What is Lost is Gained.

A healthy weight loss blog. I, in no way, condone or promote unhealthy weight loss or eating disorders, but I do talk about them here. PCOS, vegetarian, healthy and happy. :) Height: 5'8" SW: 283lbs/ 20st 3lbs CW: 233lbs/ 16st 9lbs GW1: 250lbs/ 17st 12lbs GW2: 225lbs/ 16st 1lb GW3: 200lbs/ 14st 3lbs GW4: 175lbs/ 12st 7lbs GW5: 150lbs/ 10st 10lbs GW6? 130lbs/ 9st 4lbs Start BF%: 49.4% Current BF%: 42.1% Start BMI: 44.3 Current BMI: 35.4 {All calculated on scale}

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Busy, busy, busy.

Is what I've been lately. Between work, socialising, going to Bristol etc, I've had no time to update and I apologise!

I'm at a steady 233 still, keeping the carbs low(although I did eat out last night and had a dessert(eton mess with ice cream) and on came 2lbs of water weight but 1% loss of fat?) and I think I'm going to turn into a chicken salad if I eat it once more. But it's so good...

I had a two day job this week with a woman who lost 6st/84lbs through following Paleo/caveman. I can't tell you how good it felt to be able to talk to someone who got it, you know. Someone who wouldn't be like, 'yeah, but bacon is bad for you, and eggs are full of cholesterol, chicken skin is really fattening'. She understood. So we spoke about diets and weight loss on our lunch breaks and it was good. 

Gym has been more weight lifting orientated and I love that, I can feel some more definition coming through my arms! I'm going for a walk instead today as I'm not feeling too well today(through bending over all day yesterday painting little kids faces and just general headache-y). Hope everyone is well! Will try to keep you all updated as much as poss. <3

[lostgained]

Low carb chocolate. It exists.

I'm not lying to you! 

Lindt 90%, 14g of carb for the whole bar. But it's something to get used to, usually I'd power through an 85% bar, but this one is harder! So it lasts.

[lostgained]

A couple of pictures turned up on a board at work...

And I looked at them and all I could think was..."I look normal." For the first time in forever, I didn't feel like I stuck out, or that I looked absolutely terrible or felt bad about myself. I just...looked...normal. Although my weight has stayed the same for a while, my body must be changing and I could see that in those pictures. Finally! Feels good man.

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Mid morning realness. Excuse my state, I am cooking my breakfast!

Hope you have all had an awesome weekend!

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If you're wondering where I've been.

I've been super busy with work! Every day, hectic. Keeping up with the gym though, my diet has been on for the past week apart from a day or two where I socialised with friends but other than that I've just been busy burrowing down.

Hope you're all well!

Add my on MFP: AnonDuck :)

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Taking a quick break from your regularly-scheduled body-love hour:

I’ve been trying to figure out why I have so much trouble loving my body and finding myself as sexy as I find other women, and for the longest time I thought it was because of my size. But that doesn’t make sense- I love my tummy and my thighs and my butt and all of that, and I find women attractive with way more mass than I have, so what the eff is it? And last night, in ballet, standing behind a girl who looks to be roughly the exact same size as me, I figured it out: 

it’s actually my shoulders! 

I’m built like a rectangle. I have broad shoulders and no real “curves” to speak of when being looked at head-on. I just don’t have a feminine shape, I suppose. 

So, now that I’ve figured that out, I’m sure there’s other ladies out there with rectangle bodies who have found a way to love love love themselves: Tell me your secrets!

[foggypebble]

I’m browsing the body positivity tag and saw this. Okay, broad shoulders are AWESOME, they can make you look more hourglass if you carry fat/muscle in your thighs/butt/hips/stomach, they look great in clothes (think the things some ladies wear in those fashiony business suits to puff out their shoulders and give that angular look), they can look either dainty or tough, they sometimes make your boobs look bigger (or maybe that’s just my pigeon chest), if you/your arms aren’t “fit” you’ll still look so because muscular people typically have broader shoulders, you can get that cool look where you drape some of your hair in front and some tendrils curl over and behind your shoulders…broad shoulders are awesome, how could you be insecure about such a cool thing?

[lostgained]

This is me! But because my legs are so small and I carry all my weight in the middle, it makes me look really dis-proportioned. And I have C cup boobs but the cups aren't wide enough, so I have to get DDs(...). Other than that, broad shoulders don't bother me anymore. 

[lostgained]

One hour dedicated to weights.

Aaaaaand, now I'm dead.

90KG leg press, 65KG ab/adductor, 40KG lats, 10 and 12KG on free weights as of today...

And I was pulling out brambles and trees/weeding this morning. So I'm ready for death. 

[lostgained]

Yo, biceps, I wish you were busting seams.

On the plus side, I'm getting a bit more tricep definition. Gone from 8KG to 12 in a couple of weeks...I know, I'm a weakling, but we all need a starting point!

[lostgained]

Fitblr Update #2

Due to webcam problems, it's a blog version this week!

My week has been fairly the same as last, I've not been able to go to the gym because I didn't want to risk a scene from The Shining happening in the gym(it happened like, 4 times throughout the week TMI) and it was pretty painful so I gave it a rest.

But I'm back in before work tomorrow! I can't wait(even if it will be like 7am).

My diet has been pretty much the same as last week as well, on and off, but now I'm in work pretty much all week it will be less tempting to snack and also being in the gym will be less tempting to snack.

I really need to up my water because I find myself getting a really dry mouth and not drinking enough that I need to.

Other than that, all I can say is I can't wait to get back in the gym!

Hope you're all well. :)

[girlyme]

[lostgained]

YES, POOH, YES IT IS. 

[late-nightsnack]

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Can't wait for my body to stop shedding itself.

So I can get back on the weights.

I was making so much progress in terms of going up KGs on dumbbells and I'm really excited to go back but right now my back and ov'z are hurting like a bitch and I'm really not going to risk it.

Hope you're all well! <3

[harmoniesofmine]

Be happy

[lostgained]

If you want something to watch, watch Fat Head.

Just finished it(on YouTube if anyone wants to watch it!) and it was so informative and eye opening. I never realised how much money and power had to do with the food industry. I knew partially how the Gov controlled our diets but not that much.

Part 2 is definitely one to show anyone who lives with the slogan, 'bacon is bad, bread is best' as it goes into all the sciences behind nutrients and what happens with insulin, fat and sugar.

I honestly did not expect that much of it, I just thought it would be a 'you're wrong, I'm right' kind of doc, but it was well worth the watch!

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[lostgained]

I need to start

Associating things for when my period is about to start. Like I know my skin gets bad and I get really upset a couple of days before, but craving carbs and being extra lenient are now the ones to watch out for as well.

On the other hand, I tend to drop a good couple of lbs afterwards(last time 7lbs), so that will be on the cards to check later on in the week...

But as for today, I am dying for some eggs and bacon. So it must be the start of a good day! Hope you're all well. :)

[lostgained]

I get a bit out-of-control when I eat anything that’s crunchy and a bit carby. Even something like nuts or kale chips, it gets really hard to stop. But it sounds like you really went deep into it this time. I’m sorry, that is not fun! What can you do, other than to dust yourself off, forgive yourself and get back in the saddle. When I am wishing to eat everything in creation, I often put on the hot water machine so that I have hot water for tea instantly available, and I just drink a shit-ton of tea all day. That settles me usually. Did something happen to set you off? Is there something you need to get off your chest?

-Bliss Manifesto

Firstly I have to say sorry I haven't answered this sooner! I've been super busy but this message has been playing on my mind for a couple of days. Thank you so much for sending it, Bliss. :)

Things are starting to look up now, I don't feel as stressed right now so I'm not constantly thinking about eating and food etc. I think stressing about things like not feeling fulfilled and bored with things then feeling down about people, it all happened at once and just set it off. But the good part is that's subsiding now and I finally feel more in control of what I'm doing. Still a work in progress but I'm getting there!

Also, thankyou so much for sending your advice and kind words every time, Bliss, it honestly means a lot when I can't see the wood for the trees. :)