| -lovely, |

o.m chronically hopeless romantic what goes unsaid winds up here

[lovelyonme]

love

has purpled palms

from the weight of her own affections

and fingerlight bruises

angel kisses on her forearm

traces of want

a need love never knew

to be wanted

to be clung to

rather than the one to cling

-lovely,

om

[lovelyonme]

Academia 4 Life

Changing is growing is discovering

something new

is that scary?

will I do it anyway?

New is different is challenging

the state of things

is that a bad thing?

will you do it with me?

Things are restless; are confusing

propaganda for fact

why else do we educate?

what do we know?

the magic of discovery

revealed in dexterous fingertips

centuries of knowledge

behind paywalls and formatting requirements

who else will learn, teacher?

[lovelyonme]

the kinda guy that looks like good dancing doesn't just forgive, he loves too

[lovelyonme]

| favorite word |

Fuck off, dude

and you do not know

who the man is, who is on

who needs

to Fuck

Off

-lovely,

[lovelyonme]

creature allure

Hello, friend

poking, peering out of

primordial hummus

Knower of nothing, of

darkness, of damp Earth

and suffocating air

Dearest friend, I know

you, in light, in love

with the roots you crawl between,

the ancient world of buried secrets you

explore, digging, blindly

discover divide, split

in the center, spliced

down the middle, again,

again,

again,

your heart

in five

In time- darling creature,

lovely, little

worm, the chances you take

hearts you break-

five times is knowing

-lovely,

[lovelyonme]

and my father’s most reliable traits

mirrored in my own face

hands

behavior

leave bitter distaste

similar shoes smaller steps

incapable of producing pride without power in your pants

I am powerless

I am innocent

I cannot wield what is not made for me

[lovelyonme]

My darling, you inspire so much

love, acceptance, crushes, gossip

but more importantly;

kindness, laughter, and my most gentle nature

was first inspired by your perfect, infinite, forgiveness

[lovelyonme]

-storyteller-

I have a knack

for spotting a powerful narrative

I cling to it

like the desperate, starved, tortured poet

I am

need for more

gluttony

my original sin

my divine truth

never enough words

in a breath

take every vowel

every second

to conquer

too many

nights awake

tracing light through

half-closed lids

tracing patterns on

freckled shoulders

simultaneous

adoration

and self-loathing

I force myself

into locked rooms

doors I was told

not to open

stained keys

cracked eggs

lives lost for the reverie

my lips

on the soft side of

a clenched fist

callouses I cling to

childish notions

featherlight touch

will be enough

do you trust

these shaking hands

to carry the weight

of your soul

?

I trust you

regardless

this story

inscribed in my

bleeding palms

cannot be unwritten

stained by what I hold

cursed to leave claw marks

on all within my grasp

nails will not press

crescent moons in supple skin

already scarred

I am not foolish enough

to believe a heartshattered

cracks from my own bruteforce

would stay

still,

ignite this fire

and watch it burn

reflected in the crystal blue

of an inspired spirit

for now

it is a glorious display

of light

love

life

when I fall to ash

carry the whispers of my sonnets

in your ears

as soft as mornings

breath on your cheek

before my nature

devours us both

(l.o.m)

[lovelyonme]

I don’t know

when

churchbells will ring

for my soul

to touch heaven

requires attendance

of

weddings

or funerals

-lovely,

o.m

[lovelyonme]

I dreamt of divine creation— the pinnacle of power; love, life

-you were there too

[lovelyonme]

Flushed cheeks in January rain— only with you ringing in my ears

Adorned & Listening

[lovelyonme]

-the margins-

friend

to [me]

or

are

you

didn’t

yo

u

ha t e

forgive

I

…

[lost]

-lovely,

om

[lovelyonme]

-wouldyoueven miss m e-

Heaven forbid I leave

any sense of permanence

in your world

gather my things quickly

efficient

apologetic if I forget

anything

with wine staining my baseboards

and your fingerprints bruising my forearm

all I want to cling

to your permanence

the stains and scars

the mess we make

I just know my own

tend to be

uncontrollable

out of hand

overwhelming

suffocate my mother

with a life she loves in hindsight

words I no longer believe

words I never believed

I was never taught to

I was never told

I love you

I love you

and I kiss your face

and I’m sorry

I don’t mean to

I love you

forgive me

again

and again

again

until you leave

until I cling

to the permanence you left for me

and wonder if

the memories of my

bruised skin

might

be enough

for you to love me back

-lovely,

o.m

[lovelyonme]

I cannot possibly believe you love me

-that dream has never been real

i ty

[lovelyonme]

fighting words

ripping from my throat

you don’t know me

but then again,

neither do I

(l.o.m)

[lovelyonme]

I am a creature of love

that has never once swallowed affection

without sucking it dry

of sickly sweet flavor

turn bitter medicine

by mid-january

(l.o.m)

[lovelyonme]

I’ll make myself the problem; that will fix everything

child’s hands//superglue