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I have been accompanied by these babies since December 2017. They were gifted by my good friend here in Manila.

I have been listening to Khalid nonstop for the whole month of April. The whole Amercian Teen album took me to a whole other level of music.

To more music and artist discovery this 2018!

#music #khalid #favorite #2018

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Went to Batangas without any plans what to do there. We just wanted to go to Lipa and visit our colleague's place and family. It was my first time to try the famous Batangas Lomi from Liam’s. It was definitely good! The serving was so big I wasn’t able to finish mine.

#batangas #lipa #lomi #2018 #april #birthmonth #april 09 #daily

Moving on

You have to face it, not everything you want will be yours. We were raised believing that if we work hard for something we want, it’ll be ours. But no one ever mentioned that there are some things that aren’t meant for you. It was all “try harder the next time” but never “maybe it’s time to give up and move on”.

In my early twenty’s, I’ve never imagined my life to be mentally challenging. Since 2014, I can say I’ve never felt genuine happiness anymore. I still have my family and friends who have been always there through tough times but I still cry every night because of the emptiness I feel inside of me. I must admit, napapalayo na rin ako kay God. I still have my faith in Him but rarely do I call Him anymore; But I’m finding my way back into Him this year. Di ko alam kung matutupad pa ba mga pangarap ko para sa sarili ko. I have always wanted to become a medical doctor and ang masakit pa I had it in my hands na tapos na wala pa. I don’t know what are His plans for me but so far wala akong nagustuhan sa mga nangyayari. Yes, I have grown so much as an individual, career wise and more mature than ever, but is that it? Everybody has a purpose in this world pero ano ba purpose ko? Living like this for the past three years is really exhausting. I don’t even know if this is what they call “depression”.

I am growing tired of telling myself that everything will be ok in time. Feeling ko never na maging ok eh. Pag may nangyayaring maganda alam ko na may kasunod na problema and the cycle goes on.

Wait lang, baka sabihin mo, “Ano ba tong babae na’to napakaungrateful.” Hold on, I’m still thankful na I have a job, I can eat whatever I want, and all the little things.Conscious ako na I have this life. Iba kasi tong nafefeel ko. Di ko ma explain. Di ko rin ma explain to someone kasi baka ma misinterpret lang ako kaya I’m writing (maybe typing is the right word) this down here. Maybe one day I can look back into this post and say, “dear past self, everything will be ok. Kasi ok na ako ngayon.” Charot! Oh diba? So going back... oh diba, may signs din ba ako sa pagiging bipolar?

My mood swings are really terrible and I can’t help it. I just want people to understand me. To give you (reading this post) a short description of myself, I may come off as a bubbly person to almost anyone around me and I may seem to look like I’m really happy and contented but deep down I really am not. When I’m alone, I can have major breakdowns and I can’t explain why. Wala naman akong iniisip right before akong umiyak. I lost so many people for the past three years that I lost myself as well. Wala na nga akong ganang mag take ng pictures, and definitely sumayaw. Ang sumayaw na pinakapaborito kong gawin sa buong mundo, wala na akong gana for it now. Dancing is my passion but wala na akong motivation or reason to dance.

To make the story short, I am not ok.

Pero gusto ko na maging ok.

#notes #february 27 #2018 #daily

Back to blogging

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Hello tumblr! It’s been a long time since I opened you. I am officially back to blogging. Since this is my first post for 2018, though it’s already February, happy new year!

Today, I got my internet connection installed! Another monthly bill to pay. Hahaha But internet is my source of entertainment here in my apartment. I’m also excited because I get to blog again. The blogging community has changed (so much) since the year (2009?) I started blogging. Also, my phone’s screen cracked.

I got my hair dyed to golden blonde last January. I also gained a lot since last year. I computed my BMI and the result is alarming! I’m already overweight. I should start exercising. Hahaha

I’m recently addicted into wearing contact lenses. I’ve purchased a lot for someone who really doesn’t need it.

I think this is it so far for my 2018. Oh, I’m also planning in going abroad for work. It’s an 80:20 ratio as of the moment or maybe 90:10.

fitandhealthyhero

1. Get more sleep 2. Drink more water 3. Get more exercise 4. Read more 5. Get more organized 6. Clean more often 7. Explore more 8. Relax more 9. Have more patience 10. Be happy

(via wewillbefitandhealthy)

sooon!

(via littlelostpisces)

I need this in my room! Printed and maybe framed.

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When you’ve got friends who are always there to put up with your katangahan sa pag-ibig.

#mobile #2017 #march #daily

Oct. 10, 2016

Today is mom’s birthday and we just had a mini fam celebration. We went to Cafe Laguna for a vavavoom lunch. I know that’s a lot of fried food but we had chopsuey and sinigang which are obviously not in the post because we were hungry. It was good food! No traditional pancit and cake for the birthday celebrant but it was all good.

Ended the lunch with a great dessert, Halo-halo. The ube in it was the bomb!

#trixyshots #food #lovelyeats #cebu #2016 #october

I don’t even know why is this still in my drafts. Hahaha So I’m posting it!

#gif #people #cebu

I have not blogged anything decent for a year now. As much as I want to continue and be active, I lack in resources right now (eg. internet and a decent laptop). Back in Cebu, home internet is as fast as the speed of light and I blog using our desktop. I have my laptop with me here in Manila but it needs to be updated and no internet (my cellular data or wifi from anywhere) can handle it.

I have tons of time in my hands now that I’m working because after work what else would I do with my life besides doing some basic life skills that until now I still lack. Hahaha like cooking a decent meal for myself. Living alone made me very lazy, with no one around to watch me lay in bed all day. I can even survive a day without eating because who wants to eat in a lonely room? I ain’t got TV to entertain me. I’ve managed to watch a lot movies though I’m really not into them. What else? I even have spotify premium to entertain me but I have an attention span of a goldfish so I get really really bored easily.

But I’ve made progress with my Instagram beauty account. I update it at least once a day. Hahaha My weapon of choice right now is my iPhone and it pretty much captures well. But I can’t rely on it when it comes to blog posts here on Tumblr and on my beauty blog at Blogspot. Can never sacrifice quality, you guys! I like looking and reading at blogs with great photos so my blog should be the same!

With that, I would like to ask any recommendations on: • pocket wifi (prepaid) - I’m leaning towards Smart just because signal ain’t a problem with it.

• SD card - wifi ready - So I can just transfer photos from cam to phone easily for my Instagram.

• Any additional advices

#august #2016 #blog #lifeinmnl #personal

#resurrected

July 12, 2015

Just got off from a phone call and my eyes are really swollen right now from crying. I’m at a coffee shop right now trying to pass the time. A woman sitting in front of me is talking to herself and doing some crossword puzzle. On my left is someone busy interpreting xray stuff. People are busy except me. Pfft they may seem to look a lot busier than me but my mind is all fxcked up right now. If this is what they call a quarter-life crisis then I need a drug for this!

I get up in the morning, go to work, go back home, and the cycle repeats all over and over. I am tired of doing exactly nothing. Nothing in my life right now is something that I wanted to do. I need a getaway but I can’t.

I have so much things in my mind but I can’t express it! I want to let them out but I just can’t.

Not quite adult

It has been five months of living away from my family. No, it was not easy at all with all the drama that has happened in between. I never have imagined that I will be going to go through something like this in my life, ever. (Making this sound more dramatic than it seems to be) Though I am still blessed, but I am only human so you can still find me complaining about things that I don’t even have a control of it.

When I first started this journey, never have I thought about the real thing. The ideal world that I have built in my head is way far from reality, which gave me a lot of difficulties in dealing with the things that has happened. Imagine moving into four places in just five months. I have friends here but nothing beats our long time best friends, right? With work, though I really didn’t encounter big problems, I have shamed myself a few times because of lack of assertiveness, which I am working on really hard right now.

I have to mention, my schedule for the past two months is from Mondays to Fridays from 6am to 2pm with two days off (obviously on Saturdays and Sundays). During off days, work doesn’t stop there. I have to take care of myself because who else would? I have to do my laundry, cook for myself and clean my place. Groceries and other things can be done after work. Luckily, I have learned to not let stress from work get into my nerves and just leave it at work. That’s one thing people should be doing anyway.

Living alone with only a few stuff to entertain me in my so called home as of the moment makes me loco, ok? There are days when I don’t want to go the mall just to save money, just like today; I have resorted to all of my options here. Thanks to my 3G/LTE for providing me the power to stalk people from work and laptop for making me watch Sherlock (BBC) all over again.

As I am typing these things, it made me realize that my life right now isn’t that dramatic after all. But why do I feel very sad every now and then? I caught myself staring at the wall and do that thing I am good at, overthink. I feel so empty sometimes. Even at work sometimes I don’t feel ok at all. Even at this very moment of typing, there’s a sudden shift of mood. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Is there something wrong with me?

Help.

#notquiteadult #2015 #thechange #septemeber