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I don’t know what it’s like to be loved, like truly loved by another. The only people who knew all of me and loved me are dead and gone. How I miss my grandparents.

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Nothing’s changed

Vomit of the Heart

Life with all its ups and downs

tells you how to feel

There is much pressure to conform to the norm

I’m not the norm,

I’m an oddity in itself

I had a speech impediment that stopped me from having a normal childhood

On top of that I didn’t learn to ride a bike

we couldn’t afford them

I played with barbies and power tools

I baked cakes and took a sledgehammer to hardened roofing tar

Before my first date I was hung off the roof by my throat

To show the dominance of my younger but bigger brother

I got beatings I didn’t always deserve

I babysat and did the math

I chose to stay a virgin for longer than most

I’ve only let a handful in

I’ve met one person who makes me want to show my world

Love me or break me

I don’t care anymore

Well, I do

But I can handle either

You’ll see me

You can appreciate me or walk away

I’m scared and not

all at the same time

I know the wounds are new and the pain is

recent

for both of us

I feel a confidence I haven’t felt in my life

My face hurts from smiling

I feel like a dork

How can these emotions be in me

Yet as much as

I want to let you in

I’m holding back

There’s parts of me I know I can’t open

I feel like a box

Open me and let me spill out

until the knowledge becomes too much

Then Look, but don’t touch

Push me away when it becomes too real

There is a passion that has never known it’s flame

Burning as bright as a candle with the need of a star

Look to those stars when you think of me

I’m probably staring at them contemplating you

This is better than a yo-yo because I know my feelings won’t be a light switch to be turned off and on

There will be no flipping of the dime

I feel like I’m on this one way street and the only way forward is straight up

In the clouds with my heart on my lap there I do sit

Waiting to be noticed

No I’m not a rainbow nor a unicorn

I’m just so damaged I can’t be fake

Ask me anything

I’ll tell you what I can

What I can’t you’ll have to be patient with

There is this waterfall that just erupted

No walls can contain this flood

No hope of slowing down these words

This is me

All me

Every thought

Every breathe

Every mumble

Every fear

Everything

Take it or leave it

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What is lost can be found.

Today was a rough day

I was already feeling lost

Then a man reached out to me saying he could be my uncle

I’m so numb and shocked that I can’t even cry

What do I think

What do I do

What if we’re not related

What if we are and he gets scared and never contacts me again

What if he has all the answers I need

I feel like I have vertigo and heart palpitations

An outsider would look at me and never know

I am lost

No one knows the true me

I don’t know me

What if my answers lay in my genetics

I could actually belong somewhere

Do you know what it’s like to always feel alone

Even when you are sitting in a room full of family who are no more than strangers

Wondering about the strangers that could be family

With my stomach in knots all I can do is wait

Do I hope

I can’t say

#family #lost #lost places #confused #nervous

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This Personality Quiz Will Determine Your Greatest Fear

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What are your results?

omnipresentsidenote

Bruh

d-structive

Holy Fudge…It kinda worked for me..

lazycake252

Fear Of Rejection is what I got, I guess it true to some extent

monstermemories

fear of the unknown, i guess that’s kinda true for me

jiangxuezhe

Fear Of Intimacy…very true

platypuswarrior833

Fear of Intimacy… wow, too accurate

bellshellsrage

Fear of the Unknown… yup.

ginnyhermione-c3po

Fear of Loss- damn thats true

tigermunchy-deactivated20220926

Fear of rejection. Don’t call me out like this!

renacity

Fear of the Unknown… yeah.

inkedpierced

Fear of rejection… Spot on.

stoic-space-wizard-deactivated2

Rejection.. Well, saw that coming, but yeah. Not going to deny it. :(

sakuraneko18-deactivated2020101

Fear of Intimacy…. Beyond accurate

jewels-foxy

“Fear of intimacy” hella true bro…..hella true

paxtonxvi

Loss yeah it’s true

freshmusiq

Fear of the Unknown. This is so true

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‪Its important to remind yourself that this is not a race. Do what you can do today. You will get to where you are going. Progress happens in layers. ‬

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Analysis of Captain Hook

“Giving disabilities to villainous characters reflects and reinforces, albeit in exaggerated fashion, three common prejudices against handicapped people; disability is a punishment for evil; disabled people are embittered by their “fate”; disabled people resent the nondisabled and would, if they could, destroy them,” –Paul Longmore

As the author Jack A. Nelson states in his article “Broken Images: Portrayals of Those with Disabilities in American Media,” people with disability are often seen in media as a villain. “The image of threatening, evil character who also has a prominent disability,” Nelson states and he goes onto specifically mention the prevalence a deformity of the body in villainous characters (Nelson, 5). One of such characters includes Captain Hook in the Disney 1953 release of Peter Pan. The dominate storyline in this film is because Peter Pan has chopped Captain Hook’s hand off, the hooked- man will endlessly seek revenge and kill the boy wonder– Peter Pan.

Disney’s main depiction Captain Hook is one of an amputee. The main focuses on Hook’s identity is as a hooked man. As a character, Captain Hook is driven by this notion that he is a crippled man and thus leaving children to believe this is a negative condition of life. The audience is not given the opportunity to see Captain Hook’s character before his disability. “Disney animators unfortunately accentuate Hook’s prosthesis at every turn; indeed, there are very few shots of the captain in which the hook is not conspicuous, as he often uses to mete out punishment or simply brandishes it as a threat,“ (Norden 216). We don’t know whether he was "evil” before this incident with Peter Pan, or if his amputated hand is truly the root of his evil. By painting Captain Hook as an single dimensional character, children are forced to assume that Captain Hook is evil because of his hook!

It does not help that Disney makes Captain Hook out to like a crazy person. He literally goes insane by the end of the film. In the ending sequence, Captain Hook’s eyes being to spin, he turns bright red with anger and his body convulses as Peter Pan defeats him. Disney portrays going “mad” as negative, a result of defeat. Disney also shines a negative light on having a disability in general. Captain Hook uses the fact that he has a disability as the sole reasoning for seeking revenge on Peter Pan. Hook is dissatisfied with his life as and amputee and is unable to cope with it. As Jack Nelson defines in his article, “persons are bitter and full of self pity because they have not learned to handle their disability,” (Nelson, 6). As a maladjusted person with a disability, Captain Hook is bitter and self loathing for merely being a one-handed man. Hook obsesses over defeating Peter Pan, avoiding the possibility of another incident with the crocodile and the fact that he has a hook for a hand. Peter Pan has driven him insane and children watching can only conclude having a disability (like missing a hand) will drive you crazy—crazy enough to manipulate everyone around you and crazy enough to want to kill.

Questions for Your Kids:

Do you think Captain Hook should blame Peter Pan or the crocodile?

Are you scared of Captain Hook’s hook?

Does Captain Hook remind you of any of our family members? If yes, imagine Captain Hook as ___? Are you still scared of him?

How might Captain Hook use his hook for things other than being a pirate?

I suggest using Disney films as a platform for introducing your children to more and more different types of disabilities whether it is physical, mental or social.