A Little Hurt Never Hurt Nobody
Iām sad.
Iām single again.
But Iām not sad that Iām single. Iām just sad how it played out. How I feel played.
As you may or may not remember, I took on the the task of dating a recovering addict whom relapsed, with a string of mental health issues among other things. And despite all that, I tried. Itās me after all. I try to see the best in everyone, whether thatās too my detriment.
Even though I feel a weight off my shoulders, Iām still sad. Breakups are just hard. You see someone at least once a week, you text good morning, you text goodnight, they integrate with your life, people ask whereās X when you show up alone⦠and *snap*, you have to learn to live life alone again. And itās that part Iām mostly sad about.
Do I suggest you dating a recovering addict? Iām not gonna say yes or no. If you have the will power, the mental strength, they treat you right, they make you smile, they make you feel good about yourself, then yeah, go for it. When I had last posted, everyone said I was crazy to even think about dating him. However, itās not the addict part that got me, it was the mental illness, the I donāt feel my best self around you that got to me.
Prior to the ending things with him, the night before. I ran into two exes at the club.
- The one I āhurtā and blocked me on all socials, flaunting his new bf in my face. Luckily, I already knew the guy + I already heart through the grapevine so I wasnāt blind sided.
- The one that hurt me and belittled me. He was upset that I havenāt been responding to his DMs and that I didnāt want to dye his hair. He drunkenly admitted that he just wanted to be friends Bc Iām so amazing and I know who I am. āI helped him become who he is and love his gay sideā I told him how he belittled me and I never listened to my friends when they told me he did. I felt a great weight off my chest.
Anyways. The point is. 3 exes within a 12 hour span. My heart and mind was heavyā¦
Followed by this new guy. Honestly, Iāll say it here, he might be it. But I donāt want to hype it up either.
HOWEVER, even though X meant less to me over time, I need time to recover before I can really be with this new guy. But Iām scared if I tell him, he is gonna think he is the rebound. Or that I technically cheated with him, and then broke up with X.
As always, sorry for this long post. I just had to write something as I was just laying in the bed. Crying over X, Bc even though he wasnāt significant, my heart still feels heavy.
Thank you for listening. Reading. I always appreciate it. Appreciate you. Xoxo












