Hi people!! Im new here and I needed cute friends to interact with me ^^
HOLD UP- I sound so creepy please believe me╥﹏╥
I want to start blogging since it's vacation and really, I have nothing else to do with my plenty free time(*╹▽╹*)
PLEASE IGNORE MY DESIGNS RN IM JUST EXPERIMENTING CUZ I WANT THOSE ADORABLE BLOGS DESIGN BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE TUMBLR SO PLEASE EXCUSE ME!!!＼(;´□｀)/ IM LITERALLY JUST ADDING HEADERS I GOT FROM PINTEREST-
So uhm,,, I think blogging is a very underrated activity. This ain't well known in my country. I was convinced no one do this anymore ☹️🙏 Whether or not I still want to try this at least once in my life. Really I just adore the blogging idea in some anime I watch like Asako Natsume from My Little monster(๑'ᴗ')ゞ🌺
I don't mind if people just ignore my blogs, I just want to share my daily life in my own way and— English is not my first language and most of the time Im just too lazy to fix my grammar( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ) I believe someday, I will eventually find my People, I hope so. PLEASE TALK TO ME😭🙏💗
About me... Ermmmm
Im Athena (OBV. IT'S NOT MY REAL NAME HUHU🥹🌸 Just the same initial:33 but please call me this or anything that's not nasty i don't mind)
Not so innocent..
My country's in Asia :D
My hobbies depends on my available time and mood^^
I love to draw, paint, scrapbooking, journaling, idk cleaning my room, watching comedies and romance movie or series or anime:). The Middle and To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar, Mean girls, Horimiya, my Little Monster, Tokyo Revengers (kinda random LOL) THERE'S PLENTY!!!
My music taste is random, whatever feels right for me but when I get caught by a song prob because of the meaning of the lyrics IDK IF IM MAKING SENSE BUT YEAH-
I love day dreaming and making scenarios like literally everyday
Im looking forward to sharing my life happenings with you People!! And I would definitely love to read your blogs about your day idk see ya!!🌸💗((٩(´͈ᗨ`͈)۶))
I just trimmed my bangs for the very first time!! I don't know it it suits me or not but i guess it's fine... Okay im gonna say it again for how many times— idek(╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻
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Im bored. Ye━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━s!!, I AM SO BORED. And broke(*╹▽╹*) My friend visited me earlier but we both were too lazy to go out. We did tho but we went home immediately cuz we got no where to go.. She's have like super super strict parents. I can't explain why but while we're walking we we're smiling like crazy but it feels nice. I saw the guy that dumped me got new hair cut lol and when I get home I stalk his IG acc to see if he's still with the girl she replaced me with and yes they are still together:3 Good for them and for me tho!
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It's random but, whenever I stare at someone or something like for a long time or even short ngl, I WAS ACTUALLY APPRECIATING THEIR BEAUTY LIKE- idk if its just me but I genuinely find EVERYONE pretty and handsome!(°∀°)b I really wish they look at me the same way as I does(Ｔ▽Ｔ) I just find my self thoughtful at those times n I want to reward my self with something lol
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Im breaking out so bad rn but it doesn't hurt and I don't really care that much now since it just used up my energy for hating my self LMAO
Lately I've been playing with the boys game MLBB Mobile and we are actually bros and confidants there!（*＾3＾）It's nice playing with them(˶‾᷄⁻̫‾᷅˵) they never judge me fr for what ever role I play, my rank, and how I play (sometimes it's really baddd:')) But I've been declining their invitations since when I let my self play, i know it will took me hours before I stop and since they invite me at night most of the time, it's ruining my sleep schedule which not to mention is ridiculously messed up! And I want to bring back my 9pm bed time and 6 am morning bruh.. Im working on that now, I also have to clean my tab and some cache so it won't mess up my mind too(° ͜ʖ °)
Im also working on some pubmats for our YES-O page and soon I'll ve watching some leadership videos guide so I can actually make my journey as an organization President smooth and not make the same mistake I did for the past years😔☝ I decided that I will be focusing on that organization and my academic performance and not with being class officers now since it will only add up to my stressors I certainly believe😀🥀
I just trimmed my bangs for the very first time!! I don't know it it suits me or not but i guess it's fine... Okay im gonna say it again for how many times— idek(╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻
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Im bored. Ye━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━s!!, I AM SO BORED. And broke(*╹▽╹*) My friend visited me earlier but we both were too lazy to go out. We did tho but we went home immediately cuz we got no where to go.. She's have like super super strict parents. I can't explain why but while we're walking we we're smiling like crazy but it feels nice. I saw the guy that dumped me got new hair cut lol and when I get home I stalk his IG acc to see if he's still with the girl she replaced me with and yes they are still together:3 Good for them and for me tho!
It's random but, whenever I stare at someone or something like for a long time or even short ngl, I WAS ACTUALLY APPRECIATING THEIR BEAUTY LIKE- idk if its just me but I genuinely find EVERYONE pretty and handsome!(°∀°)b I really wish they look at me the same way as I does(Ｔ▽Ｔ) I just find my self thoughtful at those times n I want to reward my self with something lol
Im breaking out so bad rn but it doesn't hurt and I don't really care that much now since it just used up my energy for hating my self LMAO
Lately I've been playing with the boys game MLBB Mobile and we are actually bros and confidants there!（*＾3＾）It's nice playing with them(˶‾᷄⁻̫‾᷅˵) they never judge me fr for what ever role I play, my rank, and how I play (sometimes it's really baddd:')) But I've been declining their invitations since when I let my self play, i know it will took me hours before I stop and since they invite me at night most of the time, it's ruining my sleep schedule which not to mention is ridiculously messed up! And I want to bring back my 9pm bed time and 6 am morning bruh.. Im working on that now, I also have to clean my tab and some cache so it won't mess up my mind too(° ͜ʖ °)
Im also working on some pubmats for our YES-O page and soon I'll ve watching some leadership videos guide so I can actually make my journey as an organization President smooth and not make the same mistake I did for the past years😔☝ I decided that I will be focusing on that organization and my academic performance and not with being class officers now since it will only add up to my stressors I certainly believe😀🥀
It's Athena and she's back ongiheahajnsak— So... Another school year is waiting ahead and yesterday we bought school supplies and my bagヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ
Apparently I have this one bag that I want but it was too expensive:< It's the bash bag and unfortunately it's only available online so my mom decided that we should buy one from SM supermart and I chose the closest one to what I originally want(͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) It's not the exact, there's no tumbler pocket inside, no key chain loop something, no hook for your wallet or keys on the small compartment BUT— my mom took time and helped me choose my bag, it's the effort that counts so im really happy that we're happy:DD It's also 3x cheaper than the bash bag but it looks extremely cool! It's water proof too:33
Did a simple fit but I don't really care rn and i don't know why I just know im living MY life and not anyone's:DD
I bought lots of ballpens and it's so pretty!(ˊᵒ̴̶̷̤ꇴᵒ̴̶̷̤ˋ)꒰ I really hope my classmates actually buy theirs and not stole mines cause I had enough of them:') Then I saw a plush keychain kind of similar to my gray bunny one that I bought for 3x the price of the one I saw there! It's wayyyy cuter tbh and it fits perfectly with my bag!(*╹▽╹*) Then earlier I ordered direct liquid acrylic markers which I will receive by May 17-18!
Also, lately im still so bored and then I decided to try journaling again to where I can express my feelings and emotions freely like— FREELY. You know, I don't care about my penmanship, what color my ballpen is, if it's chaotic, because at the end of the day, the pages look so beautiful（*＾3＾） I can't explain it buy its like uhmm beautiful in a way that it has it's own feelings. Scribbles = messy thoughts, mindless font = bored/tired, normal = peaceful/happy. I started filling up my sketch book too! Same as my journal, I do my arts freely:33
Sooner or later I will be starting a temporary business so I can earn extra money before school starts(°∀°) It's by printing sticker subject and names label. I have designed several kids theme designs but I haven't posted it yet since I still can't print some samples but I'll do it later:DD
And update on my acne problems, currently, IDGAF.(╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻ I started appreciating my self more (I got tired LMAO) I hope it last..
I love my family too! Yesterday, I overheard a lot from my mom and Auntie's conversation and it was about family, and such. I was humbled to the max but I only feel slight guilt unlike before:) I know im lucky to have such loving and patient family
Alright, it's random but I feel bad for not spending time with my sister more so... Yeah:(
I might be asking for so much from my family and somehow I can't seem to figure out what do they really want. Do they want to spend that amount of money on me for my happiness or nah?? But really im more than thankful for what I have(˶‾᷄⁻̫‾᷅˵) I have the things I want years ago and what more could I ask? Maybe there's some but I guess I can buy it on new year or every month since I receive my monthly allowance. Regardless of which, Im still thankful for them I love you parents and lil sis!(´∀｀)♡
Im so glad I gathered enough courage to make blogs again૮₍ ´ ꒳ `₎ა Honestly it's been bothering me that I have so much happenings to tell you, angels..:'( But that time I was just so bored and lazy and quite lost— that stubborn pimple on my nose made lot of impact somehow and I got more break outs by then and it was so painful૮(˶╥︿╥)ა
(WARNING: VERY LONG BLOG AHEAD⚠︎❯❯❯❯!!)
(Sanzu's so prtty(´∀`)~)
I just know that my period's near and I thought it was just another phase where I literally crash out and curse my whole existence(Ｔ▽Ｔ) Though I was right, I still cried𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯 I know my period's irregular so I decided to search for a good menstruation tracker and I found the MUSA app♡ I still can't believe it was a week ago... There's a feature where you can log the symptoms and it'll measure whether it's common or unusual on whatever phase you are in,, Im still at the luteal phase but lowkey better(°∀°)b I don't have money to buy the premium experience cuz im still going broke smh but I guess it'll do:33 Don't really need that much since it gives the daily trivia and it kinda makes me wanna visit the app more often, daily even and adds up the dragon I've been feeding with our daily streak lol (It hatched(( ≧ᗜ≦)!!) It makes me sad when I thought of the fact that I will soon be busy and ignore the app again(╯︵╰,) As for my pimples, im happy the Benzac gel spot treatment thing I ordered arrived and I can get to use it already... I was a bit concern cuz it feels warm prob because it's DAMN 35°c that day OKAY(° ͜ʖ °) (it saids don't store in high temp so lowkey worried it might do something i don't want to) and I can't afford to worsen my situation or I'll be living my summer break with grief and insecurities and get stressed abt school at the same time bruhh( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°) It works:DD! (Never thought of it since no products has ever got rid of my pimples, this is the most impressive nn so far even though I never really expect some magical shinanigans to happen O×O) Idk if it just healed by it self or it's because of the gel anyhow I still doubt the ability of this treatment but let it slip cuz I can't forget the fact that it costs my very last penny:')— I even panicked cuz I remember my mom borrowed my money and still hasn't gave it back until my parcel came OQHSOANOWNAOWNSYBX oh yeah that happens-(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) During that time I had this weird pain on my lower abdomen and my first instinct is its because of my workout specially the crunches( ╹ -╹)? or was it the waist trainer (low possibility given that I rarely use it) or maybe... *gasp* Im developing health problems with regards to my whole ass reproductive system— that scared the life out of meಥ_ಥ!! Im scared even with constant reassurance that it'll be alright.. I've imagined the worst case scenarios I could get my self into but I convinced my self it was just some random pain that will soon go away, nothing serious ofc.. It does go away after we went for a pool outing (4 days coping with pain and fear of losing my mind:'))!! SPEAKING of workout, yeah,.. I stopped to recover from that pain(⌒_⌒;) I don't fully gave up yet, just resting, considering that I also spent money to buy resistance bands (which I can't use properly and sadly I never actually used it- im scared lol) sooner or later, who knows maybe I'll do it again, no^^?
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I don't mind going all out writing this blogs cuz I've been so bothered on how many checklist is it on my notepad (I save my ideas to do later..:33✦˖) that I haven't yet done n it stresses me out＼(;´□｀)/ It will make me genuinely happy if you made it this far reading my blog, such a patient angel you are૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა💗! If not its fine too💕🌷!
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During that last 6 days I would have guessed, It was so ugh, boring╮(─▽─)╭! All I did was to bed rot cuz I can't go out just yet, not until my pimple healed ig( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ).. I can't survive people's eyes and words saying I have a BIG zit on my nose like I never wake up and look at the mirror smh those dopes— VULGAR! (Sorry.. I have internal battles if I should allow my self to curse cuz im not really used to it(҂⌣̀_⌣́)) I did chores, cleaned my room multiple times, make my bed, clean my tab, all but to do what I want to do; scrapbooking˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀.. I've been wanting to print stickers and pictures for scrapbooking but im just so lazy- but I want to do it!! Also, im currently watching Love is War anime since Love is hard for otaku didn't hyped me up:\\ (it was adult love and I don't like it when im watching people smoke and drink.) Love is War is good, honestly at first I thought it was a fantasy themed with super powered characters which are mainly students in an academy fighting eachother which is the reason why I never dared to watched it before but turned out it was just the dramatic ahh narrator who's giving the whole vibe plus some part of the animation(￣ω￣;) Im on season 2 rn, it's fun yeah(๑'ᴗ')ゞ🌺 I felt some certain warmth when I come across the thought that I have watched n actually watching movies when all my life I just don't get why people love watching movies as I refuse to watch one prob because im scared it'll leave me broken or traumatised at the very least૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა Im so glad I found the movies I can watch without going insaneಥ⌣ಥ It's same for the stories im reading on wattpad... God knows how much im protecting something vulnerable inside me even when I become very choosy or take me forever to find the soft spot- just know that I'd rather not watch nor read anything if its going to hurt meヽ（´ー｀）┌
Im.... still not over that one story that literally fits my preferences (9.9/10) and got deleted/hidden/reposted somewhere i didn't know- I was like "WHEN, WHERE, WHY" for god's sake it hurts me A LOT╥﹏╥ and worse is that I don't have the author's name isjiqjwihshfiivkkbf Like literally I woke up that day and decided to re-read that story for idk how many times which proves my point that it was indeed a good page(Ｔ▽Ｔ)! *sobs* I checked my wattpad and IT'S GONE😭! I tried searching it up and even unsealed my journal where it was written on my Library page thingy and tried to look up for the author's name but THERE'S NONEಥ⌣ಥ I found the link on chrome eventually but it was like "It was lost and never came back." and I was like "no shitsherlock" im so depressed💔🥀 I tried making message abt it but I just realised I don't have followers to share it to— OH LIFE(˶‾᷄⁻̫‾᷅˵)... Breathe in, sniff em fresh air, life is good— It was the 2ND TIME a good book was taken away from my hold- On top of all that, I have this one habit that whenever I encounter new words or phases, I won't be at ease until im cognizant of it so it kinda ruins the fun when Im watching or reading as I know I will be always coming back and find that word/phase and eventually add it to my notes to use later(°∀°)b Safe to say that im thirsty for a wide ranged vocabulary૮꒰˶ - ˕ -꒱ა Actually, all shi pays off when journalists season arrives lol. Unfortunately, I never made it to RSPC- as always kinda disappointing tbh, I hope I made it next timeദ്ദി/ᐠ｡‸｡ᐟ\!
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Idk, sometimes I made up phrases I don't exactly know the meaning but as long as it sounds right, it's fine plus if it sounds cool, its fine
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So then, this current days, I've been engaged on reading headcanons again♡ It's my long forgotten comfort hobby after all( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ These hcs gave me ideas on what to daydream abt but it's a little harder now since c.ai has been messing up:// I mean, it's fine to add ads and age verification for safety and audits reason (lowkey on this side( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)) but majority or the users including me are convinced it made the app unusable by chance╮(─▽─)╭ You're prob wondering what it has to do with my day dreaming. Oh well, because I know making my own bots and living up the same hcs through chats helps me a lot in terms of my literacy and my wellbeing:33 Similar to how you feel more relieved when you write your thoughts down, it helps minimise stress from storing these hcs🌸💗 I prefer chat bots than to write a whole story even if I wanted to:') Im just not motivated enough, i know writing stories' not made for me or I just simply can't do it lmao😭 I can't stand making lines and dialogues for characters(° ͜ʖ °) It cringe me tf.. But somehow, in some ways, daydreaming abt these hcs makes me awfully unproductive...
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I started making this blog in the early evening and now it's late( ˶°ㅁ°)!! Im so locked in fr(´∀`) I HAVEN'T EVEN DESIGNED IT YET, IT LOOKS SO TEDIOUS, N IM ACTUALLY USING PUNCTUATION MARKS SUCH AS THIS!>>>>(.) Though it feels natural for me, I can't let this ruin the whole cutesy blogging vibes as it actually helps encourage me re-read it again and be astonished on how much effort I put all throughout the blog໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১ Mhhkay, my period's be so late now:[ I'll continue this tomorrow.. But I have a feeling I won't until next week- lol don't wanna jinx sht😃☝
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Just woke up tired and pissed somehow new pimples appeared on my left cheek but it's just mild Ig I can make do of that:// So yeah— abt 5 days ago, I dreamt of something so realistic that Im so thankful hallelujah kumbaya🙇♀️🙇♂️ I woke up before I started bawling my eyes out in the early morning😀 So the story goes like this; its dark, its night, we are on an island and my mother got kidnapped by some kind of ugly pirates🥀 and then I ran to the woods as she told me so while I was carrying my lil sis cuz apparently I feel like there's someone following us( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°) We are soaked that time and I decided that we should rest and sleep in the woods, all soaked, im feel so pitiful n I feel bad for my sis:( And then I woke up and mannn I left my sister to get some news from the people there which I know wasn't there when the kidnapping happened:) and wasn't even there in the first place bruh- I swear these dreams are so creative૮꒰ ˶Ó ˕ Ò˶ ꒱ა! So then I managed to find a village and people n instead of asking them how to get out of this island, I beg them for pillows and blanket stuff??? cuz wtf girl we slept on the woods last night ain't letting that happen again— I asked abt my mother and they just said casually that women are getting kidnapped and never came back🙆♀️ in that place and I was like- "holy sht" The people who helped me are some kind of indigenous people so I kinda ask what's their name so I can come back and pay them back but idk man I asked them to write their name but they just look at me like they don't know how to write( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ) omfg it's fine tho:], (I remember it was the first name of my math teacher LMFAO) they even pull out a booklet where their address and personal info are written but somehow I manage to get none plus it was like hours and I know it's hot where I left my sister— oh yeah my sister.. I snap back n thanked the kind people because scary scenarios of my sister looking for me ALONE flood my mind n that time I heard voice calling for me that the lunch is ready? Oh my.. It's my auntie, it's so casual and the last thing I knew was their house was few blocks away- I- In the island? Really now? And then I woke up.. The plot was not realistic at all, but it feels like so,I almost cried LMAO😃
The next day (sunday) we went on an unplanned pool outing✧*｡٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و✧*｡ It's so out of the blue that all the near resorts are full so there was like 3 resorts we tried but its all full and overcrowded so we got toooooo far from where we are supposed to be smh im so hungry╥﹏╥, I haven't have my breakfast yet( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ) Then we reached this really BIG resort it's so pretty and its enormous✨like— it has parks, multiple pools for both kids and adults, towering slides, wide roads and paths, hundreds of cottages and rooms~ I even thought there's only few people here which I doubt it since it's Sunday:^, But turns out it's just so big for me to see the other people there. It's ike a whole ass city!!✨😃 With the with the cheapest price!!(˶‾᷄⁻̫‾᷅˵) That time I thought im gon faint fron dehydration so I got excited when I saw an ice cream vendor and I ate 3 ice creams in a cone in total ywhsuwjsjwnwka and ate a lot cuz im so hungry n I need energy since I know I'll be watching over my cousins and sister duh... I actually want to create a separate blog for this cuz originally it's supposed to be since I have story to tell during that day://
So this happens, at first I look over all my counsins and sister cuz I was trying to be nice and useful enough to give the adults time to enjoy themselves besides, im also at a very good mood maybe because I ate a lot or the ice cream?? Then my one Tita (auntie) came and said, "Why aren't you still swimming?" N I said because it's still hot and I don't wanna burn my skin so I continued watching over the kids but later I also wanted to try the other pool with my older cousins so when my mom and tita went after the kids, I ask them that I'll be going with my counsins on the other pool and they were like, yeah sure be careful:] That's the cue so we went there but we didn't really took that long, I tried the twirl slide 2 times, I even got scared at first cuz I can't handle heights well(Ｔ▽Ｔ) I also couldn't swim much, there's people on every corner and I don't wanna be in the middle cuz its way too deepಠ_ಠ so we went back to the kiddie pool and they were gone so we decided to play tag..✦ ݁˖ I was having my life there, I was so tired (this is where the pain on my lower abdomen disappeared ig), I couldn't run properly in the water which makes the game more fun, I even found a perfect hiding spot and chicken out awkwardly when I hear the person behind me talk (I thought he called out my name bcuz I got caught (° ͜ʖ °)) That took us more time actually and we decided to go back to the cottage.. And when we got back, our tita was like mad at us for leaving the kids on their watch while we had our time( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)? I was like so damn pissed cause why didn't you just tell us instead of holding it against the oblivious us?? We literally have no idea that shi happened and we never expect it since they agreed that we go have some fun. I was so irritated as its a way to ruin my intire mood I protected and build carefullyಥ⌣ಥ.. I was on the verge of crying (i was on my luteal phase still meaning I was more sensitive:33) so I left the cottage and sat somewhere alone watching the kids from afar. I really really really wanna confront her.. I hate it sm. Then I swore I will never engage in outing like that with THEM. i mean, I am a kid still right? And its not my responsibility to look after them to begin with. It's Y'ALL ADULTS responsibility passed on us who also wants to have fun>:( Why did we even tug along, to enjoy the pool right＼（〇_ｏ）／? This whole thing is nonsense! JwishishwshsI tried being kind and patient tf(╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻
Anyways, yesterday I received the barrette clips I ordered˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀ I don't know how to use it for half ups it just keeps falling and doesn't hold well:(( Idk y half ups doesn't suit me anymore but I used the other to clip my hair efficiently( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ) I just remembered something from yesterday, I don't know if I should tell it here or not- so here's what happened— I was asked to fix my grandma's phone (or her bf phone rather smh that whore—) cuz its having ads everywhere as if im a technician or sum kind of a goat hacker protagonist to do it lol Well.. I kind of got traumatised while deleting the pictures and images iykyk there's like lots of pornies and nudes idk I feel so awkward since my grandma's beside me so I tried to intentionally pull away the phone cuz I know them eyes aren't that sharp LMAO(° ͜ʖ °) I don't know why and how I got my self into this awkward ahh situation but all I know was I was too scared to scroll down and prayed it was over already— yeah that shi happens..
Mmhhh, that's all abt 1 week of my absence໒꒰˵- ˕ -˵꒱১ It clearly explains why its hella long lmfao(°∀°)b I still have to design it and I still have 2 checklist I can't manage to sneak in this blog so might as well create a separate blogs for it yeah:33
Okay during the last minute, Tumblr literally crash out and my edits didn't got save so I was kinda pissed cuz I put lots of time n efforts for it not to be saved. Good thing I still remember some which made it easier for me but it stil pmo bruh(╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻
Hello people. I just shredded tears while watching The Princess Diaries and lemme ask u angels... If you already watched it, did it make you cry? Cuz I think I was being too emotional!! Like yeah there's a sad part but why cry? IDK if it's because my period is near and oml, is that why im crying? I bet I can watch the movie with stoic face when im on normal days. Just how powerful are these menstruation?
Yeah... It's a bad day for me today, I feel like I don't want to take a bath (I HAVE TOO IT WAS SO HOT TODAY HERE I CAN'T WITH 34°c), I just over eat again and my face hurts im so done. This is the first blog I actually cursed please forgive me, I never cursed in my whole life irl trust!! I hope I survive the day and this pimples get out of my face already and my period come already and leave immediately.
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And an update about a pimple on the tip of my nose, IT HURTS LIKE SHIT. i just cussed, IM SO SORRY I JUST... I JUST WOKE UP AND MY FACE HURTS LIKE I GOT A SUNBURN OR SUMTHIN I BET IT WAS THE PERIOD TOO OH GOD WHY CAN'T WE LIVE PEACEFULLY FOREVER. I don't even wanna touch my face. I just don't understand, Im doing my best to get rid of this pimples, im willing to be broke to buy skincare and shit but it keeps coming back like hell please enough already. And why am i yapping abt my pimples now jdjwsihskwjsisjww OH MAYBE BECAUSE IT WAS ALL GONE LAST LAST DAY AND NOW IT'S BACK TO RUIN MY LIFE OH IM SO DONE HUHUHU IM SO CRYING RN IDK WHY WHO HURT ME IDK MY PIMPLE HURTS UGHHH WHAT KIND OF MOOD IS THIS- AND, and not to mention my stress eating, man I was on diet but I keep eating too much and too much sweets, how do I stop OH MY IM NOT EVEN FAT JUST MY THIGHS IG (I don't want my thic thighs to change) BUT THEY SAID IM NOT FAT AND I SHOULD EAT MORE LIKE HELL YEAH I WOULD WANT TO BUT IM ON DIET REMEMBER IM ON CALORIE DEFICIT AND I CAN'T LET SHIT UNMOTIVATE ME BUT THIS PIMPLE SUCKS OML PLEASE LEAVE MY FACE ALREADY. Are you pimples not done on my face CUZ IM SO DONE WITH YOU BITCH- AND NOW I FEEL BAD FOR CUSSING TOO MUCH, I DON'T WANNA CUSS AND I DON'T CUSS BUT- OWHSIHSIWHS IDK ANYMORE I JUST WANT MY FACE TO HEAL LIKE UGHH IM SO DONE. This the worst by far and I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. THERE'S LIKE 2 DIFF PEOPLE WRITING THIS BLOG, ATHENA AND ATHENA WITH PERIOD COMING SOON. And yesterday? I was so stressed idk why i dk what to do last night so I scrapbook and it helped me alot and im happy, it was so thick and all but I ran out of pages so I sealed it and officially closed that chapter. And I also try crocheting and I was doing good, tho I was having trouble with yarns cuz I haven't have bought one quality yet CUZ IM GOING BROKE REMEMBER? Fuck pimples. Anyways— I bought one expensive yarn from here and I can only afford one and it's not even a good quality like no shitsherlock im so pissed smh that bitch luckily the angel who gave me yarns- his yarns yarns unlike the one i bought but unfortunately it was running out so I pray it last until Im done with the bunny im making. I believe I was half way through. I was having a hard time making a simple star too which originally what im gonna do suppose to be but I end up making bunny cause I find it more easy at least. I already made a star (not 3d) and it end up looking like a flower, I made my first ever project which is a simple ribbon and I was like "Crocheting is so easy what are you guys yapping about?" Then it's my turn for a REAL project and yeah I was humbled. Big respect for people who crochet please live all you want and keep your price high, and I made a leaf something or sprout for headphones or cables and it wokrs just fine 6.5/10, not bad but it's yellow I don't have green.
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I hope y'all are doing good💗
(This is from the Princess Diaries, I just find it funny and adorable and i thought I'll make a meme with these when im back on my normal me:33)
What would ur ideal life be like? As in what Job would you have, what country would you live in, what house would you have et cetera
I want my life to be peaceful, quiet but happy. I want my house with lots of plants, veggies, fruit and flower garden, large backyard with pool, a pond with fish and lotus flower, I want it simple and the type of house where you have everything that you won't need nor want to go out.
I want to be a teacher prob. kindergarten or so and have a loving husband and a child or two who I can teach good manners, things I wish I have, and live on a country with 4 seasons. I want neighbours who I can greet good morning, afternoon and evening and they will greet me back with a warm smile specially elders who loves to sit and read on their terraces. I would love to spend time with them and I could also bring my child and have a good relationship with grandma/grandma neighbour and I would share my home made food like lasagna, apple pie, cookies, or cakes.
I want everything to be smooth and happy like beam a bright light to lighten everyone else. I also want to buy my parents their dream house, car, and life. I can buy them groceries every month or week or just give them unlimited money to see them smile. I want to see them doing anything but working. It's their time to relax and I want my parents to start living like teenagers again (like go on a date something). Me and my husband and child would visit them occasionally and cook for them and go out with them.
And our home, I want my husband to help me clean the house and cook. I want my life to be free, I want to be free. No rush or anything stressing.
Would u ever go bald? Why or why not and if yes would you try to hide it in public or would you dazzle everyone with your shiny dome?
ABSOLUTELY!! I would love to go bald to finally get this hair outta my face（＾ω＾）I feel like it will be a big relief but irl I wouldn't really dare for some reason IDK but if I can I WOULD!!✧*｡٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و✧*｡ Hide it from public?? Erm... Hard one but if I do I can't really hide it from public unless I have a very realistic cheap wig lol(≧∇≦)/
Where are your questions coming from, bunny?( ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)
