn’t sound too fun so I’ll skip on that.

Brain: Ok, so which one?

Me: Actually I’m just going to avoid making a decision and sit on my phone scrolling through thinspo while only making myself feel worse because I’m not doing anything to better my situation. :)

Brain: Pretty sound logic, continue.

[turing-tested]

do NOT offer me a big spoon if you see me with a small one. i know what im fuckin doing

[scatterbrainedadventurelog]

can i offer a smaller spoon?

[turing-tested]

absolutely! finally, someone with some sense around here

[lose-it-hoe]

It’s literally the exact time of year as last year when I started really restricting(as well as doing all my work on time and generally being really motivated) so I think I’m gonna do it again. I’m gonna start keeping an ana journal again, but this time be more positive and kind to myself. I know it’s delusional but this time I’m trying to have the disordered eating without the disordered mind ya know?

[lightsareoffbutsomeoneshome]

Anorexia

Anorexia isn’t losing weight so you can look like the girls in the pictures. It is never going out to lunch with your friends. It is isolation. It is eating 4 baby carrots at 5 pm or else you’ll pass out. It is counting every calorie that touches your lips And throwing it back up when you make a ‘mistake’. Anorexia is shaky hands. Anorexia is waking up with pale skin and dark eyes. It is accidentally bingeing because you haven’t eaten in 3 days and destroying yourself for it. Anorexia is checking the menu before hand so you know the option with the least calories. Anorexia is obsessively planning out your meals every single day. It is staying up until 2:36 am looking at the thinspo tag. It is not eating the next day because you have new ‘goals’. Anorexia is standing up too fast and blacking out. Anorexia is stepping on the scale twice a day and still being angry with yourself when the number is plummeting down. Anorexia is lying and isolation and anger. It is skin and bones and your parents asking why you look so thin. It is deceit. It is hunger. It is dying.

[hikaemeni]