What Is This World?

I can't say it out loud so I type it...

[lostmohments]

Everything I do seems to create sadness and stress and someone getting hurt. Pain come to me and I can't stop it. I'm tired of being the sad boring ugly girl who hates herself and I cant deal with it. I want to love myself and love who I am and what I look like. I don't want to pick out my imperfections and cry myself to sleep and everything. I'm just tired of hiding how I feel to everyone but one person who I honestly don't know if they hate me or not. Because guess what, I hurt them too.

[lostmohments]

[lostmohments]

Lmao

I'm so done

[lostmohments]

Who Am I?

I would never say my real identity on here, because this is a wonderful place to be anonymous and let my feelings out. But I don't even know who I am myself, so even if wanted to tell you, I probably could not tell you who I am. I don't understand my brain in anyway. What do I feel? And how bad is it? I have nothing to compare my brain to, I can't compare how bad my sadness is next to someone else's because there simply is no scale to explain how bad sadness is and when it becomes a problem. I don't know who I want to be. Do I want to be popular or a drifter? Which stereotype do I want to come under? Indie, punk, nerd? Who knows? What do I want to do in my life? Travel or work for the best job possible? Who knows? I certainly don't.

[d-e-a-d-ly]

[paradoxic-reality]

[inkskinned]

i have all this anger in me. i wish i didn’t but it’s so much and so bright and i don’t want to keep swallowing it. it eats at me because it has to eat something so all this rage i have for no reason comes swinging back to punch me. like my fists are tired of me not using them so they only raise to leave my own body bruised. it’s tiring. i’m tired. in the movies depression is sobbing at two in the morning. in my life depression is being heartsick so loudly you can taste it. in my life depression is a sharpness that you can’t pull back. 

fog is coming back over me. if i’m going to have a blanket over my thoughts you’d think they’d at least let me sleep.

[nuancez]

[lostmohments]

[lostmohments]

I don't know what to do

[babiejadiums]

[kaifection-deactivated20191204]

If I cry in front of you, believe me, I reached my limit.

(via eiskalterjunge)

and I cry too often nowadays

(via lostmohments)

[witnessmydemise-blog]

[difficult]

I think part of the reason people take photos is because they’re afraid that moment will never happen again.

(via difficult)

[transheadcrab]

do you ever get mad at yourself because youre not even good at the things you thought you were good at

[lostmohments]

All the time

[difficult]

I think part of the reason people take photos is because they’re afraid that moment will never happen again.

(via difficult)

[clotair]

i wish no one knew anything about me