#meth addiction

[corpseflowerisregulus]

Regulus: I understand why I do things, it doesn't make me any different. I'm attracted to craziness.

Regulus: And YOU're just embarrassed because I was this- I was this amazing thing, like your special creation or something. And you don't like who I am now

Sirius: yeah? Who are you Regulus?

Regulus: This is me Siri. Here. This is who I am

Regulus: you know... the more i think about it. You should had left me with our parents.

[stonergrrl34]

i'm almost a year off meth

good riddance i say

[lost-ash-es]

recovery pt. 2

dope and coke, weed and xans

dreams and nightmares, poison cans

itchin crawlin sweatin floatin

pills and powder, syrup tokin

beggin fiendin, shootin copin

slippin, faded

gone and jaded

this is what I been cravin?

quit

I'm clean

relapse

repeat

quit

I'm clean

relapse

repeat

quit

clean

relapse

repeat

quit

clean

relapse

quit

clean

clean

quit

clean

quit.

clean.

-ash

[the-drug-addicts-diary]

For a past few weeks, or maybe months, i had this nostalgic desire to repeat my past. It was annoying.

A few days ago, I found pictures of me in active addiction. And I looked at the old me, without any resentment, thanking her for keeping me alive long enough for me to start living again.

I felt genuine love for the part of me i always thought was completely unlovable. I felt pure love for everything that made me who i am.

I felt the love i always deserved.

That feeling made me understand, that being soft and kind is always much braver, than being hard and cold. I think i smiled. And just like that, i felt complete.

Just like that, i knew that i am worth staying for.

17 months

[relapse-rise-recover]

August 12th 2023

Really struggling with relapse.

Can’t post on my main socials.

This is my outlet instead that’s safe at 120am on a Friday night/ Saturday morning.

Keeping some pretty dark secrets here.

As they say you can’t save your face and your ass at the same time. I’m sure it will come to the top soon.

Trying really hard to manage this disease. When I know it’s unmanageable and will only get worse if I don’t surrender.

But I said I’d never go back to recovery if I relapsed again. I know it’s my pride and my ego. And I gotta get honest with everybody about it if I want a chance.

Please pray for me- that I find the willingness to surrender again and for good, that I get the chance to before it gets worse, that I make it through this alive.

[sporadicphilosophercupcake]

Bottom left are active addiction to IV heroin and meth, the rest are from 5 years of hard work and recovery on my sobriety journey. I don't give myself props often, but I'm really fucking proud of me, I over came alot of terrible trauma not just in addiction, but in my teen years as well, il be , 30 this year and I'm so happy il be enjoying those years sober.

[therealvinelle]

Looking at your post about Tom Riddle being hot as an adult, what actor do you think would best resemble how you imagine adult Tom to look?

The post being referred to (which Muffin wrote)

"Being hot as an adult", you do know that even JKR agrees Tom kept his looks for several years after Hogwarts, it's just that she insists that he got hooked on the dark arts after leaving Britain and... well, to hear her and Dumbledore describe what happened to Tom's face it brings Hank Schraeder pointing at meth addicts to mind.

Some serious moralizing going on in these books with bad people being ugly (or, if they're attractive, it's an evil seductive attractiveness. I fondly look back on Dumbledore describing Tom the orphan as having a sense of "dark glamour" about him. Just... keep talking about your students that way, old man).

All that being said, my go to casting for Tom Riddle would be Peter o'Toole as he looked in Lawrence of Arabia. He is easily the most charismatic and compelling man in any room, incredibly intense, yet also deeply eccentric.

And of course, very good-looking with striking features.