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⋆｡°✩ ⋆｡°✩ jily enthusiast, zinnia lover @loverlupin on ao3

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Multi-chapter:

Louder Than Words (Rated E, 81k, 20/20 chapters published) - “Lily is tired of keeping herself from what she wants, and James is the (infuriating, glorious) new student in Professor McGonagall’s piano studio who is more than happy to indulge her.”

One-shots:

rated t:

Haunted (2.3k) - "As the war progresses, Lily has unshakable nightmares."

Mornings at the Potters' (2.6k) - "Lily grows increasingly close with James while she grieves her parents’ deaths."

Strawberries (and Other Magical Oddities) (10k) - “James notices Lily's harmonious connection to nature in a series of events throughout their years at Hogwarts.”

Going to Cokeworth (11k) - "In the middle of sixth year, James visits Lily in Cokeworth for the first time, learning more about her home and family life while their friendship reaches the cusp of something more."

rated e:

That's all? (4k) - "Lily needs one million bells to pay back her Animal Crossing debt, and knows just who to ask for it. OR, the one where a joking proposition becomes a reality for two pining friends who see it as their only chance at intimacy together."

Six Weeks (4.1k) - "Lily feels a glimmer of herself returning after Euphemia orders her and James to rest for the first time in six weeks."

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jily, 1979

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jily modern au where lily is going through it until she meets james at a bar and he treats her right :)

(all pics from pinterest)

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Hiii for your fic ask questions can you answer 15 please?

hi, thank for you asking!

i’ll go by total bookmarks (including private) based on the stats page on my ao3

softly - 78

louder than words - 49

that’s all? - 20

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Louder Than Words

jily, multi-chapter, rated e, complete

read the final chapter “Papillons, Op. 2: No. 12 (Finale), Robert Schumann”

or start from the beginning.

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Lily Evans wants to be the subject of Schumann’s Papillons, dreamy and ethereal. She wants to let herself bloom like the flowers in this early spring, resilient despite the frost that clings to their petals each night. She wants to live, forget, and relinquish all that she left behind in 1978 — and may just do so, when she sees (rather, hears) James Potter for the first time.

Or, the one where Lily is tired of keeping herself from what she wants, and James is the (infuriating, glorious) new student in Professor McGonagall’s piano studio who is more than happy to indulge her.

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Listen to the playlist here.

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Lovelorn

an epistolary ode to first loves

mary/lily, 2.4k words, rated t

read it on ao3

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Since I’m already in the mood for betraying all of my feelings (perhaps stealing mum’s bottle of wine from the fridge is aiding this endeavor), I need to ask: is it because we held hands in the dark after Remus’ birthday party? Is it because I kissed you on the cheek afterward and told you that I love you differently than I love my other friends? Is it because of something different entirely, where I’ve supremely fucked up without knowing it? Whatever it may be, I’m sorry. And I miss you. And I want to have tea at sunrise and dance to the songs on the radio and forget all about the weirdness with you.

I will be awake agonizing over this letter from the moment I send it, so I really prefer you’d call in lieu of using my elderly owl as a method of communication. I need to feel okay about us again.

-Lily

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Louder Than Words

jily, multi-chapter, rated e, ongoing

Lily Evans wants to be the subject of Schumann’s Papillons, dreamy and ethereal. She wants to let herself bloom like the flowers in this early spring, resilient despite the frost that clings to their petals each night. She wants to live, forget, and relinquish all that she left behind in 1978 — and may just do so, when she sees (rather, hears) James Potter for the first time.

Or, the one where Lily is tired of keeping herself from what she wants, and James is the (infuriating, glorious) new student in Professor McGonagall’s piano studio who is more than happy to indulge her.

Listen to the playlist.

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Chapter 19 out now!

Read “Interlude - 12 Songs, Op. 21: V. Lilacs, Sergei Rachmaninoff” on ao3

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“It’s each of these little things, secrets in and of themselves, that James has kept hidden in plain sight all of this time. His love over the past months was without words and yet is just as powerful as the phrase murmured against her lips, in her hair, and over her heart now. She holds it just as reverently in her soul, turning the memories of his gestures over in her mind, and truly feels known from the ways he has loved her all along.”

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having seen your other answers I want to ask about 13 🙃🙃

so enjoy louder than words btw! You write beautifully ❤️✨

thank you so much! i appreciate you!

13 - tbh i wish i was better at having dedicated time to write during the day. re: answer for #6 i literally just write on the google docs app on my phone in bed, which is not healthy for me and makes all of my writing sessions pretty rushed! if i had more time in my life i could block out a consistent hour or so every few days to write on my laptop, in a cushy chair, with a nice beverage. but alas that will not happen for a long time :/

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oh oh!!! 6 and 10 for the author asks! i looove seeing other people's writing processes xxx

hi, thanks for asking !

6 - phone in bed either extremely late at night or early in the morning. i understand that this is crazy. on very rare occasions it will be laptop at library (only for pg rated stuff tho LMAO. i do not write anything explicit in public bc that feels weird to me)

10 - not really. i have some loose notes if i have ideas for upcoming chapters that i am afraid of forgetting. but even those are vague bc the ideas are mostly just in my head

here’s an example for the louder than words sequel:

like??? it’s so generic and not plot based whatsoever 😭 but i DO have the chapter names and corresponding locations picked out for the sequel so i suppose that counts as an outline too!

example:

(sorry i’m chaotic.)

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#2 and #4 for the asks!!

hii thank you for asking!

2 - my inspo usually strikes when i'm at work. there are parts of my shift where there is downtime in which i'm still *doing* things but don't necessarily have to devote as much brain power, so my mind tends to wander to jily! also the shower lol. this is usually when i'm thinking over my (very loosely) outlined plots and determining if there are any egregious errors + what new directions to take

i just answered #4 but here's a copy of it for your reference:

4 - i usually write a complete draft that i will edit once right before posting! if i am browsing through my doc and see any errors (grammatical, not quite what i wanted to convey, etc.) i will fix it, but this doesn't happen very often. typically it's exclusively the one time edit

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heyy i love your fics soo much (especially jily's domesticity, your perception of them is super cute! i also love to read fics where you can see clearly how much the author really loves lily- and you're great at it)

i was actually wondering both questions 4 and 9- about your writing and editing process in general. how much time do you usually spend on editing and if you write in order?? tysm for the answer already!

hi, thank you so much! i really appreciate your kind words! i love lily and find it very enjoyable to try to craft her character from a blend of canon traits + characteristics from the people that i love :)

4 - i usually write a complete draft that i will edit once right before posting! if i am browsing through my doc and see any errors (grammatical, not quite what i wanted to convey, etc.) i will fix it, but this doesn't happen very often. typically it's exclusively the one time edit

9 - i pretty much only write in order, but if there's a scene i'm bursting with ideas to write + very excited about then i will skip to that! or, if there's a scene that i know is important to include but am not feeling particularly inspired, i'll move on until i feel better about it. i want everything i post / work on to be something that i enjoy, and this usually works out as being written in order - except for those few, irregular exceptions

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8 and 18 for the asks!

hi thank you for the ask!

8 - i’m most excited for the louder than words sequel! currently writing the first chapter and it’s so refreshing to be writing established relationship jily for the first time!

18 - hmmm i really like the fake dating trope! i have no plans to write it but the mutual pining would be so sweet lol

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ask me if you want!

(original post by @ bangtanagan on twitter! please credit them!)

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I can’t believe how close to the end of LTW we are! How does it feel to be nearly done? And can you give us any clues about what themes you’ll be exploring in the sequel??

Hiiii thank you for the ask !!

It’s actually crazy to be done writing LTW and nearly done posting it! This has been consuming my personal time for months now, so for it to be ending is very strange — but conducive to it being sequel time ;)

I’ve not fully fleshed out the sequel plot yet BUT here’s some main things that will be Going On throughout:

-jily being happy together! They deserve love and happiness and being carefree. The sequel WILL heavily feature their wedding :) and lots of domestic bliss before and after

-lily’s relationship to motherhood/being a daughter. I don’t think I will be including harry in this (yet) (trilogy????? jk i’m Not Ready for all that); rather, i’ll be talking about her relationship to her mother and euphemia, how they contrast, and how she’s able to find what she’s been missing with her new family!

-some grief (obviously). because everything i write is ab grief somehow, and i don’t believe that lily will ever be fully moved on from it (nor should she be!). but it will be a DIFFERENT kind of grief than in LTW as she’ll have had a lot more time to live and grow

-james and lily exploring their new careers! i won’t spoil their specific jobs but they DO both relate to piano!! some more of lily’s feminism in music will be relating to this as well !

-i want mary to still be an important character! i think she’ll live nearby to jily and be sort of in the same career space as lily

-more of remus but idk how yet

but to sum it up: the sequel will be about found family, lingering Issues/grief with lily’s biological family, and learning how to let herself be blissful with james <3

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I LOVE this fic so much, and the love confession was PERFECTION. I know you’ve said that in the sequel, Jily is engaged, so will we get to see the proposal? And also, will we see any of Lily at Peverell working with Euphemia over summer? So sad the fic is ending, but happy to know there’s a sequel!

Aw thank you so much 🫶🫶 you are so kind. Your compliments mean the world to me!

I’m planning on having them already be engaged with the start of the fic (it is set 4 yrs post-louder than words; they will have graduated from university the summer prior), so there won’t be a specific proposal scene, but I’ll probably describe The Moment in retrospect!

Since the sequel is set a few years in the future there won’t be any of Lily’s first summer working with Euphemia, but their relationship will still be heavily featured throughout!! I want to emphasize how much Lily needs Euphemia as the mother that she never really got to have, which includes their collaboration as pianists together — just not the specific summer after first year of uni collab alluded to in louder than words! :)

I’m also very happy to be writing the sequel! I was not ready to be out of this extremely specific jily universe that I’ve formed in my head — but it’s so gratifying to hear that it’s not just me!

Thank you for the ask :)

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Louder Than Words

jily, multi-chapter, rated e, ongoing

Lily Evans wants to be the subject of Schumann’s Papillons, dreamy and ethereal. She wants to let herself bloom like the flowers in this early spring, resilient despite the frost that clings to their petals each night. She wants to live, forget, and relinquish all that she left behind in 1978 — and may just do so, when she sees (rather, hears) James Potter for the first time.

Or, the one where Lily is tired of keeping herself from what she wants, and James is the (infuriating, glorious) new student in Professor McGonagall’s piano studio who is more than happy to indulge her.

Listen to the playlist.

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Chapter 18 out now!

Read “Flamenco Sketches - Alternate Take, Miles Davis (with John Coltrane, Cannonball Adderley, and Bill Evans)” on ao3.

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James is waiting for her, having just got out of his History of Music exam and now also officially done for the semester, leaning against the bay window across from Flitwick’s room and looking as eased as Lily feels.

“Hey, Lil. How was it?” He asks. He pushes himself up to walk beside her, threading his hand through hers and dropping a kiss onto the top of her head.

“Pretty good, I think. I fucked up two measures of the sight-singing bit, but the rest of it was easy. And yours?”

“Great, honestly. It mostly covered the earliest history of the piano, which dad has been lecturing me on since the first time I touched the keys,” he laughs and she joins him, blissful and free from the semester’s worth of responsibilities. “It’s just so nice to be finished. Even better than the end of the semester at conservatory.”

“Yeah? Why’s that?” She replies.

He looks contemplative for a moment, then is smiling just as wide again.

“I’ve never had such wonderful plans for the summer before.”

“Me neither,” she agrees, realizing just how true the words are as they leave her lips.

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jily engaged and carefree and so much in love

(all pics from pinterest)